Frustrated with lack of answeres... assuming the worst... please help!

So I've completed two weeks under the "Meaudsley Method" of what I thought was a minor refeed. Even though in the past, my weight has fallen to 70 lbs. at 5'4" tall, it only slipped to 92 lbs. this time. My weight throughout the summer when I was healthy was steadily around 105 lbs.

Basically, I've been eating everything my parents give me. It's really difficult, because the diet consists of red meats, eggs, creams, dairy, and lots of fats/oils as the basis- all things my body had to adapt to.

Also, I've been attending a partial hospitalization program 5 days a week, which I spend a weekly total of 28 hours at. I have a "treatment team" there, mostly consisting of all new professionals that did not treat me during my first bought with Anorexia.

Thus far, my weight has done the following... my "admission" weight last Friday (9/19) was 92.4 lbs. On Tuesday (9/23), I had gained to 95.4 lbs. Then on this Friday (9/26), my weight fell slightly to 94 lbs. even. So I am for the most part gaining.

In hindsight, I would love to get back to my old weight. Even a tad higher. I've questioned my "treatment team" about what weight they want me to reach. I get no answeres. The less answeres I get, the more I want to know. They said they needed a growth chart, so they got a growth chart of me. Still, no answeres.

They did, however, explain the growth chart method of dietermining target weights. For whatever weight percentile you were on the majority of your life, that's what they want to get you back to.

While this makes perfect sense in restrospect, my situation is a bit troubling. The last weight that I can accuratly remember before falling ill the first time was when I was 13 years old, 5'4" tall, and 96 lbs. This would put me at teh 42nd percentile for weight, and 80th percentile for heigth.

My concern comes in to play in regards to my heighth. I have not grown any taller since I was 12 years old. My current hieght percentile is 48th centile. So, getting me up to the 42nd percentile for weight wouldn't be the same as if I were in the 80th percentile for heighth. It's confusing what I'm trying to say, I'm sorry. I guess it's just that I used to be taller for my age, thus, my weight was kind of average since my height was above average. But in terms of build, I was always a skinny kid. And I want this to be factored into my target weight.

I apologize for the rant, it's just been very rough going to treatment. When I was 13, I didn't mind having strangers taking charge of my life, because I knew I would die if they didn't. However, this time- I'm far more defiant and knowledgable, not to mention cynical. I've tought myself, whether right or wrong, to trust no one. So I remain fearful and anxious that my target weight will be too high for my natural structure. This fear causes me to be reluctant toward recovery in general. I'm just sick of these medical people having control.

Ah thank you for reading.

Julz-the percentage is based on your height and weight.  So it would be your percentile baed on some height/weight equation then vs. some height/weight equation now.  It's not just a weight number on a chart compared to all other weights--it's in proportion to height. 

In other words, if you were in X percentile of all 5' 12 year olds, your goal now would put you at X percentil of all 5' 15 year olds [even if there are less of those, it's the percent of THOSE, not overall].

what is 70lbs in kgs?

31.751465900000003 kg

online calculators.

wow girl i know how u feel cause i weigh 32kg!