Inspire me.

Hi. My name is Randibeth. Im almost 23. 5'6" and am not supposed to be this heavy dammit. Here is the story of why I am motivated to lose the bulge.

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OMFG!! So last Friday evening my aunt and I take a trip to walmart. We like to shop alone so we always split up til checkout time. Anyways.... as we're unloading our items into her car she shows me this new digital scale she just bought to help us get motivated to lose weight. Im thinking *nice, we havent had scales in the house in a while* but also im thinking *and i know i have grown at least 2 jeans sizes in juniors since the last time i knew how much i weighed*. [[****]]  So we go home, she sets the scale up in the bathroom, and Im dreading stepping on it for the first time. Then as I was drawing my night-time bath I glanced over at it with horror and decided I didnt wanna take that first step yet. I take my bath, relaxing with lavendar salt in the hot water, hop out, towel off then get ready for bed.... then it dawns on me, if i keep procrastinating ill never lose any weight, and ill just continue to gain it. So i step onto it and I was mortified when the digital readout said 192.8 pounds. I HAD TO MAKE A CHANGE. I weighed between 140 and 145 when I moved to Florida right before new years......... I have casually gained almost 50 pounds. I thought, my poor boyfriend. He must really love me for me and not my body cause this is bad. I gained 50 pouds in the 9.5 months we have been together. So now I am cutting out liquid calories as much as possible, but will not totally deprive myself all the time cause i know Ill just end up craving a mt dew and ill have to start over again. No more white bread. Starting on a strict protein enriched eggs only breakfast every morning to help boost my metabolism and energy levels throughout the day. Eat very very light at lunch. Fruit snacks or raw veggies. And on the weekends I will allow myself one night eating out with my man for my reward for not eating junk all week.

I have battled with unhealthy rapid weight loss and gain since I first got clean from crystal meth when I was 17. I have relapsed 6 or so times since then, this being my longest stint ever. 1 year and 4 months  speed free. So I am used to getting drugged up and losing 60 pounds in 6 months, and also used to getting clean and ballooning within a season. Hopefully this will be the last time I have to pick up the pieces of my life, and fix my body image for good.

Well thats my story.
Inspire me..

Sure thing Colorkiddie,

This morning I finally hit the 25 lbs lost mark. Started trying to lose weight almost to the day two months ago (August 21st) and it is nice to be at this point so far. I started for the same reason you are with just looking at pictures of me and my girlfriend from when we started dating over a year ago and I had casually put on approximately 50 lbs while at medical school. I started at 257 and I am trying to reach 200 so I still have a long way to go but this site will help you. I have used it through two different diet regimens and to make you mentally think about what you are putting into your body and be honest to yourself with approximate nutrition facts is a huge advantage. Once you make it through that first two weeks of always feeling hungry because your body is just used to eating and not because you need it, I promise it gets easier. Just don't make my mistake of doing all this work and reaching your goal and then getting lazy and gain it all back. Good luck and have a great day.