I'm a 16 year old girl who is about 5 feet and a half. I think my obsession with my weight started when I saw how skinny my friends looked in their bikinis the summer I was 15 and I wanted to be like that. :P I was never overweight to begin with, the heaviest I've been was only 120 lbs which is a BMI of 23.0. I guess I thought I looked 'chubby' because I carried my weight differently. So without any supervision, I decided to use a calorie counter and I only ate 700 calories for about 5 months. YIKES! I know! D: I got to my lowest weight of 89 lbs, and that was when I realized I had a problem. I stopped going out with my friends with fear that I would have to eat food. I wouldn't eat with my family because I thought eating later at night would make me gain weight. And if I didn't exercise for at least an hour each day, I would feel SO much guilt going to sleep. I think the thing that finally told me I need to stop was when I lost my period, and my hair started falling out A LOT! So, I decided to go to the doctor's! :D
After going to the doctor's I started to eat more, but then another problem came! I was told I needed to eat more, but I think I took advantage of that. After being starved for 5 months, and not eating anything, but salad and fruit, I binged almost every single day. I gained ALL of my weight back plus 10 lbs 5 months. I would eat more than 4500 calories one day, and nothing at all the next. I guess being deprived of all the yummy foods I loved was haunting me now! D: I would sneak junk food around the house because I felt embarassed and didn't want my parents to know. I would hide all the wrappers and throw them away when no one was home. And because I gained the weight back so quickly, I looked a lot 'fatter' than before.
A few months ago, I decided that I really needed to stop this abusive relationship with my food. I feel lucky that I never went TOO extreme to either side before realizing what I did was wrong. :P And as of now, I weigh 115 lbs and I eat about 2,200 calories and exercise about 4-5 times a week. I allow myself to have all the foods I love in moderation and the right portion. I feel so lucky that I've had supportive people around me to help me through this. :) I guess what I wanted to tell people was that it's never too late to change your habits and work towards a healthier you! :D And it's okay to realize that you're doing wrong and start doing the right thing. And thanks to anyone who has read this far, I realize this has gotten quick long, hehe! :) And good luck to anyone who is struggling with their weight/health, I know it can be really difficult, but you can do it! :D