I'm an under-eater

Okay, so i used to be a HUGE over eater. I would eat junk all day long and not give a shit about any of it. Looking back i must have been on 3000 cals a day, i just didnt care or even give it second thought. Then i went through a real bad patch of depression about the way i look.

I thought "Why sit here crying about it? I've got to do something" So i have!

And i've lost quite a lot of weight (visually and i can just feel it - i don't own scales!plus many people have noticed)

But, now im an under-eater. Recently, i feel extreamly 'bad' if i go over 1000 cals a day. I eat 2 meals a day, and if i want to treat myself i'll have a piece of fruit for lunch.

And i can't face eating anything more. Its so strange.

Is this bad?

I think it's good that you're eating better, and fruit CAN be a treat.

But eating under 1000 calories is probably not healthy. The general consensus is women shouldn't be eating less than 1200 or so without a doctor's OK.

I know its good im eating better things and less things! It makes me feel happy!! =D

My basic wondering is: Is eating 2 meals a day simply going to make me put weight on for some obscure reason?

I am more concerned with the thinking behind it...this sounds like the start of an ED that needs to be taken care of NOW

I would go talk with a professional about it. 

if you have an obsession that makes you always under eat, this can lead to some bad eating disorders.  The fact that you have flagged it as an issue and you are asking the question is a great sign.

But it does not sound healthy

It is really hard for me to get in the 1400 cal.  a day.  In the afternoon and evening not even hungry.  Right now I have less than 1000 for the day.

*sigh*

I understand, but, yeah, it is. 1000 cals a day simply isn't enough to live and be healthy, and that's before you factor in any activity, so if you exercise, it's even worse that you are eating so little.

Trust me, I understand - I have lost lots of weight this year, and feel "bad" sometimes if I over-indulge. But in reality, food isn't "bad" or "good" - it's fuel to make our bodies go.

I think you know that this behavior has dangerous potential. Talk to someone about how you feel, preferably, a professional: nutritionist, therapist, doctor, nurse. Tying value ("bad" "good" whatever) to how much/little you eat isn't healthy, and it has very little to do with your physical self, and most to do with your mental well-being.

Be strong, take care of yourself - which means proper nutrition and working through whatever emotional ties you have to eating (or not eating).

Calorie Count is full of support. We are here too, if you need us. Get better, you know you can.

I wouldn't jump to the conclusion that's an ED, kae03. Not without more proof. :)

It is, however, probably not healthy.

katydait, I suggest you read this link :/

any time someone says "i feel extreamly 'bad' if i go over 1000 cals a day " alarm bells should go off.  I would rather over react then under react in a case like this.  This should be taken seriously and not excused as normal...it isn't.

I think you have gone from one extreme to the other, and under-eating can be as hard on your health as overeating.  You should never go under 1200 calories a day if you want your body to get all the nutrition it needs to be strong and healthy.  You really need to make a concerted effort to find a happy medium ground between overeating and under eating.  If eating makes you feel bad, try looking at it differently.  Feed your body good healthy food.  One shouldn?t feel guilty about eating healthy food that the body needs to survive.  Add some whole grains and nuts to your diet.  They are very healthful, and will help you get your calories up into a healthier range.  It?s hard to feel guilty about eating a nice slice of whole grain bread, or a handful of almonds.  If even such healthy foods as these make you feel guilty, then you should consider talking to a doctor about it, and/or joining a support group.  Feeling guilty about eating a proper amount of healthy foods to fuel your body can be a major warning sign of a developing eating disorder.  You can start by working on your attitude about food on your own, but please remember there are groups and doctors who can help you with this if you need it.  No one has to struggle alone!

I understand, but it's rather insensitive to assume everyone who isn't healthy has an ED. :)

Hence, let's stick to facts :)

I know but am just not hungry.  I have an autoimmune disease(Sjorgren's syndrome) which after 3 months of lung illness has developed into asthma.  I can't do as much as I used to at the gym because it is hard for me to breath.  I am getting a nebulizer next week and have an inhaler so hopefully that will help.  But after working 11 hours the rest of this week I will be to tired to do anything but drive home.  I really do try to get all the calories.  I am only 10 lbs from goal.

yup same with me i would eat anything and not give a shit and i would eat alot of it! (thankfully i never actualy got fat, but just a bit pudgy) but then as you did i went to other extreme and starting eating only about 1200-1700 calories a day (starving the life out of myself). I was on the edge of an ED plus it negitivly contributed to my already depression. now I eat about 2500-3000 healthy calories to try and gain back the weight (only this time in the form of muscle). PLZ PLZ PLZ dont eat less than 1200. actualy this amount is still proably too low (was way too low for me). I would advise talking to a doctor, or even a nutritionist or someone. Theyll steer you the right way.

Yes, but mentally its very hard for me to eat more than i am now. Its just doesnt fit.

And its not 100% focused on the fact that i feel bad about adding extra calories. Its also about the strive of being 'good', and getting that happyness.

I thought i just had a lot of dieting willpower.

Katydalt I feel like you do.

Wonderful, someone else!

Its just doesnt add up in my head. How can more calories help me o lose this weight?

Plus, i sure as hell dont look like ive got an ED.

It may not make sense, but trust me, Katy. It's true! :)

Read that article I pointed you to :) It's true! :)

Me either but I use to.  Bullimia.  Got down to 128 and looked terrible.  If your daddy tells you that you better pay attention.  But the thought are always a battle.  Right now I weigh 155 at 5'3" and 41 years old.

I did read that article.

And as much as it sounds like i need like an extra apple a day, my head just wont put up with it.

Then maybe you need someone to help you with the head stuff. What about talking to your parents and telling them what's going on with you?

Plus, i sure as hell dont look like ive got an ED.

not to be another "omg u have an ed!" person, but u can totally have an ed without being underweight.  anorexia's weight criteria excludes many people w/ serious issues.  they are known as ed-nos (eating disorder not-otherwise specified).  just fyi.