Ever Horrified By How You Used To Look/Dress!?
ughh just saw a video of my self from about 7 months ago (november)---this is probably 10 pounds below my highest weight (think, not sure) and I was wearing this skirt that highlighted my "baby belly" and I just looked large and my thighs looked thick. And from nov. or dec-january I wore (not all the time, 1--2 a week) snuggish/fitted long-sleeved tops and they did not look good, I now realize! why did I wear them!? I am SO embarrassed. I went to a pool party (indoor) in december and wore a bikini! eeek! I talked to a guy and he totally rejected me (first time I ever did something like that :l) and now I know it's because I looked awful! This memory haunts me still today and I feel so ashamed of myself.
I feel so disgusted with myself that I dressed that way and ever attempted talking to a guy. I mean I wasn't overweight but I was close and I was so busy and concentrated on other stuff, I wasn't seeing that I was gaining weight (via never exercising and eating more food than I realized) and that I shouldn't still wear the same stuff as when I was thinner. As soon as I started losing weight in the beginning of february, I've worn figure-flattering outfits; but November, December, and January I'm severely embarrassed that I sometimes dressed unflattering. :(
Anyone else feel this way!?
I was rejected by almost every boy in the school yard :P I thought I was ugly and everything forever, then poof high school was over and guys grovelled for me (even when I was overweight I had guys fighting over me). Confidence and getting out of the school yard, 2 things needed for me to realize I was not ugly. And I went back to my old high school (cause I moved away during senior year), to visit and had my one of my crushes spouted out his feelings for me (he was too chicken to tell me before when I went to the same school), too little too late I felt at the time but then realized boys in school are dumb. I truly liked him and he liked me back, I'd so see him in a heart beat even today if he wanted too ;D.
It is hard when one is low in the confidence department, I go up and down due to my bi polar, one second/day I feel very confident and maybe even narcissistic (bad type of confidence to have) and the next super low self esteem, self hate and depression.
Now, I am trying to stop caring/worrying so much. Cause even when full of myself, I still had confidence issues. I am still learning but I think that is life and for everyone, no matter age/self appearance. Cause you can have it all and have nothing, just as well a you can have nothing and have it all.
Original Post by hollowness:
I was rejected by almost every boy in the school yard :P I thought I was ugly and everything forever, then poof high school was over and guys grovelled for me (even when I was overweight I had guys fighting over me). Confidence and getting out of the school yard, 2 things needed for me to realize I was not ugly. And I went back to my old high school (cause I moved away during senior year), to visit and had my one of my crushes spouted out his feelings for me (he was too chicken to tell me before when I went to the same school), too little too late I felt at the time but then realized boys in school are dumb. I truly liked him and he liked me back, I'd so see him in a heart beat even today if he wanted too ;D.
It is hard when one is low in the confidence department, I go up and down due to my bi polar, one second/day I feel very confident and maybe even narcissistic (bad type of confidence to have) and the next super low self esteem, self hate and depression.
Now, I am trying to stop caring/worrying so much. Cause even when full of myself, I still had confidence issues. I am still learning but I think that is life and for everyone, no matter age/self appearance. Cause you can have it all and have nothing, just as well a you can have nothing and have it all.
Yeah oh god I don't even try to get boys to notice me in HS. Totally fruitless. They would never take a second look at me. This kid was older though, but he was working at the place where I approached him (on a dare by a not-so friend) and I guess he couldn't do anything while he was working. Still a horrid memory....
I just wish I had dressed more appropriately, ya know?
Yes. Hello motivation!
I'm 19 now and only just starting to look after my body properly. :)
sorta but also makes me depressed to think all the people that saw me looking that way...
Totally off topic but you look so pretty in your profile pic! 
Original Post by lilifleurr:
I remember seeing pictures of me when I was 11 stone after I'd lost around 3, oh my god! I was definitely horrified, I wasn't huge, but the weight had slowly crept on without me noticing - I was probably 14 so wasn't so conscious of how I looked at the time. I deleted all those pictures there and then, kinda wish I kept one to see how far I've come and how different I look!
I'm 19 now and only just starting to look after my body properly. :)
not all men are shallow enough not to credit a womans personality at all against her appearance. i have over the past few years had the oportunity to see what its like at either end of the weight scale for a person, i went from a muscular and lean 185-200lb after leaving the airforce and still keeping fit and eating good to an obese 260lbs women have not even looked at me for some time now, i had become the best fat friend rather than the hot boyfriend i was before lol. but i guarantee that once i get slim and get female interest again i will be much more inclined to pay much more attention to personality than appearance.
@jm3la:
There are so many guys who say that but very few of them really mean it... :)
(Not saying you don't, it's just my own personal statistics.)
