Weight gain for adult; please help><!

Hi, I'm Mio.( Almost 30 year old, hight 157cm)

I've been suffering from eating disorder over half of my life, since I was 14.

 I had relapse last year and since then I 'tried' to gain myself but had been failing. 

 I've had inpatient treatment several times in the past but I want to do this on my own this time as I don't want to take advantage of 'strictness' of the treatment. (Sounds strange but I could do it when I was in the hospital but struggled to maintain afterwards)

 I want to challenge myself to fight with temptation of ED voice, fear of gain and 'comfortable zone'

 I can't be like this for the rest of my life and want to start weight gain seriously this time.

 I have upped calorie intake from around 1500kcal~1700kcal to around 2800kcal.

It was so scary because I'll be 30 in September and feel I don't need this much( Logically I know I need it, just ED voice I guess...)

 I gained 2kg in A week, and I freaked out! 

But I continued to eat as I didn't want to give in. Since then, I have days that I didn't gain, gained a few hundreds grams or lost a little. 

 Should I continue to eat same amount? 

I see the guideline of over 3000kcal for teens, but how about adults who are 30?

I have days when I think I should up the calorie to, like 4000kcal, but then think it is 'too much' for this age...

 

Sorry for being so negative.

I just need reassurance.... 

 I really appreciate if anyone give me an advice.

 Thank you.

( P.S: English is my second language and I apologize if this post is hard to understand!)

 

I believe the minimum is 2500 for those over age 25.  But if you are capable of eating more, then that's even better.  If you are hungry for 4000, that's because your body needs it.  There is no "too much" regardless of your age.  Your body has a lot of repair work to do.

Your English is perfect, fear not! Well I'm 29 and having to get in 3000 a day to gain, but to get to my goal will probably need more. It's not all to do with age, its also genetics, muscle mass, activity level, anxiety level, digestive absorption problems etc. I know all too well how it is after spending half of your life underweight and sick, if only I'd taken real action sooner.

Btw I'm 30 in September too! My aim is to reach my goal weight BMI 20 by then.

Read the blog entries here. Needing to eat alot more is understandable. You may need well well more than 3000. I am over 30 . You can visit the forums and ask questions on the "Forums" below: (you need to be sedentary too...

http://www.gwynetholwyn.com/blog/2011/9/14/do -i-need-2500-calories.html

tangerine_dream：

Thank you for the confirmation.Yes, that is true that there is no "too much" for the age when the body needs a lot of repair. It's just ED tells me that I'm too old for that calorie. I try not to listen to that voice and am now eating around 3000kcal! 

sparklypickle

Thanks for your comment on my English. I was worried you may get confused with my post;p 

You are right, I should not decide the calorie based on my age. Probably my body needs a lot more calorie than 2500  to gain steadily from the past experience... I think I wanted to hear "it's okay to eat more that 2500kcal" as an "approval"... I'm glad I got buddy!! It's much more encourage to know that I'm not alone:) I don't think I can get to BMI 20 by then but try hard to get closer by my BD. When's your BD by the way?