Hello all, i went to see a dietician yesterday, and I was relieved to hear that her advice was in-line with what people say here:
I am to eat 2900-3000 Kcals a day (trying to focus on number of portions of food groups rather than obsessive counting) by adding to my usual 2500-2700 kcal intake
1 glass fruit juice
1 glass of whole milk
1 extra yoghurt or handful of nuts
oil on veggies or spread on bread
I have 5 days to get up to speed with this regime, have stocked up on whole goats milk, juice and some mixed nuts.
She wants me to have gaine 5-10 kilos in two months....which his terrifying as I only managed to gain 10 pounds in over a year, but there was not much negotiation gong on, if i want to get properly healthy, I need to get to a BMI of about 20 and stop procrastinaitng about it!
I guess its going to be pretty tough to up to 3000 psychologically and physically, and gaining that fast will be a strange feeling, but Im determined to stick to the plan as best I can.
MY goal is still initially to get to about 120 pounds (BMI 19.7) which is what she asked for as a minimum gain :S Im not entirely sure that my metabolism will allow this to happen but its an experiment!
She assured me that if i continue to eat 3000 cals my weight will plateau at a much healthier weight, and then I can think about letting the cals drop down a bit, and start working on intuitive eating rather than plans.
I also discovered that the BMI scale is meant to refer to clothed people, not naked, so the BMI I thought I had is a little bit higher, plus apparently my height is 5'5.5 not 5'6....so that bumped up the BMI again! but regardless she made it clear that I was still underweight and could improve my health and move away from obsessive eating :D and Im enthusiastic to see what happens now!
start weight 110 pounds (clothed) BMI = 18 (previously thought it was 17.6)
wish me luck
Hello m'dear! Just popping in to cheer you on some more (sorry for not doing it sooner!) and to say what an inspiration this thread is! And what an inspiration YOU are, too! Not only have you acknowledged a need for action, you have set out a sensible plan and are now achieving what you set out to achieve! Good on you! :D
When you said about picking your face, did you mean as in dermatilomania (think that's how you spell it...) as I have this too and it's a pain in the neck! If not then never mind, it's just I'd be interested to speak to someone else who does this. I mainly do it on my hands around my fingernails...which is terrible for doing exams or anything where I'm under pressure to write quickly or use my hands in a particular way as it can really hurt my poor, abused fingers! :S
I hope you're still feeling positive! I've my appointment tomorrow so will see if I've gained since my last one! Kind of want to have got through the next kilo-boundary as it's been looming on the horizon for too long now and I just want to get past it so that it doesn't scare me anymore!
Sorry for long ramble! I'm getting sleepy lol so probably less coherent...time for bed methinks!
I'm sorry to hear you've had a tough day like that! Seems it was perhaps a day for it- I was feeling very much like that as well. But rest assured, you are the doing the right thing!!! As hard as it is, just keep pushing through! You are right though, it is all silly numbers- what does it matter in the end? I hope you are feeling better today though. Totally thinking of you <3
aww thank you both so much for supporting me :) i had a few shaky days but I think its going to get better. Im not best pleased with what i seem convinced is a horrific wobbly jelly body suit is congealed around me but i was watching my tummy after dinner last night and though - **** it, most women have that, unless they do hundreds of sit-ups a day, or starve, so why am i so scared of having a womanly shaped belly? silly billy..thast just how nature makes women, i am that shape and thats fine...ok nonsense thought, i hope you are listening!!!
Snuffles - I hope you have a positive day and kick your obsessive thoughts - feel free to le tme know on this thread how you are doing i wont consider it a hijack of any sense!
kitcat - I pick at my face and arms - i get tiny bumps under the skin, then pick them so they look horrific and get unflamed and infecetd sometimes. its s nervous habit. terrible. obsessive. i try to scratch or squeezt the evil out from under my skin, but maybe there isnt any evil, and maybe my skin knows how to heal itself much better without my nails intervening?!! good luck with your weigh in, once you reach a next number it stops being so terrifying..no? I thought 8 stone would be the end of the world and it wasnt i look almost the same as at 7 stone! mental. now I just have to transcent the 113 pound level (unclothed). hopefully saturdays weigh in will be there..if not Im going to have to stop fanny-arsing around and get on with this full-throttle cos those days where i dont do so well...i COULD do just as well but I stop myself - there should not be excuses im dedicated to doing this so I have to do it, not make excuses.
It is going to get better ;-) The only way is up ;-)
Of course that shape is fine! I know it's hard to accept. I am slowly coming to turns with accepting my stomach at the moment. My friend finds it quite cute actually and really, what is the worst that could happen from having a proper womanly stomach? It's not going to hurt me ;-) It's how we are meant to be :D
Thank you very much! Perhaps I will write a bit more, maybe tomorrow ;-) I am doing okay though, much much better than even several weeks ago! I just need a bit of a push to seriously up my cals for proper gaining. But other than a few odd distorted thoughts/urges I am going okay :) Hope you had a better day today :) Well done really trying to stick to the plan though :)
each day i am dogged by some recurring thoughts usually in this order:
The last few weeks were a freak incident if i keep eating this much Im going to balloon
I've already ballooned since my last weigh, I cant increase more or I'll get even more massive and wont cope with the huge number
I have no right to feel hungry at all on the amount I am eating
I'm getting fatter and everyone around me is getting skinner
I'm going to be fatter than all my colleagues, family and friends soon
I'm going to try and eat 3,000 calories anyway because I agreed with the dietician to try
But her letter to my GP said 2500 was my previous intake and I needed approx another 300 a day so thats only 2800..surely then that's enough, even though I told her I was already having 2600-2700 a day...
I've got to 2700 and can only squeeze in a teeny bit more, Im so full and bloated and disgusting.
I'm a failure because I ate too much / too little, and I look too thi or too fat
I'm lost because actually there is nothing wrong with me
I'm pathetic for thinking these things
but its every day!!!! any suggestions how to ignore / counter these non-productive thoughts??>?
You are the most beautiful and perfect being in God's image. He created you just as perfect as he intended. You don't need to worry about fat and calories. Just remember you are beautiful and being a healthy strong woman is what you should focus on. Love yourself and others will love you. I can see your beauty through your writing. You can ignore this.Hope this helps.Listen to your dietician. Remember God is your father and he sent your dietician to you. Love her for helping you. Namaste
Today unclothed weight 112.6 so I'm oscillating around 112ish still.BMI 18.4-18.6 Is that not a sign that my body really doesn't want me to be much bigger?
Only 4 weeks until dietician weigh in...hmmm well I had 3000 yesterday because I was unusually hungry, and Oh I don't know, just keep thinking that next time it's going to be shockingly high...sigh
I had a question. I wanted to know whether you think that a BMI of 19.0 at 101 pounds is good. Is this balanced? Do you think I may have just lack of muscle and need more muscle building or should I continue to gain? My menses are vyer good this month coming exremely fast. My dietican recommends 105-110 at 2500 cals a day but I am doing 2100 a day and feeling okay. Should I continue to gain?Thanks.
My body fat was measured at 19% but 101 pounds, so that seems like I don't very much muscle. I work out also. I don't know.
I think you look a good shape! What is your weight? Def still look very slim and I think your waist looks good! Don't let the machine trigger you just think of it as if you stood on the scales holding a heavy bag- its not real weight. xx
You can x I believe you can. You still have two weeks to make a change! You can totally do it- believe yourself you can do it!
Your new profile picture is just amazing!! So fascinating, and honestly? You have nothing to worry about with your shape. Nothing at all x
I ordered myself some size 10 jodhpurs even though I am still measuring as 8 and was relieved that a) there is a little room b) I didn't order 8 cos there isn't that much room . UK sizes I mean. Anyway. That's far too many numbers for one post.