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Weight Gainers: What did YOU eat today?

I am copying the many times copied thread, "What did you eat today?" in hopes of helping some of those who are just starting to gain and have no clue what to eat. I know that when I began weight recovery, I was eating tons of low-cal foods just because that's what I was used to. I learned the hard way that dense foods are essential to weight gain when you have high caloric requirements (at one point I needed 4500 cal to maintain my weight on BEDREST). Perhaps newbies can get some ideas if we post our weight gain meal plans! Even if you're not gaining anymore, grab an old one and post it!:]
Please note that every body is different and some will need more or less calories than others to gain. This thread is just so that you can get an idea of what you need.
Oh, and yes, I'm breaking the "no calories, no portions" rule, since it is pretty helpful in this case. If you want to post cals/portions you can. I just ask that you don't post if you're not eating enough, though as this is a weight gain thread, I would hope none of you are undereating.;]
I'll start....
Breakfast (875 cal)*

• 1/2 cup oatmeal (150) cooked with
• 1 cup evaporated whole milk (300)
• 1 mashed banana (100)
• 2 tbsp peanut butter (200)
• 1 tbsp ground flaxseed and cinnamon to taste (50) 
• 1 hard-boiled egg (75 cal)

Morning Snack (300 cal)*

• 1/4 cup mixed nuts (200)
• 1/4 cup dried apricots (100)

Lunch (660 cal)*

• 1/4 cup rice cooked in 1 cup chicken stock (300) and
• 1/2 cup canned or cooked chickpeas (145) and
• 1/3 cup shredded cheese (150) and
• 1/4 cup each onion, peppers, and tomato (30) cooked with
• 1 tbsp olive oil and curry powder to taste (120)

Afternoon snack (390 cal)*

• 1 serving baby carrots (35)
• 1/4 cup hummus (155)
• 1/4 cup mixed nuts (200)

Dinner (875 cal)*

• 1 cup of my insane Mac & Cheese recipe (515)
• 2 cups tossed salad (45)
• 2 tbsp rasins (60)
• 2 tbsp sunflower seeds (105)
• 2 tbsp dressing (150)

Evening snack (480)*

• 1 cup plain whole milk yogurt (180)
• 1/2 cup homemade granola (300)

About 3600 calories :]

Argh! Is the internet so slow becaue so many are discussing the debate?

Haven't felt well again today. Bad headache, chills, burning up, etc. Called my therapist and told her how I felt. She said she wouldn't charge me if I missed today since she has canceled on me at the last minute many times. I went right to bed and napped for about an hour. Felt somewhat better but still not up to snuff. Oh, well. Will do individual responses tomorrow, going to watch the debate.

breakfast: shredded wheat n' bran and 1/2 banana w/ nonfat milk
raisin cinnamon mochi and other 1/2 banana, both w/ almond butter
orange
snack: orange juice
lunch: usual
snack: smoothie (vanilla gorilla, yogurt, oj, ground flax, berries, cherries, prune)
Ezekiel bread w/ peanut butter
kiwi
dinner: roasted eggplant, mushrooms, spinach, grape tomatoes, soy feta, and eggplant hummus in 1/2 whole grain pita
broccoli, broccolini, and kidney beans in tomato sauce w/ olive oil over tuna
orange juice
one snack to go!

Oh duh, sorry agru! I fixed my mistake.

agruskin that is wonderful....... your not cutting back are you?

thanks alot for helping im safe eating the same foods and if its meeting my calories than its probley best.

Wow, two new pages since my last post xD and I read everything!

theo - they are aware of my medical condition... but I don't think they know how to 'deal' with it. As in they're the type of people who think that taking care of an ED patient is to say 'just eat it.' Thats an insult to me!

charlie - but if I don't focus on sodium, I freak out about the sugar content! right now thats the thing that I ALWAYS look up otherwise I'd refuse to eat it =/ and also I made a huge mistake by watching my family's maid cook, and she uses sooo much oil it makes me want to just restrict x.x 

lulu - what is waterloading? Is that when you drink lots of water before a weigh in? I tried that once, but I drank like a whole bottle of water about 5 mins before the weigh in and it didn't work... I weighed even lesser than the last weigh in. (but that was ages ago and I never did it again) 

agru and dana - i don't do exercise either... and sometimes its either me or my stupid ED that really worries about it. I always get these thoughts saying 'wow you're eating so much with 0 exercise' and I freak out and start doing lunges or something... But I found out that I probably should avoid cardio because yesterday I went to the playground with my cousins and they decided to play catch xD So when I started running, after a few seconds I felt like there was a strain in my chest and couldn't breathe. 

Oh, sorry for double posting. But I forgot to ask something:

What is a healthy BMI for teens? (15 yrs old)

I just checked my BMI and apparantly I have a BMI for 14.5. Don't know what I should be aiming for though?

XFALLING-bmi is not changeable, it only depends on height.  pl recovering from an ED should aim for a bmi of about 22, whatever that is for you height.  rt now you just need to focus on gaining, i forget, are you eating 2500?  id say get there as soon as you can, good luck!

SPEK-hi, lol, no way, no restricitng!  i still want to gain more!!!!

omg. ok i am quite sure i have missed otu on page and pages of posts. !! i feel really guilty but i'm quite busy! i dont think i'll be replying to many posts in the near future.

ANYWAY i wanted to say holbee & fallingstar: I BOUGHT THE MULTIGRAIN WEETBIX! YUMYUMYUM :)

YES. yesterday i went to docs. and i havnt gained ANY WEIGHT (EXACTLY NO WEIGHT) in 4 weeks. and (yes.. i admit) I HAVE BEEN COUNTING MOST DAYS FOR THE LAST 2 WEEKS. and i've been eating at around 2200,2300 at least. so yes. must increase eh?

ANYWAYS. i got my bone scan, blood test results back. and apparently:

• my hormone levels are low
• my thyroid levels are low (does anyone know what that does/mean exactly)
• my bones have gotten A LITTLE thinner/smaller and lost calcium (but they should have GROWN in this time).. i don't understand because i eat a LOT of dairy. i get at least 1000mg most days. more usually 1200-1500mg.
• hahha: the doctor seemed quite confused and i was quite happy because apparently ive put on a large proportion of muscle. ... i dont know what he means by large though haha.
• my body fat percentage is low.. though im not sure what he means by low either haha. what IS an ideal body fat percentage range? (not BMI)

SO. Are there any particular foods to eat to increase hormone levels? or is it just a matter of eating and eating and eating some more? Haha.

Well anyway, yesterday I went out to the city. And I felt sortof gross but proud of myself: I had icecream (that new streets MOO with 300mg of calcium. and it tastes nice and creamy :) it looks so cute too. oddly-shaped with brown and white splotched like a dairy cow.. ) and then mum decided we had dinner (i had mixed feelings, but was happy in the end coz i was starving at the time).

and i ordered a seafood noodle soup. MASSIVE BOWL right. and it looked a lot of veggies at the top and some prawns and calamari and stuff floating about. but hidden underneath was like A WHOLE MASSIVE CLUMP of egg noodles. LIKE seriously, i mean seriously i think there was a whole packet of noodles in there. like 400g? yeh if it was that woulda been like 700 calories right there just in the noodles.

BUT i ate it all. AND i didnt even say to my mum LOOK HOW MANY NOODLES THEY GAVE ME, even jsut to show her how much i ate. I ATE IT FOR MYSELF!! NOT TO MAKE MY MUM PROUD OR ANYTHING (well maybe a tiny bit ahha)

AND THEN. we went out

AND WE PASSED GELATISSIMO. and i was SO FULL. but me and my sister looked at each other and my mum was like, do you want icecream?

and then i spotted these mini cones called BAMBINO cones, so we decided to buy one of them each. I had raspberry, and my sister had mango. It wasn't until i started eating it did i realise it was covered in coloured white chocolate. AND i DETEST white chocolate, even if it wasnt calorific. and ED was considering in the back of my head, drop the cone! drop it, don't eat it! you've eaten enough today! BUT i resisted. I ate it all even though I didn't like it. :) though i regret it now, and reckon i should have just gotten a scoop. woulda tasted wayy better. haha.

AND AFTERWARDS when we got home. i went upstairs to watch tv. but ended up falling asleep at like 9pm coz i was so tired (i usually sleep at 11pm, and past week ive been waking up at 5-6am for some reason...) In the morning i woke up at 6am AGAIN. Had breakfast. But was still tired and you know what? I ACTUALLY WENT BACK TO SLEEP AGAIN. even though it was just for an hour. but normally i NEVER go back to sleep after waking up ESPEECIALLY if ive had breakfast already.

oohhyeh. then after breakfast i had an extremely oily fried dumpling. i feel bad about that one though. coz my mum didnt make the dumpling personally. so i have no idea what they put in it exactly.

ANYWAY sorry for the longg long post. i just felt like sharing with someone! and you guys are the only people who understand what a big deal tihngs that seem so small can be to me! well i hope you do hehe.

thurs-

t bagel, lots of nut butters, apple, egg~500

cereal, milk...~300

pastrami+cheddar melt, veggies, fage w sauce, plum w almond butter

cut up pear w almond butter+trail mix

veg salad w avocado+almond butter, leftover brisket sandwich(2 slices bread+brisket)

apple, yogurt, PB muffin, trail mix

agru - I'm trying to eat 2500 but I actually have no idea how much I have been consuming. And recently I realised its been really hard for me to persuade myself to eat more. I don't know why but it feels like I'm slipping back...

saykyoku - well done!!! on buying the weetbix and on eating those foods!!! I'm so proud of you that you could be so strong during those meals! Keep up the great effort for all of us =)

XFALLING and basically everyone, please listen to me, there is soooo much mroe to life, more to recovery, than this ED.  we are wasting preciosu time, so much that we cant even imagine, w this stupid ED.  trust me, you want thins over and done with as soon as you can, just do it.  the longer your drag it out the garder it becomes.  are you happy at this weight? feeling weak, self concious...?  its not worth it, you can be so much more. 

xfalling... i sent you a private message reguarding your post.  agru is right

charlie... hope u feel better... i had it last week its the pits!!!

I CANT SLEEP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So does anyone else experience this??  I am so full after meals it is painful and I am bloated.. like a potato with toothpicks coming out.  But then an hour or so later I am starving again!  will this stop??  Will I adjust?  I don't want to become an overeater binger again!  I feel those thoughts coming back the higher I raise the cals.  Anyone else experience this?  I have tried eating bigger meals, less meals, more meals... everything.  and it seems the higher the cals go... the worse it gets.  Its 1230am and I just finished last snack and it was large I tell you and I am so full and so tired but my brain is already thinking.... 3am snack?  breakfast??? hmmmmm.....

hello hello! ugh i'm in the middle of a big political debate with my ex online about the debate. I want to slap him! This is why we're not together lol. My night was good, went over to my friends and we cooked dinner and watched the debate. Palin didn't embarrass herself as much as I'd hoped but she was still pretty pathetic. Food update:

b- rice pudding made with leftover kashi pilaf (i made a giant pot of this to last me the week, I <3 it!) vanilla soy milk, cinnamon, honey, large peach with wm maple yogurt, and lots of walnuts
s- dried mango, almonds
l- giant salad bowl with sprouts, snap peas, chickpeas and carrot, olive oil and vinegar, and bowl of shelled edamame and seaweed with ginger and more oo. An acai superfood smoothie thing I bought.
s- pear with vanilla cranberry pb, wm yogurt with fig jelly
d- israeli couscous with sauteed red peppers, onion, and craisins (my friend used veg oil!! yuck, oh well :\) and borcht soup.
s- I made a giant scone! had several slices with more fig jelly, one with margarine, one with pb, and one with yogurt. grapes. almonds, warm vanilla soy....I think i'm still hungry or just feel like eating so i'll probably dig around for more food. EDIT: yes, I got another slice of scone with yogurt, more grapes, spoonful of pb from the jar.

lots of responses!

likear- you can definitely eat as much as you want! it's our stupid ed fears that make us think there's this magic number that we're allowed to eat. If you're up to it then do it. Great job! And I would really suggest you stop running :\ I know you love it, but it's really not helping you, if anything cut it down to once or twice a week and make sure you eat extra on those days, and simply use it as motivation to gain more so you can run like you used to.

aqua- i just have the plain pilaf and then do stuff to it. I haven't been going under my cals at all, I don't worry as long as i'm over 2500, i've just been really having to cram them in at night. I hope you start feeling better! get a lot of rest, drink OJ and lots of tea.

lulu- the big breakfast really help! i find it so hard to meet my cal goal without at least 6 or 700 in the morning. I can make some pretty dense oatmeals with a lot of dried fruit and nuts, honey or maple syrup, margarine, protein powder or powdered milk. you can even use ice cream as part of the milk and melt it in, or if you can do dairy, use heavy cream for part of the milk to cook it in too. I'm sorry the dr didn't go well, but they do want what's best for you, so that may mean a crummy situation for now but it will help. you should switch to full fat products, increase the seeds and nuts, why just a few?? add an extra spoonful of pb where you can, use the whole egg, switch to a granola rather than special k, and why are you having cereal with water? that doesnt sound very good. and add oil to everything. The easiest way to up the cals is to take the plunge and go with the higher cal/ higher fat foods. It's scary at first but it makes things so much easier.

aero- i have the same problem with pb but it does get much better. I've pretty much stopped bingeing altogether. I think it's a phase you go through during recovery because your body just gets really excited to have food again, and it knows that it needs so much that it's going to take control. And i think maybe pb is particularly bad because it's high in fat that your body really wants. it can be really scary and i thought I would never get over it, but as it turns out when you get to a healthier weight it pretty much goes away. I still have pb every day but now if i do want to have a few extra spoonfuls I feel ike I can rationally decide that it's ok and don't feel guilty or out of control with it.

agru- i do still have a few more lbs to gain to get to my pre-ed weight. My bmi was never much higher than 18. But I really think that if I can get back into my old style of exercise and get back in shape along with continuing with my healthy eating, i'll eventually reach a good place for my body. good job on dinner! I didn't count or estimate today :)

fhchicky- i'll only be doing the class once a week, but that's what i did before too. And now that I have scheduled classes that i find fun and want to do well in, i already don't feel that compulsive need to get in activity anywhere I can. I feel less guilty sitting around knowing that I'll have my class the next day and want to save up my energy so i can perform well. Definitely try and get in some high cal smoothies! you're very active and need all you can get. YOu could make some dense oatmeals too, or have mashed potatoes. I consider myself to be a little too healthy, but I still eat ice cream! I like to think that there is something healthy about everything I eat though, like ice cream has calcium :) don't worry about it so much, your foods are healthy, and even the ones that aren't are meant to be enjoyed.

charlie- I usually pour vanilla soy over it, some honey and cinnamon, usually some nuts and raisins or dates too and stick it all in the microwave. Hope you feel better! what did you think of the debate?

spek- for right now, just eat what you can, and what you feel comfortable with. I still eat many of the same things just because i like them, and also some things because i feel safe with them and will allow myself to eat a lot of it. so when you're simply trying to get in a lot of cals, if you'll feel better iwth these foods, then do it. Try adding in something new once a week or when you can just to slowly expand the list of foods you do eat and enjoy. hang in there, you're doing great!

saykyoku- wow! i'm so proud of you! that's some great eating :) I have low hormones and low thyroid too, but i've always had low hormones and that's actually what gave me a lot of health problems that set off my ed. I'm not sure when the thyroid thing started but I take medication for it. I've been hoping my large soy consumption willl help with the hormone thing, but so far it hasn't changed anything. since your'e still underweight and have a low bf % you should still try to eat as much as you can and be sure to incorporate high fat products.

dana- its ok, like I have said to others, your digestive system is just starting to rev up and it simply needs a lot of food right now, if you give in to your hunger signals you won't binge. I know it feels out of control now but it does ease up once your body isnt afraid of starving anymore. I still have my 3 am snacks lol, but its more out of habit than anything else. I just don't sleep well so i'd rather be eating than tossing and turning in bed. I don't think it's a big deal, like I said, just eat when you're hungry and soon your body will begin to trust you again. Also, you don't need to count the zero cal things, it's the ED tricking you into thinking it's adding any amount on, let alone 2 or 300 cals, they have none!!

keep up the weight gaining

Dobryden! (see, go me with the Russian...I'll be RULING THEM BEFORE THEY KNOW IT! ahem)

so how is everyone today?  I went to see the doctors yesterday and it did not go well.  Because at home, I see wonderful wonderful Dr Powell, and she supports me, we did all this CBT stuff together, we researched hyper-metabolism and things together, it felt like I was safe with her, I trusted her, and I trusted her when she told me my weight, and that it wasn't enough and all that jazz, and she got super-special scales, that she calibrated every week for me. But here!  Omg!  So I see this Dr Cowan woman, and I explain to her my eating pattern, say how I've increased my cals and everything, and the first thing she says to me is, "well, that doesn't tie in with my knowledge of metabolism."  "I wouldn't be able to corroborate that."  "That's not what I know at all."  And then she looks me up and down and says "well, you certainly look thinner than you were when I saw you last.  Your calorie intake doesn't set with your weight gain patterns.  You still don't look healthy." And I'm all like, what do you want me to do, take a camera and take pictures of me eating to prove it to you?  And then she says "we're nt in the busisness of curing your ED here, that's not going to happen, what we want to do is get you through your final year safely.  Do you think you're healthy enough for that?  Do you think you can be healthy enough for that?@  Basically telling me I'm not going to get a first, and then, I'm getting pissed off at this point, so she looks at me and says "do you want to go back on anti-depressants?  I really think you should consider it?  Are you sure you don't want medication?"!!!!!And I'm like **** you lady, I'm happier than I've been in weeks, I'm feeling super **** about eating, but for the first time, everything else in my life is great.

And then we went to get weighed in, and they don't even have proper scales, just the crummy numbered ones and the needle didn't even stick to zero!  SO it had me at 51.5, but it could be anyone's guess really (for you yankee doodles 51.5 is around 112lb I think.), but that's not gaining at all and then she measured my height and I found out I'm 6 ft, an inch taller than I thought I was meaning I have to eat more.  And then she said "oh, I don't believe that you're eating that much.  Are you waterloading, could you show me you pockets?" And I was so pissed off at this point that I just took off my clothes and shoved them at her, this is bearing in mind I'm not really that into wearing underwear.  OH SHE MADE ME ANGRY

sorry, had to rant. replies.

Charlie: I'm so sorry you're feeling ill, I hope you feel better soon.  Wow, great memory of Paddington Bear, that photo sounds so cute.  As for my reading, I'm sort of flooded by early term reading - I have to read a couple of renaissance texts, and Fontamara and Homage to Catalonia at the mo, I hate Orwell so it's a real chore!

Gibbet: I'm so glad to hear you had fun at capoeira!  It sounds amazing!  I had an ex who used to do it, and he would always rave about it.  It means you can kick some arse when we go on our super secret spy missions!  Heh! Make sure you're eating back calories though! (wags finger in patronising yet affectionate way).  Can I have your recipe for israeli couscous?

dana: I know what you mean about snacking!  I always keep going back, I think it's because, like you, I'm up until 2, 3 in the morning...At the moment I'm relying on the calorie count to tell me if I'm hungry enough.  I always finish my snacking with hot milk though, and brush my teeth, and that seems to send signals to my body,maybe try that?

likear0ck6: yes dinosaur spine!  I am so looking forward to the day I can do yoga and not have bruises!

agru: way to go on the meat!

Ok, foodies yesterday:

breakfast: porridge (yes gibbet, come over to the dark side, we have porridge....) with apple and pb

snack: greek yogurt with an EAT natural bar mixed in with some honey

Lunch: hungarian pork pilaf

Snack: marmite on toast (expanding my recipe of toast and......)

Dinner: Back from ballet so quick Tuna pasta bake, pudding: chocolate brownie

Snack: Hot milk, biscuits, scrambled egg on toast.

I really need to work on ff like pizza and non accurately countable stuff I know.....anyway, sorry for the marathon post, I had to rant! xx

Theo: I sympathise, I really do. My good GP left the surgery (I gave her a card, lol) and now I have a complete douche who has no experience with the mental side of illness or anything. When it comes to my physical complaints he's okay with dealing with it but as soon as my depression, or my ED, or any other trouble pops up he throws out the word "meds" faster than you can blink. When I confessed my depression has been really bad lately he didn't offer me therapy or anything per NICE guidelines like he was meant to, just hopped straight to "prozac?" And really, I am considering, but I don't know what to do with myself.

I'm strongly considering hospital again. My life has ground to a halt in everything except eating. It's funny because a few months ago I was terrified of losing control of my food consumption. Now, it's the one thing I don't feel afraid of any more, but instead my life is crumbling around me. My friends have cut me off for the most part, my family are moving around me like a blur, no one wants to even hire me as a Christmas Temp, I made the wrong choice with college (again), and I'm just... stuck. I want to break down. What's worse is I think the stress is making me lose weight - I look thinner than I have done. That might just be my twisted perception, I don't know. I don't know any more.

I sent a form to the full-time volunteering campaign people this morning. If anything it's something to wonder about. I'm going to set up a talk with a Connexions advisor soon too to ask about if I can get into an apprenticeship now or if it is too late. I hope it isn't.

Falling: Like agru said, BMI doesn't matter depending on age, but you should aim for at least 20 BMI. You may need to gain more as you grow older, but either way aim for what would be 20 for you right now.

Saykyoku: Weetabix is nice, haha. I prefer porridge, but yoghurt in place of milk - a thick one, like greek or a chunky fruit yoghurt (full fat!) - mushed in with weetabix and then warmed for 30 seconds? Omg. Heavenly. It's kind of like a cake batter. Good with nuts on top or with some nut butter mixed through. :D

Eep! Yep, you need to increase if you've not gained a thing. Your eating is so cool, though! I would've been blank at that many noodles in a bowl, lol. The muscle gain is good, but that might be contributing to your metabolism apparently being so speedy! Still, do be proud of it, muscle is healthy.

Body fat percentage for women:
Essential fat 12–15%
Athletes 16–20%
Fitness 21–24%
Acceptable 25–31%
Obese 32%+

Low body fat is bad because it's a common culprit/cause of a loss of period. It's why it is essential for recovering anorexics or those sans-period to eat healthy fats and otherwise in their diets. And I don't like white chocolate either! Dark all the way x]

Dana: Haha, potato and toothpicks. That is VERY MUCH how I feel sometimes - so put me in the microwave and bake me, I'm full of potassium @__@ Lol. I think it is important to eat if you truly feel hungry. You're not binging if your body is going "Feed me!"-ala-Audrey II regularly. If anything, that is a sign your metabolism is revving up again. Do you actually wake up to eat, too? As in, your body goes, "I'M HUNGRY!" and you have to wake up and feed it?

Gibbit: Scones. x] I like making wholegrain scones. Can I ask what borcht soup is? Also, on the note of acai berries: I tried those dried for the first time the other day and they were gross! x__x; So bitter.

agru - no, its definitely not something that i want to remain my whole life. I hate this stupid ED and I miss the times where I could just put anything in my mouth without thinking about the calories/fat/sugar etc. I miss the old, happy go lucky me who didn't obsess about food and exercise constantly. I really really want to recover, but its so hard to convince myself to EAT. Its just so hard =/

dana - i'm getting that too - i wake up several times throughout the night, and I always wake up incredibly early in the morning. and i can never go back to sleep... also, I'm really worried about being a binger as well because i realise that while i'm eating lunch, i'd be thinking what am i going to have for snack?? 

I'm kinda worrying now that I'm not getting enough cals, because here in singapore they don't have labels on like anything, and we're eating out alot so I have NO idea what the calorie content is! So I just estimate lunch and dinner to be 600-800 cals each but i don't know if I'm overestimating! arghh

TO EVERYONE: THANKS FOR THE REPLIES!

gibbit: do you know if low thyroid levels slow metabolism? and wow, your foods all seem quite delish and some exotic ; israeli couscous, borcht soup?

lalabanana: ooh! i always thought 15-20% bf was normal! so by athletes it should mean that this is already a very low body fat percentage eh! ah. i remember when i was in hospital and they told me my body fat percentae was 4% and i was asked, "is that very low?" . wow how naive i was then. i think mine is 10-15% bf, coz the doc said my bf was 10% too low. AND i hope things turn around for you!! What apprenticeship do you want to do?

fallingstar: eek i hate overestimating too! but i think i always do that, because of my mums dinners; have no idea what i'm eating but it feels like a lot of oil. btw, just asking, are you chinese?

ahh. today i went around shopping for dresses. OMG i swear the reason why my body fat % is so low is because i have no boobs! OMG. OMGOMGOMG! haha, how much dyu reckon they would weigh if i had some 2,3,4 kg?  evrywhere else doesnt seem much lacking in fat. WHERE ARE MY HORMONES!!

MUST EAT EAT EAT EAT EAT!

Saykyoku: I'm lacking in bf%. And also in boobs. :( Apprenticeship-wise, I'd like to work with people or children, or in a media environment. Or as a receptionist, I'm not sure. Largely people or children.

saykyo- My hormone levels were really really realllly low when I started gaining to. They couldn't even be measure b/c they were so low! But I didn't eat anything in particular to make them go back up. I just ate like 3000 cals and gained 20 lbs, noe they're normal again. Good job eating out last night! And ugh I swear I have to boobs either. I actually have a normal-ish BF percentage (around 20 I think) but none of it is on the upper half of my body :\

dana- I agree 100% with gibbit. I don't actually wake up  in the middle of the night though, I just wake up really really early and can't fall back asleep. Like 6:30 even on weekends. It's quite annoying. Hopefully it'll go away soon.

gibbit- Lol I was dissapointed that Palin didn't embarass herself much. I must get some pilaf, I think. What's wrong with veg oil? Doesn't it have the same sort of fats as OO?

theo- I'm sorry you've got such a crap doctor. Mine are the same way. They don't believe that I actually eat. I'd find it very offensive if someone accused me of waterloading. Is there another doctor you could see? When did you start ballet? Do you like it? You're doing great so ignore that doctor.

Ehhh. I'm home sick today because I'm feeling really crummy.

I have to go get a bone scan today for the clinic. They want to get a "baseline" scan so they can track my progress and see if my bones get stronger, if there is anything wrong with them. But if they wanted a starting point, shouldn't they have made me do this scan at the start of recovery? Not after they're made me eat full fat dairy and ice cream for five months? I think they're just trying to find something wrong with me so I don't leave them. They already know how much I hate going there, so they probably just want me to have a problem that needs their medical expertise. And also, they don't want to lose the hundreds of dollars my parents are forking over to them each month because this place doesn't take freaking insurance!

Like I said yesterday, I have no appetite so I'll try to eat what I can. I had a bit of cream cheese this morning before switching to PB and I felt like throwing up, so I think it would be best if I stayed away from creamy things.

Breakfast- WW mini bagel w/ PB, oatmeal w/ pumpkin, egg, apple