Guilt after "binge"

Last night my parents, brothers and I had a dinner to celebrate my completion of my Master's degree and my brother's birthday. I am recovering from EDNOS (anorexic for 2 years, now mostly weight-recovered for 5) and am usually very anal about counting calories, though I am now eating around 2000 calories a day (I am 138 lbs, 6', female).

I ended up having 4 drinks, which is very uncharacteristic of me. I have a low tolerance for alcohol and was consequentially quite drunk! Regardless, by the time I went to sleep I was at 2000 calories, give or take.

Here's the kicker: at 2 a.m I woke up, still inebriated, and went to the kitchen and had 2 slices of strawberry rhubarb pie that my mom had made for dinner. I have no idea what got into me. I feel so guilty today and I don't know whether or not I should cut back to make up for some of the extra calories. I'm estimating that the pie had 500 calories a slice, which means that I ate 1000 calories more than I usually do.

Any support/ advice would be really appreciated! Thanks.

Alcohol has this certain effect on inhibitions - worth looking out for.

I quit drinking four years ago and quit smoking a year and a half ago - I know if I was still drinking I'd reach for a smoke every time! I'm sure that pie goes by the same principle.

sometimes overeating can be good for the metabolism, and if its just once in a blue moon you wont gain any weight from it. we all overeat from time to time, just when its a constant, emotionally triggered thing, it starts to turn into a problem. i wouldnt worry about it, everyone should get their chance to enjoy cake! hope this helps.

i binged last wed. night.  I did exactly what you did. I binged then I felt horrible the next day.  However you have to release yourself as I did from that guilt.  It was one day, and you had a celebration you were taking part of.  You can't take that evening back, forgive and forget.  You are doing great, let this one event go.