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Hi! Im 5'7 and currently weigh 130 lbs, I'm in recovery from an eating disorder and am up from 108. I'm trying to up my calories to 1800 and work out a bit more. I do Bikram yoga once a week, 30 minute aerobic workout videos every other day and strength train 2-3 times per week. My body is finally starting to feel a bit better-I'm warm and no longer blue. Unfortunately my mind is freaking out. I feel like a stuffed wale and my thighs and butt are seriously growing. Could this be water weight? It seems to have come on out of the blue. I really want to be able to maintain the weight im at and not gain much more yet still get my required nutrition. Perhaps I need to go up a bit before my body and metabolism can regulate. I'm sick of obsessing. I wish I could just find the perfect solution.
i too struggled with eating disorders, although it didnt get too extreme, it stuck with me for 3 years and i was continually worried about my weight and what i ate. if i felt that i ate to much, i headed to the toilet. the lowest i weighed, at 5'9", was 119. i though that i felt beautiful but my b/f said i looked disgusting! i was miserable. i didnt know what to do. now i am at a steady 130. i currently got out of my bad eating habits and am trying to eat normally.
i see where your coming from, when i eat above my set calorie goal or even on it, i feel like im going to gain weight! but i think its all in our heads. the scale stays the same and so do my clothes. especially with you working out as much as you do its probably muscle. and if you drink alot of water it will definately retain. i drink like a gallon a day! and at the end of the day i feel a lil bloated because of it!
i think no matter what everyone gets a little self concsious, but dont let it take over your life again! your beautiful!
Yea same for me bonnie21.. I too still struggle with an eating disorder.. though now its mostly in my head, cuz now i don't really make myself go to the toilet anymore.. i am obsessed with my caloric intake.. When i was bulimic, which i still consider myself that, i would only eat one thing in the morning so i would at least have something in my stomach, and then anything else i would in the day i would get "rid" of. Now i keep making sure i have at least less than 1,300 calories a day or less than 1,000 calories.. depending.. When i was making myself sick i would only probably have 200 calories in a day. I am 5ft 2in with a small body frame and at my lowest weight i was 110-115 pounds. I am 20 years old and i started when i was 19 october of 2007. Now i weigh 125 and i want to lose the weight.. I had ended up in the hospital and such. I was forced to eat more.. Now i struggle with not going to the toilet each and everytime i eat.. and my boyfriend constantly tells me i am beautiful and sexy to him and that he loves me the way i am.. And i understand that even though you know someone thinks that about you, it still doesn't matter cuz you don't feel the same way about yourself. It takes time to accept your body and learn to think your beautiful. Believe me..but vicvic26 just remember that because your body was starved and such your body was in starvation mode, and now anyfood that you eat will basically get stored as fat more because your body was fighting harder and harder to get nutrition out of whatever you ate. And now that your eating better, your body may gain more.. but soon your body will regulate and you will get back to where you need to be.. as long as you keep doing what you need to do and be healthy about it.. It takes time hun.. just don't over do your exercising ok. Goodluck girl
same thing here. if you feel that your butt/thighs are growing, they might be. but you're body is just going back to normal. it may seem like eating will lead to weight gain, but it only happens in the beginning. once youre body adjusts and your metabolism is back on track, youll start to stay steady. also, 130 for 5'9 is still really skinny, so even if u may think ur getting fat or something, its just because ur not used to seeing urself normal. i dunno. hope i helped a little. <3
this is for all of you - I have recently joined this site, and (thank goodness) do not suffer from any eating disorders - I am 5'7 and 115 lbs. I have felt like a skeleton most of my life and am desperate to get to 130 - tell me what you guys are eating to get to that point!!! I am in need of curves!
Also I decided I should post here as I seem to have a lot in common with you guys, except for the eating disorder part. I do have poor eating habits though - I tend to forget to eat when I have something stressful going on - which is most of the time. Living with a boyfriend and a dog and going to school and work at 24 can be a bit much sometimes!!
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