Inspiration to banish ED!!

I know that there are a lot of post on EDs here on CC. I was thinking that maybe everyone could just write a little blob about what inspires them to get over this nasty mental disorder.

I know that everyone in recovery is trying to get healthy and focus on a better lifestyle, but what keeps you going each and every day telling yourself that you can over come this?

If we all post something that inspires us here (quote-story-etc.) maybe it will help each day that we check the site, bc I know that I look forward to hearing things that will help me recover.

Who wants to go first?

"i want to grow, i want to be better,

you grow, we all grow, we're made to grow,

we either evolve or dissappear"

x

I'm nto too sure what motivates me, but I know what keeps me from slipping back into anorexia. I was reading a website and it basicly just asked what you felt like while starving yourself and reminded me that NO ONE is happy starving themselves. NO ONE. Were you happy?

I guess I do kind of have a motivation, my friends. I've always been a social person and during having anorexia I was incredibly unsocial. It's hard to hear people still say that to me, how I was. I never want to be in seclusion again, ever.


I probebly didn't help much, but it kinds of makes sense to me. haha, sometimes my thoughts don't always come out right (:

I'm nto too sure what motivates me, but I know what keeps me from slipping back into anorexia. I was reading a website and it basicly just asked what you felt like while starving yourself and reminded me that NO ONE is happy starving themselves. NO ONE. Were you happy?

I guess I do kind of have a motivation, my friends. I've always been a social person and during having anorexia I was incredibly unsocial. It's hard to hear people still say that to me, how I was. I never want to be in seclusion again, ever.


I probebly didn't help much, but it kinds of makes sense to me. haha, sometimes my thoughts don't always come out right (:

-i looked better when i was healthy.

-i can't be perfect if i'm dead.

-i can't be perfect if i'm sick.

-i'm only a burden if a sick, only a vegetable.

-mmm... vegetables. and other foods. i missed those. if you weren't supposed to enjoy food, G-d would have made BREAD and WATER.

-i don't have a future if i'm sick: no period (KIDS!!!), sub-superior brain functioning, no energy.

in a nut: PASS ME THE NUTS :)

-my health is important to me
- i want to live long enough to see the oil crisis come to a head (although that's probably going to happen soon, so maybe i'll change it to 'to see world peace' or something equally almost unattainable no matter how much i hope for it)
-i'm no fun to hang out with if i won't GO OUT
- we're human, we've earned the right to eat and enjoy it
- i want to kick back with a pint and not worry about 'the effect it will have on my metabolism' or some b/s
- i'm not nearly good enough at math to keep counting everything so obsessively for long
-healthy fun chicks are sexy! and FUN!

jessinca - math is not my forte, either. HAH.

I had tried recovering once or twice, but I guess I didn't really care enough to.

But when my parents threatened that if I didn't gain weight that I wouldn't be able to apply to college, I got my butt eating, and haven't slipped from recovery yet (a month and 4 days now :D). I hope to study nutrition in college. Also, not to be corny, but talking with other people who have suffered through an ED and helping them as they've helped me, makes me want to consider doing it as a career. Like a nutritionist for eating disorders.

Also, I used to be very polite and would never lose my temper. I find that since I started my ED, the irritability has brought out the worst in me. So not only am I less happy, but I even effect the people I love.

And, in the end, I like food. Missed it quite a bit. During my ED, I wouldn't eat pasta or any kind of 'meal' items. I remember I wouldn't even eat higher calorie healthy foods, like bananas or corn - yeesh! But now I enjoy whole wheat pasta nearly everyday, and above all, peanut butter. Dear lord, how I missed it. :)

I want to actually have a life, not only in a literal sense, but I want to have a social life.

I want to walk into a room and not feel the need to run because of what people will inevitably say to me.

I want to live to see 25,26,27... I want to live until I'm elderly.

I want to graduate from college and start a career.

I want to wake up and not rush towards the scales...

 I will recover, maybe not today or tomorrow, but I will and I can take a small comfort in knowing that one day my life will be mine again.

it's funny you posted this thread lol today i was researching exactly for things that can inspire people who are suffering from ED to keep up motivation for reaching a healthy goal day after day.

This is what came up! (I also posted this on the ED Recovery Post thread....but I guess it can come in handy here as well :))

 besides this stuff though, one of my inspirations since a very beginning was getting my period back...to me it matters so much to secure my future making sure I was gonna be able to bare a child....also another thing was looking at different things like documentaries, pictures, long-term effects....its like...god no! please...I gotta end this now that I can...now that its only been 2 months since I started this ordeal....I want my life back!

 

here's what I found :P

 

 http://eatingdisorders.suite101.com/article.c fm/eating_disordered_recovery 

http://eating-disorder-recovery.suite101.com/ article.cfm/creativity_in_recovery

http://body-image.suite101.com/article.cfm/cr eative_exercises

annnddddd....

inspirational quotes! :

"The body is the instrument of the soul."

-Gary Zukav

"And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom."

- Anaïs Nin

"If you asked me what I came into this world to do, I will tell you. I CAME TO LIVE OUT LOUD."

- Emile Zola

"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, "I will try again tomorrow.""

- Anonymous

"If health were our real concern, it would be dieting we question, not weight."

- Sally Tisdale

"The purpose of life, after all, is to live it, to taste experience to the utmost, to reach out eagerly and without fear for newer and richer experience."

- Eleanor Roosevelt

"And the trouble is, if you don't risk anything, you risk even more."

- Erica Jong

"When I'm pushing myself, testing myself, that's when I'm happiest. That's when the rewards are greatest."

- Sissy Spacek

"I finally figured out the only reason to be alive is to enjoy it."

- Rita Mae Brown

"It is time for every one of us to roll up our sleeves and put ourselves at the top of our commitment list."

- Marian Wright Edelman

"Go within everyday and find the inner strength so that the world will not blow your candle out."

- Katherine Dunham

"When you love your body, you are most able to share its pleasures with those who light your heart."

- Huitaco

"Life itself is the proper binge."

- Julia Child

 

:)

Wow...this is such a great thread.  You all have such awesome things to say; thank you SO much, and good luck!

The biggest thing for me is knowing that if I continue this into adulthood I know it will affect my (future) kids.  I don't want my kids to grow up being depressed and worrying about if they're "fat" or not.  && kids have enough to worry about without their mother having bulimia.  I'm trying.  But it's really hard at times.  Plus I know it's costly.  The food, the health problems that result, the medications, the visits to the therapist and the psychiatrist.  I don't want my family to struggle financially because I'm being selfish and not trying to change.

 I still feel like I'm failing.

For me one of my motivations is seeing all my friends starting their second year at university and I'm stuck at home again because I'm too ill. I'm hoping to get well enough to go next year and move away from home! I see all my friends meeting new people and having the time of their lives and I'd love to have that so much.

I'm miserable, irritable and unsociable when I'm restricting my food intake. I've lost contact with so many friends, because of anorexia. On top of that, it hurts, your body is in physical pain from the starvation. I remember lying in bed, with my chest in agony because I was undernourished and I was unable to get comfortable because my bones were sticking out. Its just not worth it.

I can't do ordinary things like go shopping, (no clothes fit me), go out to eat with friends (afraid of not knowing the calories in restaurant food), and even go socialising, because I think everyone is looking at me and thinking how fat and ugly I am. If I want to do these things I have to get rid of the illness.

I want a life where I'm not constantly calculating my calories for the day, planning every morsel of food that passes my lips and freaking out when somebody takes my food, which messes up my plan for the week. I want to choose what I eat freely, and not worry if I have a bit extra one day, because I know that in the course of the week it will all balance out.

And most importantly, I don't want the permanent damage to my body. I want kids one day, but I haven't had a period in two years, and the day they come back I will be so happy, because I'll know then that I'm well on the way to getting better. There's a lady my mother knows who has suffered from anorexia for 30 years and in a few weeks she has to go into hospital to have some of her fingers removed because of poor circulation caused by her eating disorder. It is just so sad because she will probably never get better, its been too long and I don't think the help was available for her when she was younger, but we have help and support around us and we have time to put everything right before it gets that far.

Good luck to everybody who's recovering, WE CAN DO THIS!!