You have a disorder. You think that the facts of the world don't apply to you.
Everyone needs food except for me. Everyone needs fat except for me.
Eating disorders tend to hit people who have type a persnalities, perfectionists in other words. Once they start losing weight, they cant stop. I'll look better after I lose another 5lbs. They keep making excuses to undereat and excessively workout, which you do. They keep going until they are either institutionalized or dead.
You are in too deep to understand how bad this is for you. It's no different than being addicted to heroin. No logic can reach you until you get help, professional help. You keep coming back to this post, so deep down, somewhere, you know you need help. You just have to put your personality to a side long enough to face the truth.
You need to tell someone, your parents, a counselor, a teacher, anyone that you are suffering from anorexia and you need. It's like having a car and driving from Los Angeles to New York and back again nonstop with no maitenaince. Eventually, the car will burn out. You're too young to burn out so soon.
The matter is that you exercise obsessively, on no breakfast or lunch, and think half a sandwich is a meal for a growing, over active girl. Getting your 5-a-day and drinking water is great, but only a small part of your diet. Without carbohydrates you won't have the energy for your crazy exercise schedule; Without adequate protein, your body will start to use your own muscles for fuel; Without adequate calcium, your bones will start to get thin and you'll be having fractures rather than going 3 hours at a time at the gym; Without adequate fats, your brain ceases to function properly.
I think you would be wise to confide in this teacher who is worried about you. If you honestly think that a whole sandwich as your only meal of the day would be over-eating, you need to get some help, and she sounds like the best person to start with.
What's so confusing? Are you under the impression that fat and calories are inherently bad for you? You need them to live. Full sandwiches are sold the way they're sold because for most people with normal appetites, that's what they need.
Anorexia literally means loss of appetite, as was pointed out to you . If you've been restricting and overexercising this much, you can no longer trust your body to give you hunger signals. Why should it bother? You've been ignoring those signals.
And please tell me where in your eating plan you gave you are eating 5 *portions* of fruit and vegetables. A portion is a cup, not a single plum. You are eating less than two portions of fruit (rollups don't count), and I can't actually see any vegetables.
Seriously, do you not see the disconnect between what you are doing and your future profession? Things that apply to all living things apply to *you*.
Makayla, please listen to what everyone else is saying. You are starving yourself to death, even if you don't feel hungry. When you stop eating sufficiently, your body stops sending you hunger signals. You have to eat, even when you're not hungry. Also, you do not have to do that much exercise! The fact that you feel you do screams eating disorder. I honestly don't know why you are so convinced that you don't have one when everything, and I mean everything, points to the fact that you do.
Also, why do you continually evade the question of your weight and height? You refuse to give this information which could really put some of our minds at ease (or completely terrify us if you are lying about being a healthy weight). If you really have healthy stats (which I would be shocked if you do based on your lack of eating and over exercise), then why not tell us?
We aren't out to get you and neither are your teachers. What you are doing to yourself is deadly. I member of CC passed away just two weeks ago due to anorexia. You may not think you have an eating disorder, but your behaviors say otherwise and it's very, very dangerous. Please, please get help. Please.
Your diet is only about 600ish cals at most.
Take it from a girl who had multiple eating disorders--
1) when you first become anorexic you do NOT see it. You think of yourself as healthy, at least I did and so do you.
2) I was hospitalized for eating more than you and working out less than you.
3) why do you want to lose weight? I bet you anything your underweight already. If not close.
4) all these diet products undergo more processing than fullest products because the taste needs to be preserved so it's actually worse for you.
Please get help.
Makayla, I know it can be hard to hear things that go against what you really, truly feel, deep down, to be right for you...BUT the advice given to you from people on this thread comes from years of experience as well as the theoretical knowledge.
As many have said, even if you don't have an official medical diagnosis right now, you are surely heading for a full-blown ED if you don't try to change things now.
Seven years ago, I started to become interested in healthy-eating. I would skip meals. I labelled foods as 'bad' and 'not allowed'. I started exercising excessively. Hell, I even started shoving my arm down my throat every night and I STILL genuinely believed that, whilst other people get eating disorders, it would never go that far for me. People gave me advice and I didn't believe it applied to me. Even in recovery, it has literally taken me about four YEARS to accept that my body needs a certain amount of nutrition just to MAINTAIN a weight, never mind (in my current situation) gain weight. Now I understand that I need food to survive, and what's more, I need every type of food, including fats.
Please, have a serious think about all that's been said to you in this thread. People care about you, on here and in real life. It's so hard to recognise warning signs in yourself because the part of you that is becoming disordered obviously doesn't want the real you cottoning on to it, otherwise it would be stopped. Don't let these thoughts win.
After reading everything here.. I do help you realize eventually how harmful this is. Either that, or someone else will. You might be in denial at the moment. People are already starting to see the signs, like your teachers. Please don't risk your health because you believe you "don't have time for it." I think you know already know the answer to why teachers are watching out for you. Please talk to someone about getting help.