So I just came back from a vacation where I ate whatever I wanted (and still lost a little weight, b/c I walked a lot), and it's really, really hard getting back into the swing of my diet. It doesn't make it any easier that I no longer feel really FAT - imperfect, yes, but not fat. (I'm 5'9", about 155 lbs.) Before I left, I ate almost perfectly - a healthy, balanced, carefully planned diet, and I was at the point where I didn't even really need to control myself - I wasn't even drawn to "bad" foods most of the time, and when I was, control came really easy.
Now, I don't know if this is just psychological or what - and I am a little bit depressed about a couple of silly things - but I keep craving junk. I had a slice of pizza for lunch today. And then a little Godiva dark chocolate. And I had to STOP myself, which wouldn't have happened a couple of weeks ago. And now, I want more chocolate, and I keep wanting to binge, and I'm so afraid that I'm not going to be able to resist. The other day, I caught myself eating a hunk of white bread and hardly even tasting it - eating just for the sake of EATING, which is the worst kind of thing. (I stopped.)
I'm terrified of getting totally off-track - I'm also sick with the flu right now, so I don't have the energy to go back to the gym yet (and I haven't been in 2 weeks), although I think a workout might help me mentally. I feel like I am about to completely derail and balloon back to a size 14 blob. Anyone been in this mental state? Any advice? So far, I've just been reading the forums, trying to get myself back to my former, productive psych state - I loved it so much, being in control and in sync with my body and I am terrified I'm losing it or already have lost it. I just don't want to go back to where I used to be, it was horrible.
Sorry if this sounds completely crazy - if this does make sense to anyone, please, I'll be grateful for any constructive input.
Thanks for listening, at any rate. Jeez, I feel nuts.
It seems you are doing well to contain your cravings. A piece of pizza or of chocolate (and cheers to using those calories on quality godiva :D) is quite contained. As you said, you DID stop yourself from going overboard. Great that your aware of your temptations though.
How about joining an ongong thread of folks you can relate to? It can help with accountability checking back in with your day to day.
The absolute worst time for me when I'm losing weight is when I start to look better. I'm down a size or two and I don't work as hard at the weight loss because of it. That's been my derailment too many times to mention.
I have read that working out while sick is actually good for you. I know you don't feel like but the endorphins that you get will make you feel better. The only concern I would have is giving the flu to other people at the gym so I'd clean the machine you use thoroughly before moving on.
Getting your body back of the sugar and fat ( and away from the cravings) is going to be hard... just as hard as when you first started your diet plan. Take in more healthy calories at first if you feel hungry. You're better off eating two extra pieces of fruit or a slice of whole wheat toast with peanut butter than having bad stuff.
You can do it!
You are doing wonderful so far with a loss of 20 lbs. This is your kick in the butt! I'm 291 lbs and i'm on my 2nd week of dieting. I have terrible headaches and am losing my craving for sugar. I use to love cake and the thought of it now makes me sick. Do you really want to have to go through that detox all over again and get your body use to healthy foods? Probably not so you know what to do. A peice of pizza once in awhile is not going to hurt too bad but if done too often will.
You did great by exercising and losing weight while on your cruise and if you can do that then you can also get back to healthy eating. I don't know about you but I am starting to feel much better only at my 2 weeks. I'm sure you have noticed a difference too.
Also you don't want to get where i'm at! Being this heavy is no party.
Feeling (and doing) better now - munched a little dark chocolate again yesterday, but it fit into my calorie allowance, and have been pretty good today - went back to the gym (nuts! they got new ellipticals, and I am not used to them), ate a nice big salad for lunch, soy crisps and an apple for snacks, just like I did before my vacation.
It really is a mental thing more than anything else. What it really was, was that my big motivation before WAS this trip I just came back from, and although I realized a while back that I'm losing weight for other reasons as well, it had an impact on my attitude.
I'm just going to wean myself off my cravings again, just like I did before. Luckily, this time, I know what works, and I know that I CAN do it :)
Also, I have another trip at the end of January . . . this one's a cruise, so I need to be HAWT! :)
Prospectpark, I live in Bklyn too, not too far from your neighborhood :)