I've just had this question in the back of my mind for a while now, and I haven't found many answers to this question. People who are suffering/suffered with an eating disorder, have you fully recovered? Do you still struggle? Is it possible to fully recover? I'm not talking about weight here, more like thoughts and fears. x
I thought it was impossible for years.
But now I'm living proof that it is. :]
You're going to be okay. You're going to get over it.
Its been only a little over six months since I decided that I needed to get better for good this time (3rd time's the charm, right?) I can honestly and proudly say that I have:
No fear of eating high calorie food (macaroni and cheese, pizza, cake, frozen yogurt...)
No fear of eating larger portions if I'm hungry for it.
No fear of spontaneous eating (i.e. grabbing handfuls of buttered popcorn while watching a movie with friends.)
No fear of going out to eat.
No weird compulsive tendencies (going to the bathroom excessively, food the perfect temperature, eating only with certain silverware...)
No fear of skipping a couple days (or weeks...) of exercise.
No need to control, plan, and count my meals each day.
No obsessing about food or meals.
No fear of eating past a certain hour (I regularly eat large meals past 1 AM.)
No fear of certain macronutrients (*cough* carbs *cough*)
No constant body checking (unless I'm looking in the mirror to see how good I look, haha) or weighing.
No hiding myself in clothes too big for me.
No pushing myself to exhaustion every single time I work out to feel like I earned the right to eat something special.
No "making up" for overindulging by restricting before or after a special or big meal.
And just in general, caring a lot more about having fun and doing this thing called LIFE than I am about wasting my time hyper focusing on my own stupid body. Try it. Its so much fun. :D