Hate the Scale -- Hate it! Need some motivation please!

This week I felt so proud of myself becaus I actually made it through Thanksgiving and family get-togethers ... all while maintaining that coveted 500 calorie deficit (I usually like to maintain about an 800 calorie deficit but gave myself a break because of the holiday).  I was so pleased with passing up the pie, the cheese, the garlic bread with cheesey mayonaise topping (YUM), no deviled eggs ... stuffed mushrooms ... none of the bad stuff (except a little gravy).  I was so certain I would be pleased with my weekly results -- until I stepped on the scale this morning for my Monday weigh-in.  Friday, I weighed in at 163.5 ... Monday, I weighed in at 164.5.  I maintained my 500 calorie deficit even with going to the family party where homemade turkey noodle soup and garlic cheesey bread were served with a myriad of cheesey goodness as appetizers.  I maintained my calorie deficit and felt pretty good about what I accomplished ... only to find that I put on another freaking pound!! I did take some measurements for my weigh-in, measure-in this morning ... and some of those went down ... and some of those went up ... but the ones that went down are keeping me hanging by a thread.

I am feeling a great deal of pressure at the moment to start losing some weight.  I have always been a closet dieter (in case I fail ... I don't want anyone to know I am on a diet so I don't tell anyone) ... I am really trying to overcome this shame I feel when I am on a diet because I think that sabotages me.  Everyone knows that I am trying to lose the weight because I came clean on Thanksgiving.  Now I feel like ... I if I don't make progress ... everyone will know what a failure the fat girl is ... I hate being this vulnerable and right now I hate my scale. 

Thoughts, advice or kind words ... will be appreciated!

Gwen

First, there's a good chance that pound is just normal fluxuations or water retention. Weigh again next week and it will probably be gone. I always gain at least a pound over the weekend, because that's when I have alcohol or salty foods or go out to eat, but it always goes away.

Second, don't beat yourself up about your weight! I know what you mean about not announcing diets to people, but trust me, no one is going to judge you or think you're a failure. And anyway, you're not losing weight for everyone else, you're doing it for yourself. So be nice to yourself!

Keep in mind that if you eat a pound of food, you're going to weigh a pound more until it gets, well, processed.  You might do better to throw out the scale and pick up a measuring tape. 

So don't worry about eating too much on days here and there, it won't ruin your overall diet as long as you get back on the wagon the next day.  There's nothing shameful about watching your diet, so don't beat yourself up so much!

Thanks Cosmographer and Opusanna!

I needed some encouragement!  I sure hope it is water weight ... I worked out and watched what I ate ... and then to see the scale ... just got me down!  I did check my measurements ... and some went down and some went up (LOL).  Thanks for the reminder that I am not doing this for everyone else ... I am doing it for myself ... I really do need to get over the shame I feel if I slip up.  I am sure it is all in my head ... but I still feel the shame if I eat even one thing that doesn't look like rabbit food in front of anyone ... I really need to just get over it if I am going to make a lifestyle change!

Thanks for the encouragement ... I really appreciate it!

Gwen