Help - I need to get out of this rut

I'm a recovering bulimic -  on the waiting list to start a 20 week therapy course. However with support of my boyfriend and close friends, I've started to make a go at it myself.

Its been almost a week since I last burged - but I keep binging stilll! I think to myself okay I'll binge and purge this once..so binge..then just when I go to binge like my sense of reason comes back and I remind myselfg no, I don't want to do this. So then I curl up and go to sleep instead - seems the only thing to do then.

But in this week I've gained about 12 pounds already, I've gained 4 inches round my middle and my clothes feel tighter.

I won't even let my boyfriend touch my stomach because its so much fatter than it was. I'm not particularaly overweight but TERRIFIED of getting it. Also I'm going to a party on the 15th April and my dress only JUST fit (before I put on so much weight) so I'm terrified.

:( I don't want to start being sick again but I can't seem to stop this, help me!

If I were you, I would accept the support of my loved ones and still get professional help. It might be the boost you need.

I can't help you much with your bulimia specifically, but I've also struggled with an eating disorder. I know I wouldn't have made it without my doctors and therapist. They've been great.

As for the gain in measurements and weight, you're probably a bit bloated. Plus eating disorders mess with your head.

I'm sorry this is all I can suggest to you, but I hope it helps a bit.

Thanks :)

Don't worry I'm still going to get the professional help, I've realised I have a problem now and its the only negative thing I have in my life right now, so this is the best time I'm gonna have to tackle it.

Ah, that's great. I wish you the best of luck!

Hit the gym and workout if you feel like binging/purging! Also, it'll definately help with the 12lbs you gained even though some of that is just retained water weight from eatin more and probably is just a fluctuation.

Hitting the gym would be awesome except I have 3 stitches in my foot :(

but once I'm better, definatly! Hehe