I think I'm depressed but I don't know who to tell...

I think I am clinically depressed because I just read up on the symptoms and I have been consistently experiencing at least nine of the twelve listed. It said that if five or more symptoms are experienced. I have been much more withdrawn and I am staying home from school today. My dad tried to make me go and actually he still wants me to go in late. However, I feel as though I would rather die than go to school. I haven't been able to eat anything today and I have a splitting headache. I have been crying on and off for about three hours and I didn't sleep much last night.

My dad is at work and my mom is on a trip for work, about a six-hour plane ride away. I talked to her on Tuesday evening but I haven't been able to reach her since then (the area where she is staying has terrible cell service). I considered calling my therepist as I have been kind of falling back into my old anorexic ways over the past two weeks or so (interspersed with binging), in addition to this new depression).

I have never actually felt this way before, so I am at a loss for what to do.

If you have any depression experience or advice, I would appreciate some feedback. Thanks.

call your therepist,  they need to know thats what they are there for,  my last theapist was an idiot, i hope yours is good,  i dont know what to say except for one thing you dont want to hear

get out of bed and go for a walk, it will boost your app but if your going back to anarexia maybe thats the reason your not eating,

 i feel awful today i canceled all my work , went home and layed in bed,  i am attempting to go out there for a walk,  even if its only 30mins,  i am going to see the Cure tonight and i dont want to be a pain to my boyfriend so i gotta snap myself outta this funk before the concert.
but go outside make yourself and listyen to some up beat music,  take care

Thanks Bobo1. The walk sounds like a good idea. I still feel guilty that I am not going to school. I have not complete a full week of school in almost two months now. I'm starting to feel sick now from not eating. I hate this feeling and I want it to go away! (sorry for the rant). ...I'm definitely going for a walk soon.

ok lets get off the computer togther i gotta go for mine...ahhh here i go i am turning off this evil machine....ahhhhh

It's tempting to stay on, but...... ok.

shorelover, the index of symptoms you looked at is designed for adults.  that doesn't mean that you're not clinically depressed; it just meanst that the tool wasn't made for you.  measuring depression in teenagers is quite difficult, because to some extent, those symptoms are "normal" at your age. 

i hope i don't sound like i'm minimizing what you're going through.  i don't mean to do that.  you should definitely talk to your therapist.  but it sounds to me like you really miss your mom and are kind-of lonely.  getting to school might be just the thing you need.

Bobo1, how was your walk? Thank you sooo much for getting me off the computer. I ended up going to school, and Pgeorgian, you were right, going to school did end up making me feel much better. Also, I am in PMS right now. Does that mean that these depressed symptoms are just normal for "that time of the month"?

shorelover

females have different symptoms and intensities of PMS. I (32 yrs old) have always had PMS pretty bad a few days before my period. Next time you go to the doctor, talk to her/him about it. (hopefully you get regular check ups) Also, being a teenager (which from Pgeorgians comments I gather you are) also comes with a lot of mood swings. Its best to talk to someone about it, can't hurt to call the therapist, right?

WHY DON'T YOU PRAY AND NOT THINK ABOUT THE BAD THINGS....EVERYTHING WILL BE OK....WHEN I'M FILLING DOWN I ALWAYS DO PLAY GAMES ARE TALK TO A FRIEND.  

being awake, off a computer, and outside are the very best things you can do that seem the hardest. Being in the dark and being sedentary kind of feed into each other and make you feel worse. When my friends dragged me the hell out of the house for a few days is when I started to recover from my 9 month episode. And hey, it's going to be spring soon. A whole new summer, who knows what this one will be like?

Also staying as social as mentally possible can keep you from delving into self loathing and concentrating on the negative parts. Exercise, sunlight, company and eating plenty of spinach or chocolate can help wonders! (contains mood-boosters)

hopefully this isn't as serious as it can be. the best thing you can do is not think about it, get up, and take charge! it is the most mature and strengthening thing I think you can do, and an admirable trait at that. Heck, you are so responsible for asking for help when you are worried about yourself that you are probably mentally strong enough to get out of the hole before it was ever even finished being dug.

Congratulations! YOURe ALIVE 

hope i could help 

Shorelover: Pat yourself on the back for recognizing your symptoms. Many, many people suffer from depression at one time or another in theirs lives. It's true that your age may be a factor. I have found that one of the best things you can do is step outside of your own problems and find someone else to help. I don't know why this works but sometimes it just does. You know yourself best... get help when you need it, one day you will be able to help someone else understand and maybe get help for depression. Keep in mind you can overcome this and one day you will with the help of others and the good sense that you already seem to have.