More than i expected - help :(

I weighed today for the first time in 3 weeks and had gained - I saw a number on the scales I'd not seen for a loooong time and I freaked out. My ED voice says I'm huge and a pig and I don't need the food I'm consuming because I'm off work for holidays and am not burning as much, therefore don't need as much. What do I need to tell myself? How do I know the voice isn't right and that I'm just going to gain and gain and gain ....

(Anorexia sufferer/recoverer - 24, female, UK)

Thanks for all the posts, inspiration and support
Keep going.
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Congratulations! Try to see this as accelerated progress, and you're getting closer to your goal which means you'll be able to stop gaining sooner. Remember also that if your ED voice is shouting, and making you uncomfortable, that's a sign that you are doing the right thing. Maybe concrete numbers would make you feel better as well. Look at things like your BMI, body fat, blood tests, health issues...do they suggest that you're overweight? ;) Recovery is difficult but you should be so proud that you're making your ED squirm because that means you are winning.

My BMI is 16. Up from 14.3 over a year ago...
I'm just freaking out.
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In that case keep telling yourself that you are still at risk of severe health problems. Heart failure, osteoporosis, infertility...these things will only stop being an imminent threat once your BMI gets to 20! So you have a long way to go (but you are on the right track). It's normal to freak out. It means you're doing the right thing. If you were finding it easy I'd be more worried :)

Omg dis not realize that being underweight was so dangerous. Very scary. This has just motivated me even more so I hope it will for you too beebot! Heart failure! That's what I think is so wrong. There's si much inform in magazine and on tv about losing weight and the dangers of obesity. I definitely Think that awareness needs to be raised about being underweight and gaining. I don't have an Ed I'm just thin and have quite a small appetite so I think more awareness needs to be raised for this as well as eds. Everyone who's gainig needs support and help just like this losing!

I didn't realise either and now I have osteoporosis in my spine and a heart condition which is incurable except if I get a pacemaker. And I am currently infertile. What's terrifying is that my BMI was only below 20 for about 6 months and never went below 17. I thought I would be fine but I completely destroyed myself internally.

Oh gosh, I'm so sorry. I'm terrified now as I have a bmi of only 15 and have been underweight all my life, I'm only 16 but for all the Time I can remember I have been kilos underweight. I've never had a checkup or anything to check I'm Okay and I don't have blood tests or anything. I'm really scarred now. Might be nothing but occasionally I er these strange pains in my chest. Like a sharp striking pain. Now I'm quite worried. Wishing you the best xxx

Botbee...your going through the same thing I am. I was at 82lbs and I weigh myself twice a day. Now I weigh 89 lbs. I keep thinking I'm gonna keep gaining and get so fat. I feel so bloated. Trying to recover from this is hard. I feel like I need to go back to counting calories or the weights gonna keep going up. Remember your not alone...I hope the best for you...good luck...try not to stress a little weight gain isn't so bad..that's what I keep telling myself.