Weight Loss
Moderators: spoiled_candy, coach_k, Mollybygolly, devilish_patsy, nycgirl


Eaten so much it hurts :( Need reassurance??


Quote  |  Reply

I'm so disappointed. It isn't like this is a one-off either. Pretty much the third binge in the last 4 days.

So I lost a lot of weight recently and I was really happy with myself. I'm finally a size 10 (but maybe not after today) but to do this I had to watch everything I ate. I was really really content with my weight. Then people started saying things.

My friends kept pressuring me into eating things that I didn't want to and if I didn't they would make me feel awful and shout to everyone that I'm anorexic. Then, after eating those things I would complain and my own mum would shout at me and say that I was getting obsessed and need to see someone. Now I'm really confused because they say I'm too skinny even though I'm 16 and just a size 10 so they think I'm able to eat pizza and stuff without feeling bad about it. But you can't just do that, can you? You can't just drop what you've been doing for the past year just because you're not fat enough to look like you should be watching what you're eating anymore. I can't do that.

Four days ago I almost fainted because I didn't eat enough (which I will admit) and that scared me so I ended up bingeing in the kitchen late at night. The day after at school my teacher brought in cookies after our exam and I didn't want one but my friends started telling people I was anorexic and people stared at me so I just had one to make them stop. Yesterday I had to go to a sleepover and they made me eat two slices of pizza and drink stupidly sugary alcopops. And today I saw a video of myself from that sleepover and I really hate how I look so I just went to the kitchen in misery and have eaten so much it hurts to breathe; 4 cereal bars, half a box of fruitful shredded wheat, two weetabixs with lots of sugar, a huge burger, two waffles, 4 chocolate crispy bars or more, loads of bread with chorizo and pastrami, more cereal bars and some stuff that I can't even remember.

Am I at fault here?! I feel like everything is falling to pieces and all the work I have gone to is going to waste. Soon I have to go on holiday with the same friends and which I won't be able to exercise properly on. Straight afterwards is my prom. I'm pretty sure I'm going to look flabby and disgusting for it.

Ugh. Whenever I binge I balloon right from the top of my ribs and just become one massive, shapeless tree trunk. Everyone always says that its your choice what you eat but its not true at all. I'm being selfish but please can someone make me feel better? I don't know what to do :'(

13 Replies (last)

I'm a bit older than you, but I went through your exact same situation, only I continued bingeing because I was miserable, and went back up to a size 12. Having said that, if you felt like you were going to faint you probably didn't eat enough that day. You're right, don't undo all the hard work you have done, but aim for weight maintenance now, make sure you exercise and eat enough. Unfortunately people will always accuse you of being unhealthy and/or with an eating disorder if you are slim, but if you are a size 12 noone bats an eyelid. At what weight do YOU feel good about yourself? That's what you need to aim for, and as for sugary alcopops, they are bad for you, regardless of weight watching noone should drink that stuff. Explain to your friends how they are making you feel, and maybe outline that you want to be HEALTHY which has nothing to do with be anorexic. So go ahead, munch on your cereal bars whilst they have pizza, you're being healthy. And lastly, a little binge never hurt anyone, but don't let it happen regularly, or like me you will undo all the hard work. Hope this helped xx

Thank you :(

Before all the binging I was 115ish pounds which was mostly all muscle because I'm an cycling enthusiast xD but I can't guarantee this because I think our scales are broken.

I was comfortable with this but maybe its too hard to maintain? I dunno.

I'm 5'8.

 

They're not your friends, best bet is to sit them down and make them read this. Then see how they feel about it.

Go for whatever weight you want, not others.

Original Post by anguine:

Thank you :(

Before all the binging I was 115ish pounds which was mostly all muscle because I'm an cycling enthusiast xD but I can't guarantee this because I think our scales are broken.

I was comfortable with this but maybe its too hard to maintain? I dunno.

I'm 5'8.

 

 No wonder why you were binging...Sweetie, you were underweight! Your body was screaming for it!

Oh, honey, I feel so bad for you.  I spent the weekend eating the same way.  It's just certain people I'm around... they're a bad influence!  You know, there's nothing wrong with eating whatever you want from time to time, especially with friends.  The trick is to stop before you make yourself sick--and I wish I knew how.  Sometimes I still mess up, and I don't think I'll ever stop messing up, but... well... all I can do is try.  And that's all you can do, too.  Eat what you want; some of it will be healthy, some of it won't, especially when you're out with friends. 

A friendly suggestion?  Plan out your day ahead of time so you don't end up going crazy on food, or starving yourself.  Plan a week if it makes you feel better.

I find it hard to believe that you are a size 10 at 5'8 and 115 lbs; I am 5'8 and a size 10 myself at around 155 lbs. Perhaps you meant to type a size 1 or 0...

You are underweight. The minimum safe weight for your height is 125 lbs. If you are still unhappy with the way you look at 10 pounds underweight, you may need to consider that you do have some form of an eating disorder.

Just curious... did you enter every single thing you ate into the calorie tracker on the site here?

It lays it out on the line, in cold fact, how much you actually consumed, and it may give you the motivation to NOT binge next time. It keeps you accountable!

Entering all my food religiously has sure made an improvement on my "sneaking of food and binging!"

 

Original Post by ibii:

I find it hard to believe that you are a size 10 at 5'8 and 115 lbs; I am 5'8 and a size 10 myself at around 155 lbs. Perhaps you meant to type a size 1 or 0...

You are underweight. The minimum safe weight for your height is 125 lbs. If you are still unhappy with the way you look at 10 pounds underweight, you may need to consider that you do have some form of an eating disorder.

Don't know for certain but I'm assuming Anguine is english and size 10 would be a US size 6.

Original Post by misscherryjane:

Original Post by ibii:

I find it hard to believe that you are a size 10 at 5'8 and 115 lbs; I am 5'8 and a size 10 myself at around 155 lbs. Perhaps you meant to type a size 1 or 0...

You are underweight. The minimum safe weight for your height is 125 lbs. If you are still unhappy with the way you look at 10 pounds underweight, you may need to consider that you do have some form of an eating disorder.

Don't know for certain but I'm assuming Anguine is english and size 10 would be a US size 6.

Yeah but I'm from the UK and 5 foot 8, and I'm a size 10 at about 150 pounds!

Original Post by ahrena_angel:

Original Post by misscherryjane:

Original Post by ibii:

I find it hard to believe that you are a size 10 at 5'8 and 115 lbs; I am 5'8 and a size 10 myself at around 155 lbs. Perhaps you meant to type a size 1 or 0...

You are underweight. The minimum safe weight for your height is 125 lbs. If you are still unhappy with the way you look at 10 pounds underweight, you may need to consider that you do have some form of an eating disorder.

Don't know for certain but I'm assuming Anguine is english and size 10 would be a US size 6.

Yeah but I'm from the UK and 5 foot 8, and I'm a size 10 at about 150 pounds!

Seriously? I'm from UK, 5"4, 117lbs and around size 8. I dunno, think it depends where you shop, everywhere has different sizes?

Anguine, at 5'8 and 115lbs you are underweight. Think of all the damage this can do to your body; osteoporosis, infertility, damage to immune system...

I don't think weight and clothes size really have any relationship at all, because I'm a size 12 uk and weigh 145lbs, whereas someone posted they weigh 155lbs and are a uk size 10...

 

 

Eat more, but make healthy choices. I realise you are in the underweight department, however, nobody should be able to force or guilt trip you into eating junk when you don`t feel like it.

Snack on nuts, dried fruit, and grain products (hopefully whole wheat), if you`re into cycling your body will appreciate the energy. Even if you feel alright, you should still increase your calorie intake and gain a bit of body fat so you are not at risk of losing your period or other nasty conditions.

Hi Anguine!

I am an American and 23yo...I would like to help you with your peer pressure problem (try anyway).  My catharsis about peer pressure and "friends" (more like "frenemies") spreading vicious rumors about me or talking smack about me behind my back happened in middle school when I was 13/14.  I woke up one morning and felt at peace and in my head I knew I was not what they said so I shouldn't care what those narrow-minded children who called themselves my friends say about me.

This may take a while, but you have to become comfortable with yourself.  You have to know that YOU are the absolute authority over what you do and only YOUR opinion matters.  If the people who claim to be your friends tell people your anorexic when you refuse a snack, stick to your guns.  Give yourself a mantra to repeat or make a happy place in your mind where you feel completely calm and confident.

Eventually you will feel at ease doing whatever you want in your own skin.  I felt incredibly free after my realization...I was probably branded a "freak" or "weirdo" by the popular kids, but I loved acting the freak. It was fun.  Remember high school will be over in 2 years.  You can do this.  Best of luck to you!

p.s. This is entirely up to you, but I also feel that 115 is too light for someone of your height.

13 Replies
Advertisement
Advertisement
Allergy Remedies
Is It Possible to Go Natural?
The side effects of allergy medications keep some people from using them. Natural remedies can be a great alternative, but some are more effective than others.