Gaining weigh-ins!!

Let's all post with putting our gaining weigh ins and stats!

What are you doing to gain?? How much have you gained?? And what is your goal??

I am 5'7 and currently 118-122. My lowest was 94 so you do the math!!!

My nutritionist says that 130ish is where I should be..anyone else?

"I've just come to terms with the fact that sometimes I enjoy standing in front of the pantry with an open jar of pb, that's just the way it is, and I don't get all nervous and "bingey" feeling about it anymore."

Wow, I never thought about it that way. I do the same thing, but I always put alot of judgement into the action. You have inspired me, gibbit! I do really, really like pb, maybe I should just accept that and let myself enjoy it...especially the way i like it, which is straight from the jar!

Well, I weighed in with my dietician on friday and my weight was down. I could understand that, because I had been keeping food records and I had been a bit restrictive. however, I ate 2000+ calories a day fri, sat, sun, and mon, and my weight was down even further. Tomorrow I'm going to see my internist and the last time he saw me I was 116. He wont be thrilled.

I'm 112.4 now, but I ate well today, and I'm still in recovery mode, so heres to gaining this week.

On the purging front, though, things have not been great. I get that panicky binge feeling when I eat more than I feel comfortable with. I'm going to try to work on that now.

Hey splenda_sweet, sorry to hear your weight went down, and that purging is still giving you issues.  I'm glad you ate over 2000 cals several days though.  Top effort! 

Have you been spacing out your meals?  If not, try eating small amounts and often perhaps.  Could help you feel like you're not eating more than you feel comfy with.  I sympathise though; I keep having to talk down the anorexic voice, but so far so good on that front. 

I am going for 7000 extra cals this week again ie. 3000 per day.  I probably should up, seeing as I haven't gained yet from this amount.  I promise I will next week if nothing eventuates.  I'm seeing my parents on Oct 29 and I want to be 55 kg/121 lbs by then, so I'm going to have to get my butt in gear!

All the best,

Mel. xox

ht 5'3.75

1 wk ago- 105.5 bmi 18.1

CW-106 bmi 18.3

GW- AT LEAST a bmi of 22, wt AT LEAST 127, then ill see where my body takes me so that I can live the FULLEST+HEALTHIEST life i can!!!

wow, reading through this thread completly inspired me to join in. seeing how close my numbers are to a lot of the ones up here was a major eye-opener.

5'7", 19 years old

highest weight - 149

lowest weight - 113

current weight - 116ish

goal weight - 120

up until now i'd been trying to maintain 116, just now realizing that while i may feel comfortable and healthy my body has been giving me signs that i'm not for quite some time now (losing hair, no energy, no period, frequent headaches and dizziness etc). so thank you guys for that extra push!

on a side note: how much would you recommend eating? i'm usually around 1400-1600, i know i'm going to have to increase that (and im kind of excited about that ;)) but since i dont have much to gain i dont think i have to increase to the 2000+ mark, do i?

thanks all around one more time

Lizhempowicz: It's great you want to gain but you need 2500+ calories to restore your metabolism to working order and gain healthily.

geeze, that looks like so much!

i'm ready to give it a go though, im fed up with this unhealthy lifestyle that i've been trying to pass off as a healthy one.

Original Post by mel_ynda:

Hey splenda_sweet, sorry to hear your weight went down, and that purging is still giving you issues.  I'm glad you ate over 2000 cals several days though.  Top effort! 

Have you been spacing out your meals?  If not, try eating small amounts and often perhaps.  Could help you feel like you're not eating more than you feel comfy with.  I sympathise though; I keep having to talk down the anorexic voice, but so far so good on that front. 

I am going for 7000 extra cals this week again ie. 3000 per day.  I probably should up, seeing as I haven't gained yet from this amount.  I promise I will next week if nothing eventuates.  I'm seeing my parents on Oct 29 and I want to be 55 kg/121 lbs by then, so I'm going to have to get my butt in gear!

All the best,

Mel. xox

Thanks for responding! Yeah, I try to space my eating out, but i have trouble with it, because I'm pretty busy most days, and I let that become an excuse to not eat as much. I've been trying to be very mindful.

good job with your cals! You sound like you're doing really well! It's very inspiring. Keep up the good work.

lizhempowicz- I'm glad you realized that being healthy is more important than anything an eating disorder can give you.

Hey splenda_sweet, you're more than welcome! 

Know what you mean about being busy and using that to say, "Oh well, I'll just have to eat later", which of course goes on all day.  It's also problematic because then it sets you up for a binge, or at least for stretching your poor stomach to the limit!

I'm eating, but not gaining which is getting frustrating.  Although I should up, I'm reluctant too.  I guess it's still there in my mind; I'm glad in a way that I'm not gaining, which is bad.  At the same time, though, I do want to gain.  Talk about split personality! 

My parents' visit on the 29th is good motivation though.  I really want to hit 55 kg/121 lbs by then, for them.  When I think of what I put them through, especially when I still lived at home, I feel terrible.  Plus I put pressure on them, making them critical of what they ate, even though they're all healthy and beautiful.  That's another thing I hate about EDs, that by having one, I run the risk of influencing others to do likewise.  I don't want to do that any more.  No one deserves ED in her/his life!

Keep up your great work.  I know you can beat this.  Don't let the purging get you down.  You'll make it!

Best,

Mel. xox

For all of your use.

Sample 1 (good if you prefer to eat more earlier in the day):

Breakfast 600
Snack 1 250
Lunch 600
Snack 2 250
Dinner 550
Snack 3 250

Sample 2 (good if you prefer to eat more of an evening):

Breakfast 550
Snack 1 250
Lunch 600
Snack 2 250
Dinner 600
Snack 3 250

Sample 3 (good if you like having dessert after dinner):

Breakfast 600
Snack 1 200
Lunch 600
Snack 2 200
Dinner 600
Snack 3 400

Total for all 2500

Thanks, lala.  Although I'm at 3000 with no gains, it's very helpful to get a breakdown of rough cals/portions for each meal.  Plus I'm sure it will come in handy for everyone else too.

Hope all is well with you.

Mel. xox

No, no, no, no, no, no, NO!

Week three of recovery, and I fail miserably.  I don't even know how I feel right now; to be honest I'm kind of numb.  I just went and had two granola bars though.

Starting weight: 103 lbs.

Last week's weigh-in: 104.5 lbs.

Goal weight: 108 lbs. initially

This week's weigh-in: 101 lbs. 

Okay, so I'm down two pounds from my lowest.  The worst part is that now I'm clinically underweight.  I swore to myself that I would never go below 103 lbs., in sickness or in health.  And here I am at 101 lbs., without any kind of disease or illness to use as an excuse (because, for example, your weight will obviously drop when you have stomach flu and can't stomach much more than dry toast).  I've been eating a little over maintenance all week because I was feeling really lackluster.  So I still should've been gaining, or so I thought.  I have no way to explain this, no excuses, no nothing; somehow I lost two pounds while eating at a supposed maintenance level.

I don't even know how I feel; I'm really just kind of numb and depressed.

I hate anorexia, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it.  I hate this all.  Why can't I be happy any more?  I know I will snap out of it eventually, but I just don't know how much longer I can go on like this.

Just wondering... how would you gauge your progress if you didn't have a scale? =/

okgo-

Hang in there. Everyone, even non-ED gainers have bad weeks. There are so many different variables that could have led to your loss of 3.5 lbs. All women have natural hormonal fluctuations that can lead to drastic water retention or loss. Our weight can, and often does fluctuate up and down. Just brush it off, and keep on going. You can be healthy.

Original Post by okgo:

No, no, no, no, no, no, NO!

Week three of recovery, and I fail miserably.  I don't even know how I feel right now; to be honest I'm kind of numb.  I just went and had two granola bars though.

Starting weight: 103 lbs.

Last week's weigh-in: 104.5 lbs.

Goal weight: 108 lbs. initially

This week's weigh-in: 101 lbs. 

Okay, so I'm down two pounds from my lowest.  The worst part is that now I'm clinically underweight.  I swore to myself that I would never go below 103 lbs., in sickness or in health.  And here I am at 101 lbs., without any kind of disease or illness to use as an excuse (because, for example, your weight will obviously drop when you have stomach flu and can't stomach much more than dry toast).  I've been eating a little over maintenance all week because I was feeling really lackluster.  So I still should've been gaining, or so I thought.  I have no way to explain this, no excuses, no nothing; somehow I lost two pounds while eating at a supposed maintenance level.

I don't even know how I feel; I'm really just kind of numb and depressed.

I hate anorexia, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it.  I hate this all.  Why can't I be happy any more?  I know I will snap out of it eventually, but I just don't know how much longer I can go on like this.

 okgo, I can sympathise.  I have been eating 3000 cals per day for the last couple of weeks--at the end of today it will have been two weeks.  I weighed myself this morning, and my weight was down 1 kg/2 lbs. 

I'd promised myself that I'd gain 3 kg/6 lbs by November 29, because my parents are visiting me then.  Now I have to gain 4 kg, and I guess I should up to 3500 cals.  I know weight changes from day to day with fluid loss/retention and other factors, but I feel disappointed.  I mean I'm doing the right things; my metabolism just doesn't want to cooperate, and I want to get the weight on so my mind will be better equipped to take on ED. 

Anyway, I'm not giving up; I just wanted to vent my frustration too.  Hang in there.  One step back does not mean you won't reach your goal; it gives you a chance to catch your breath and gather your courage before moving on.

You'll get there; keep going!

Mel.

Tangerine89: Thanks so much for the encouragement!  I really do need to suck it up, though, and simply make that increase.  Obviously "maintenance" doesn't exist for me, because every time I eat at my supposed maintenance level I end up losing.

Mel_ynda: Thank you so much! I'm so glad to know that I'm not alone, that someone is going through the same type of thing.  Of course, I haven't been as good as you—I felt wimpy last week so I ate at only maintenance level.  But apparently that isn't going to work, and now I need to make another increase.  Just stick with it, and up your calories if you are still having a hard time gaining.  Thanks so much for the encouragement; if you need anyone to chat with or vent to, I'm always here! :)  Best of luck!

xoxoxo Okie

Wistful: Measurements, and clothes fit, I'd guess.

Okgo: I lost before I gained, and I was eating more. Take this as one sign: your metabolism is speeding up. What you called "maintainance" is clearly not (as you commented) because you've lost weight on it. Now take your calories back up and STAY there! Take this as motivation instead of a mistake!

Original Post by okgo:

Tangerine89: Thanks so much for the encouragement!  I really do need to suck it up, though, and simply make that increase.  Obviously "maintenance" doesn't exist for me, because every time I eat at my supposed maintenance level I end up losing.

Mel_ynda: Thank you so much! I'm so glad to know that I'm not alone, that someone is going through the same type of thing.  Of course, I haven't been as good as you—I felt wimpy last week so I ate at only maintenance level.  But apparently that isn't going to work, and now I need to make another increase.  Just stick with it, and up your calories if you are still having a hard time gaining.  Thanks so much for the encouragement; if you need anyone to chat with or vent to, I'm always here! :)  Best of luck!

xoxoxo Okie

 Hi Okie,

You're more than welcome.  I am going to up to 3500 per day this week.  I know what you mean about feeling like wimping out.  I felt like that towards the end of the week, especially on Thursday.  I didn't feel hungry, and I was so tempted to restrict--ED's voice was going full-throttle--but I just ate anyway, and I did enjoy it.  Find foods that you like, or haven't tried--make eating an adventure, and fun again. 

I'll be honest; I'm partly glad I haven't gained yet, but at the same time I'm determined to put ED in its place, so I am just going to do it and eat so I can reach a healthy weight at which my mind will be better able to cope.  And I do feel better after eating--more energised, and proud of myself for going through with it. 

I know you can do it too.  Thanks for the support, and likewise!  I'm around if you need to talk.

All the very best,

Mel. xox

I"m a little confused/ distraught even though i know I should be happy about this, aaaaaaa, this is good this is good this is good!!!! must keep repeating to self...

so 2-3 weeks ago I was about 116, last week i weighed in before going out of town for aweek and was back down to 114.5, which sucked because i haven't been back to 114 in a while. And this morning I weighed again and am now 118!!!

holy crap 118!! i haven't been this since pre-ed. BUt i'm so confused because I"m now at the low end of where I always was before this but don't look the same. I still don't fit my clothes and my arms are creepy and my legs are bony and my butt is getting better but still flat, and now my stomach is all flab. I was the exact opposite before, it used to always be in my butt and thighs, and of course more evenly distributed throughout the rest. This sucks because I was still all gung-ho about eating tons up until i weighed myself this morning. I suppose I'll just keep gaining because I want to feel comfortable in my own skin again. I'm not opposed to being higher than 120 if i look better and am healthier. Ugh, i think i should just stop weighing altogether.

But i'm just wondering if any of you have experienced this? why don't i look like i've gained that much weight at all? and when does it distribute? do I have to keep gaining to get back to my old weight distribution or does that just happen with time? what do i do???

Hey gibbit:

I'm in the same position of you, about to hit a bmi of 17.5 and be heavier than I have been in years which is really freaking me out.  I was thinking though, we're both on 3000+ a day, which means a LOT of food is going into our stomachs, and I don't know about you, but these old bowels don't work as well as they used to, meaning I'm retaining a lot of bulk there...also, I think we're both pretty active gainers - well, active relative for an ed gainer, so is it possible you're slowly putting on muscles instead of fat, which weighs more?  So you've got to concentrate on that, and building up your muscles, also, for your tummy, I find B6 helps me a lot, but I couldn't tell you whether that's a placebo effect or not!

I think it's a great attitude you've got to gaining, and a great will to be comfortable with your body at any size, I think we've just got to trust that it will come, and hey, on the bright side, at least you're not looking in the mirror and seeing fat any more, right?

I truly, truly hope you feel better soon, because you are gorgeous (I've said this before I think, but I'll say it again, screw belgian boys, come live with me and you could have the rugby boys round your little finger - a girl who eats and drinks as much as they and I do, but with your looks?  They wouldn't be able to believe their luck!).

Best wishes, ok?

Thanks theo! that must made me feel a lot better!

This would put me at bmi 17.9, but I think maybe I'll confirm that this is real weight tomorrow since that would be 3.5 lbs in a week. I like to think its muscle but I don't feel like I do as much as I used to before ED, and I also only started with the anorexia last august and started recovering back in December, so I haven't been like this for years and still have a pretty clear idea of what I looked like before. I also feel bad that since i've been traveling and now sick, I've done nothing but sit around and feel my muscles turning to flab. Darn ED thoughts.

YOu're doing great as well! So do you livein London or nearby? Because i've honestly been wanting to move there for years!