I'm scared of gaining too much.

I am currently 5'4, about 100 lbs., up from my lowest point of 96 lbs. I know that I should focus on being healthy, but I am really worried that if I start eating normally again I will go back to my weight pre-E.D. (125) I really want to be healthy, but I am terrified that I will not be able to stop gaining weight. I also have a problem with feeling guilt about eating unless I am asked. Like I know I should be eating snacks along with my meals, but unless someone tells me to eat I feel bad about it afterwards. Could someone please just give me some ideas about what to do about this? Thanks!
(By the way, I see a nutritionist and doctor, and I am currently in the search for a therapist)

I, too, am 5'4" and my lowest ED weight was 103. What you should do is add your calories back into your diet slowly. Your body will adjust better to the number of calories you're eating daily if you add about 50 calories/day per week. Then your body won't be all, "OMG! FOOD!" and store it all. And you can be healthy, don't worry about that. Even though one never truly recovers from an ED, now that I'm past that stage in my life I realize that I look my best at about 120. Plus, you can eat more of the healthy food. :D Example: I love carrots. Adore them. They have few calories and it's easy to add more into your diet. Good luck, dear.

you want to be healthy right?

well what if i told you that being 100 pounds at your weight is NOT healthy and you are going to be healthier when your heavier.

my lowest weight was close to 92 pounds and im 5 foot 5.

I gained back 30 pounds, and now im toned, healthy, musclar, and very very very fit. Being skinny, scrawny and weak Is not healthy. I relise this now, because i simply know i feel better internally than i did when i was that thin. Trust me, please, dont fear gaining weight. You will see that it will pay in the end,

I know exactly what you're talking about. I'm 5'3 and at about 101. My lowest was 97 when I realized that I couldn't possibly be doing my body any good. And just like you I only ate when I was told to or food was put in front of me, never touched food other than that. I'm now starting to eat one snack a day, be it an apple or banana. Soon I'm going to try and add in another snack so that way I can eventually get to a healthy weight and some of my muscle back. Just hang in there, and just know that everything in moderation is okay; that's what took me the hardest part to realize.