yep i do all the time. i cant even eat in front of my friends. i also hate watching other people eat too. eating is just gross tbh
Yes. It stems from my eating disorder. I hate eating in front of people- makes me feel guilty/self-conscious. I also feel somewhat repulsed watching other people eat. Again, probably an ED thing. It's definitely not a healthy attiitude toward food and eating though.
You're not the only one. However, when I feel this way, I know it's just my eating disorder talking. It's often hard for me to decipher my "me" voice from my "ED" voice, but there are some times when it's possible.
I used to refuse to eat in public or in front of people I didn't know well. I'd always say I forgot my lunch or didn't have money at school because I was so scared that people would judge me or think I was fat or something... But I'm over it now. I realized that I don't stare at people eating, so people probably don't stare at me, either.
I usually try to avoid pasta/ribs/etc. in public, just because I think it's gross to slurp up noodles or have sauce all over your face, haha... But sometimes it can't be helped. ;)
Back when I had an ED, I'd hate it if I had to eat around other people, because I knew they were going to notice how little I ate. But I never felt gross or guilty eating around others. No one's going to just sit there and watch you eat. And I have good table manners, so even if they do I wouldn't really care. Besides, a teenager is supposed to have a voracious appetite, and I'm not overweight or anything, so there's no reason to be ashamed of eating a lot around other people. I mean, you probably shouldn't stuff yourself and overeat, but you shouldn't do that when you're alone either.
But if for some reason you do feel bad about eating in front of other people, you might have an eating disorder. But when I say an eating disorder, I don't mean serious anorexia where you end up starving yourself down to 90 lbs. Any insecure, unhealthy relationship with food is an ED. No one's going to judge you when you eat, and if they do make some snarky comment, then just tell them to f*** off. Everyone's gotta eat!
Yeah, I HATE eating with people. After being diagnosed with anorexia last year, I started getting the classic question 5 times a day: "Did you eat? What did you eat? How much did you eat?" Like wardens or something. Before getting diagnosed, my friend used to try and practically force me to eat gummy bears every day during lunch. Now, I hate when I'm alone in the kitchen and am making something and someone will come up and watch what I'm making. I know that should bug me but it irritates the crap outta me cuz I feel like they're judging me. And I wouldn't say I'm repulsed by watching others eat but when we have family dinners, I watch how others prepare their meals, and part of me is curious as to why they put so much sauce on something, or ranch or whatever, another part wonders how they can eat like that and not be worried, and then there is the part that is sickened, especially by my brother and father who are overweight. Anything they eat, I just wanna scream at them which I know is totally eating disorder talk but I can't help it and it makes me wanna eat less and less and UGH I hate it. Eating in public will NEVER be easy to do again. I don't even remember how I could tolerate it before.
I hate eating public as well! One, because I feel like everyone is watching me and seeing how much I eat. I'm always think they're saying look how much that girl eats! Its huge!
Also, I hate noises people make when eating, esp when they eat with their mouths open! Even at home, I cant stand it. I get frustrated haha :)