Gaining weigh-ins!!

Let's all post with putting our gaining weigh ins and stats!

What are you doing to gain?? How much have you gained?? And what is your goal??

I am 5'7 and currently 118-122. My lowest was 94 so you do the math!!!

My nutritionist says that 130ish is where I should be..anyone else?

THEO+GIBBIT-i know its a change and change is hard, but its also good+necessary+the point, rt?  it IS the goal to gain+get healthy.  im at a bmi of 18.3 as of last week but i still dont feel healthy.

what do u mean an active gainer?

ive found my weight to be distributing over my entire body, legs, arms, etc.

another update: Since I found I reached this new weight this morning I decided to pull out a bunch of pants I haven't worn in a year and they're now fitting me nicely again. Kind of exciting because it's sort of like going shopping and getting new things without spending the money. At the same time this scares me because it means I'm close to having to stop gaining and i'm not sure I remmber how to eat normally, i only know how to eat to gain, and am scared i'll just gain forever.

It's also a little sick that I got some satisfaction out of having all of my clothes fall off of me and now I don't have that anymore, and it sort of upsets me :\ I guess being ultra tiny has become a part of how I identify myself and now I don't know who or what I am. I do know that i'm crazy though!! arrrrrrgggh

agru- i want my weight to redistribute back to how i was before! i had such nice curves and now it's all still disproportionate and my stomach is all big :(

Day two of my 3500 cals per day week, and no change yet in weight.  Grrr, I had a slip-up today and ate a bigger portion than I intended to.  I am tempted to restrict, but I suppose I should just eat my 3500 cals anyway, and not worry about how many extra cals I took in.  I'm not sure how many, which makes me anxious.  Arrrrrgh, why can't I just order a pizza or something and eat the darn thing without caring how many calories there are in a slice, or in a piece of stupid capsicum? 

I think I just need a kick in the pants to tell me, 'Yes, you silly-billy, you're trying to gain, so who cares if you went back for seconds?' 

Lousy ED!

Mel: Give it another week. If you've still seen no gains, up them again. Also, make sure you're meeting 3500 and not underestimating. As for eating extra - there is no bottom limit to gaining! If you eat some extra, so what? Whatever you do, no restricting!

Mel_ynda:  Are you crazy?!  You need to ideally have more than seconds—more like thirds or fourths!  Silly-billy, you're trying to gain, so eat as much as you can. :)

(No, I don't actually think you're crazy—I know exactly how you feel—but sometimes you just need a little slap of reality. ^^)

Eep. So I just gave in to the scale...it was a crappy time to weigh myself...I've had alot of diet coke today and ate breakfast and lunch, and I am mmmmmaaaaaajjoooorrrllllyyyyy NOT having normal BMs, because I am trying to recover from laxitive abuse. It suckssss.

So on November 4 I was 112.4.

Today, I was 114.

I know that I'm still underweight and that 114 probably isn't even a very accurate reading, and I should be glad I'm gaining because that's what I'm trying to do, but still! It sucks. I don't feel proud of myself at all, even though I know I should be.I've been eating well and I feel really good, until I get on the scale.

AAARRRGGGHHHH!

I weighed myself yesterday morning and I was at 121, lbs. That was my minimum goal weight for this week, so that means I'm keeping up with the set plan. It also looks like the 6 lbs I've gained so far has gone to all the right places, so I might shoot for about 6 more. 125 to 127 is what I'm shooting for. 127 would be best.

Yeah I just gave into the scale too, also at a bad time to weigh myself.  But, alas, the results are in regardless!

Last: 101

Today: 104

Goal: 108

I know it's probably bloating and stuff, but hey, I like seeing that number better than 101.  For once, I am actually genuinely excited to have gained some weight, because I realized how much I am putting my health in jeopardy.

I'm going to eat 2500 this whole week (eek!) while being totally sedentary, and we'll see how it goes.  I need to just keep breathing in, breathing out, remembering that they're just numbers and I'm not going to inflate like a balloon!

ht 5'3.75

1 wk ago- 106 bmi 18.3

CW-108

GW- AT LEAST a bmi of 22, wt AT LEAST 127, then ill see where my body takes me so that I can live the FULLEST+HEALTHIEST life i can!!!   AND I AM!!

Original Post by okgo:

Mel_ynda:  Are you crazy?!  You need to ideally have more than seconds—more like thirds or fourths!  Silly-billy, you're trying to gain, so eat as much as you can. :)

(No, I don't actually think you're crazy—I know exactly how you feel—but sometimes you just need a little slap of reality. ^^)

 Hah, yes, I need to eat like a hobbit and have second breakfast! 

I know, I know.  I just feel like I don't have control over my intake if I eat more calories than I'd planned.  ED's bad influence. 

Tomorrow I might have extra food over my calorie intake just to spite ED. 

Thanks for the reality check!  How's everything going with your good self?  Extraordinarily great, I hope!

Mel. xox

Original Post by lalabanana:

Mel: Give it another week. If you've still seen no gains, up them again. Also, make sure you're meeting 3500 and not underestimating. As for eating extra - there is no bottom limit to gaining! If you eat some extra, so what? Whatever you do, no restricting!

 Thanks, Ellie.  I am meeting 3500, believe me.  It feels so weird sometimes being full all the time now.  And not exercising feels a bit strange too.  I didn't restrict, so take that, ED! 

And today I had caramel fudge, which was yummy, yummy, I've got love in my tummy!

Again, thanks for the support.  It means so much!  Hope everything's treating you nicely!

Mel. xox

Original Post by splenda_sweet:

Eep. So I just gave in to the scale...it was a crappy time to weigh myself...I've had alot of diet coke today and ate breakfast and lunch, and I am mmmmmaaaaaajjoooorrrllllyyyyy NOT having normal BMs, because I am trying to recover from laxitive abuse. It suckssss.

So on November 4 I was 112.4.

Today, I was 114.

I know that I'm still underweight and that 114 probably isn't even a very accurate reading, and I should be glad I'm gaining because that's what I'm trying to do, but still! It sucks. I don't feel proud of myself at all, even though I know I should be.I've been eating well and I feel really good, until I get on the scale.

AAARRRGGGHHHH!

 

 

 Not that you need to worry if it is accurate, but I doubt it is what with Diet Choke (sorry, can't stand the stuff), and having eaten beforehand. 

Numbers are only numbers; they can't make you happy, or healthy.  You should be proud of yourself, because you are fighting ED and you are winning, perhaps slowly but surely nevertheless.

Keep it up,

Mel. xox

Original Post by tangerine89:

I weighed myself yesterday morning and I was at 121, lbs. That was my minimum goal weight for this week, so that means I'm keeping up with the set plan. It also looks like the 6 lbs I've gained so far has gone to all the right places, so I might shoot for about 6 more. 125 to 127 is what I'm shooting for. 127 would be best.

 Tangerine, that's fantastic!  You are doing so well.  Your goal is very similar to mine, and I hope I can keep moving towards it with as much courage and optimism as you've just shown.

Awesome!

Mel. xox

Original Post by mel_ynda:

Hah, yes, I need to eat like a hobbit and have second breakfast! 

I know, I know.  I just feel like I don't have control over my intake if I eat more calories than I'd planned.  ED's bad influence. 

Tomorrow I might have extra food over my calorie intake just to spite ED. 

Thanks for the reality check!  How's everything going with your good self?  Extraordinarily great, I hope!

Mel. xox

Hey, do it!  That's the only way, I've come to realize, to defeat ED.  It's by doing something you don't want to do.

As for me, of course, things aren't going well at all. :( But I have to gain weight (mom's orders!) quickly, no more letting me take my time.  I'm going to have to raise to 2600 and see where that leaves me, but I only have about a week and a half before she wants to see about two pounds.  So, in theory, I would need 2420 calories every day for a week and a half to reach my goal.  I don't even know why I'm doing 2600 instead, I guess to just give it an extra day or so to stabilize and allow for slip-ups.  

But I just ate my first big breakfast in about three months.  It was only 350 calories, but I am so scared I am about to cry.  Yes, I did it on purpose, but now I feel like I can't eat anything the rest of the day. :(

Original Post by okgo:

Original Post by mel_ynda:

Hah, yes, I need to eat like a hobbit and have second breakfast! 

I know, I know.  I just feel like I don't have control over my intake if I eat more calories than I'd planned.  ED's bad influence. 

Tomorrow I might have extra food over my calorie intake just to spite ED. 

Thanks for the reality check!  How's everything going with your good self?  Extraordinarily great, I hope!

Mel. xox

Hey, do it!  That's the only way, I've come to realize, to defeat ED.  It's by doing something you don't want to do.

As for me, of course, things aren't going well at all. :( But I have to gain weight (mom's orders!) quickly, no more letting me take my time.  I'm going to have to raise to 2600 and see where that leaves me, but I only have about a week and a half before she wants to see about two pounds.  So, in theory, I would need 2420 calories every day for a week and a half to reach my goal.  I don't even know why I'm doing 2600 instead, I guess to just give it an extra day or so to stabilize and allow for slip-ups.  

But I just ate my first big breakfast in about three months.  It was only 350 calories, but I am so scared I am about to cry.  Yes, I did it on purpose, but now I feel like I can't eat anything the rest of the day. :(

 Hey Okie,

Don't stress--I have two weeks to gain 3 kg/6 lbs, or that's where I want to be by Oct 29 when my parents visit. 

Also, you should be very proud of yourself for eating a decent breakfast.  It takes a lot of courage, and I know what you mean about wanting to restrict the rest of the day, but don't give in to ED.  It's really what ED wants, and not you at all! 

I've kept up with my 3500 cals per day so far--it's Thursday here in Oz, and I seriously hope some pounds show up on Monday.  I feel like I'm a food vacuum! 

I was like you wanting to take my time gaining weight.  I now see that prolonging the process is just another way of letting ED in, and putting off becoming healthy again.  So if I have to eat 5000 cals a day, so be it. I'm going to beat this, and so are you!  And honestly once you start eating more, you start feeling better, so keep going and stay strong.

Mel. xox

Mel_ynda- you always have the best things to say! I love it when you respond to my posts. You're super inspiring! Keep up the 3500+, I know you can do it.

Well, my weight has been being a total freakshow. Last time I posted here it was 114.something. I went to the emergency room yesterday for really bad abdomenal pain due to purging and such(details in my journal for all you people as curious as me), and my wieght was 52.4 kgs, or 115.5 lbs. Today it was 110.2, after having a whole liter of fluid pumped into me yesterday, and apparently 5.3 lbs of waste removed.

So the gaining is sucking, and I feel like crap (physically)  and I haven't been meeting my calorie goals for yesterday and today, because I've been so ill. Still, I'm making effort to drink as many cals as I can stomach, and i think i'm going to go try to eat something more substantial than dry toast now.

I'm so sorry you're going through this! You seem so wonderful, and you have a lot going for you. You can do it. Just don't buy them; throw them out. Like you said yourself, not having it will help right? So, don't carry money with you if you pass by a drug store, etc. Do go shopping if you are weak. I have this problem with peanut butter, where I would eat like half a jar in a night as a way to gain weight, then feel guilty and restrict the next day. What I do is I don't carry money with me if I know I will buy something I shouldn't have. Then, if I go grocery shopping, I make sure I go when my ED is not yelling loudly. I don't know if this will help, but I wish all the best.

Original Post by splenda_sweet:

Mel_ynda- you always have the best things to say! I love it when you respond to my posts. You're super inspiring! Keep up the 3500+, I know you can do it.

Well, my weight has been being a total freakshow. Last time I posted here it was 114.something. I went to the emergency room yesterday for really bad abdomenal pain due to purging and such(details in my journal for all you people as curious as me), and my wieght was 52.4 kgs, or 115.5 lbs. Today it was 110.2, after having a whole liter of fluid pumped into me yesterday, and apparently 5.3 lbs of waste removed.

So the gaining is sucking, and I feel like crap (physically)  and I haven't been meeting my calorie goals for yesterday and today, because I've been so ill. Still, I'm making effort to drink as many cals as I can stomach, and i think i'm going to go try to eat something more substantial than dry toast now.

 Hey splenda,

So, so sorry to hear you've been so ill.  Please do your very best to stop purging; I know you can do it. 

Make up for those lost cal goals when you're well enough to do so.  Don't let this get you down; use it as an incentive to get better, and refrain from purging.  Feeling like crap is not the way you want to live your life!

I'm still going with my 3500 cals this week.  One more day to go.  Here's to some weight gain! 

Please be brave, and stick at recovery!  Be good to yourself.

Mel. xox

This is my second time in recovery, so I've got too different LWs. My parents caught it early this time.

First time: 5'3"

LW: 78

GW: 109

Now: 5'5"

LW: 93

CW: They won't let me know

GW: 108-110

I'm not really ready for this either...