Possibly the early signs of an eating disorder...

Hello

I'm a bit worried about the way my diet is going...

Initially back in Feb I was 145 lbs (not overweight but could do with trimming up) so I decided to lose just a few lbs... I did that successfully and reached my target of 9.7 st but since then I've just been setting myself new weight goals. I'm just over 120 lbs/8.9 st now and at 5.6 that's bordering on the lower side of a normal bmi.

Even though people have commented on my weight loss I seem to be more concerned about losing weight and obsessing over food since I got down to my lowest weight. I feel like I'm almost more critical of my body now than before I lost the weight!... I'm not sure I would say that I was anorexic but I'm starting to develop similar tendencies to that of an eating disorder, like, I try to stay under 1000 calories a day,  weigh myself at least once a day, enjoy cooking calorific meals for others but not eating them myself, I try to run 3 miles a day and more if I feel i've eaten too much. Basically about 75% percent of my thoughts are around food and researching weight loss online.  

I still love eating chocolate and mcdonalds but just cut down and try to undo with exercise or restricting other meals throughout the day...

I gained weight after a previous diet and am scared that this will happen again... :/ I'm also scared I wont ever be happy with my body or wont be able to stop dieting for fear of re-gaining.

Please be nice as this is the first time I've spoken about this... I understand there are going to be people out there who would be annoyed to hear this, so sorry about that. 

xxx

It is possible you could be developing an ED but with the right goals set in mind, you could achieve even more(not talking about weight loss).

Instead of trying to lose weight, Try sports to trim up, set a goal! While your doing something active you could invite friends over, that way you wil stop thinking about your weight!

I've also had the SAme state of mind for weeks but I've been feeling better about myself and how I look since I've started being more involved and active.

I hope his helps(:

Hi Rosanna,

I sounds like you are headed in the same direction that my most recent relapse into anorexia took.

Eating disorders do not show up in one form for everyone (and, as I found out, relapses for any one person can be drastically different, too). You may still be eating things like chocolate - but I was, too. You're taking in under 1000 calories, and feel the need to exercise more to justify eating a little more? Same here.

I really think you need to take a step back from dieting, let your body get used to the new weight you have reached.

The thing is, I am still obsessed with food, and I was when I had a BMI of 18.5, but the obsession ballooned rapidly when I got past a BMI of 17.5.

Losing more weight is only going to make it worse, so please try not to lose any more, because it will only get harder and harder for you to control - if an ED is where you're headed, turn things around NOW before things get worse!