This goes out to all bingers

I have been struggling with binge eating for almost a year now, and have tried EVERYTHING i could possibly think of. What i've learned though, is that it helps to know your not the only one out there that's dealing with these problems.

If your a binge eater, feel free to talk about any problems that your dealing with. We can all help eachother get through this.

-morgen

Hello
I just joined this site and this is my very first post.
Well I don’t normally use these types of sites but after reading through the comments I felt like I just had to. I find myself in a similar routine to many here. I used to be very underweight and never eat more then a some veg & some fruit everyday. Now however all I can think about is food, day & night, its like Im making up for all the days I chose to go hungry. I just cant stop binging.
It mostly starts once everyone else is gone to bed, I sneak into the kitchen and start stuffing food into my mouth, usually starts with biscuits, cake, pb, scones etc. it wldnt be that unusual for me to open a whole packet of cereal and eat the whole thing in one sitting.
I hate it, I hate myself more for doing it in the first place. I feel so stupid afterwards, after I keep telling myself I’ll never do it again. I say things like, well if I eat everything now then there’ll be none left to eat tomorrow so it’ll be a good day, that actually seems logical to me at the time, how stupid I feel for doing it.
The next day my mum might ask me what happened to all the cake she bought and I make excuses like it fell on the floor so I throw it out, Im far to ashamed to admit I picked up the whole thing and started taking huge bites outta it,.
I act like I wld never dream of eating the pizza or burgers during the day but as soon as no ones looking Im stuffing em in my mouth.
Why do I do this to myself?
Then I eat so much at times it wont stay down and Im puking in the toilet at 3am and trying frantically not to wake anyone and cover the smell.
Again I ask why do I do this to myself? Its like a form of self-abuse or something?

I really want to stop, I really want to lose these unhealthy habits, I really want to stop constantly thinking about food, I really want… to be normal again.