Hate him sooooooooo much!

Any other love hate relationships out there? I have a crush on the guy I hate because he's good at everything he does! but he's nice to me and is always complimenting me. He's very thin and short though (about 5'4 or 5' 5 about one inch and a half taller than I) and I look like a monster next to him. It makes me really depressed and my self esteem goes down  the toilet when I see how fat I am. I look better next to other guys but why did he have to have such a wire body!!  its not fair because I know there is not a chance for him to liek me and I just have to look from afar and mentally kick and stab myself in self-despise  as I see him and another cute short thin girl.

dont knock yourself down so much.  you never know if he likes you or not.  you don't have to crowd over him or anything, but just talk friendly.  dont worry about other girls bodies.   a lot of guys don't even like for girls to be too thin.  he probably doesn't even care about your weight and you are probably the only one thinking about it.  wear some eye make-up that brightens up your face, maybe wear a little blush, and maybe some balm or gloss and you're great!

i had a real eye-opener myself.  i moved to another school this semester, and even though i was not sure of my own body and not really happy with my weight, i have gotten hit on by quite a few guys and this really cute guy keeps trying to flirt.  he is REALLY skinny, and i even heard him say he is 135 lbs.  he is maybe 5'10" or so, and i was feeling a little bad because a few months ago i myself was 136 and i felt really disgusted.  no reason to hate the guy tho (he sure is cute being skinny) (and he's funny and outspoken and did i mention that he is totally a cutie pie? curly hair to boot! male curly  ponytails forever!!! hahaha)

but i thought about how the Bible says "As a man thinketh, so is he."  (i'm not a man, but we get the picture)

i decided that even if i wasnt completely comfortable, i would hold my head up and be confident in who i am and that i am a perfectly fine weight.  if i think that i am confident, pretty, and a nice shape/weight, thats what i will be and how others will perceive me, and you know what?  the Bible is exactly right!  other people see me as i see myself and guys like the way i look.  it was really nice to go to a bigger school, too, because there are many girls my size or bigger who are really pretty and confident.  what makes me any different?

i hope this advice was useful and helpful to you in some way.

GOD Bless you, and i hope you feel better. :)