Introduce Myself

Hello,

I started this last week and I have not been back since. I guess I am not truly serious about losing weight.

I am 45 years old, female, mother of 4 and grandma of 3! I have been married 29 years to the man I meet 32 years ago. I blame my weight gain on HIM.

There is so much mental and emotional crap that I would not dare to burden anyone or even try to explain, so I will leave it at that. I blame HIM.

5 years ago I was a size 7, today I am a size 14. I don't even weigh myself, what for, the size is enough to let me know.

I want to be my normal size again, but then again I feel so much rebellion and resentment and have an attitude of I really am tired and don't want to care anymore that it keeps me where I am at. I am not happy being a size 14, but I can't find the motivation. I have so much going on that is really negative in my life.

I am sorry this is not a great introduction but I am being real and maybe someone might be able to shed some light on my attitude towards my weight.

I live in Orange County (yes, that over publicized, over glamorized place), CA.

Sometimes a bit embarrassed that I do live here because the people have become so phony. But I am a bit more north then the beautiful people of O.C. That puts me in a different category.

hey maruiz, i'm relatively new as well. i joined 11/07 and have only lost a couple of pounds. i do, however come to the site almost everyday and i do input my info--cals eaten, exercising, etc. it's a little frustrating that i've only lost 2 lbs, but i contribute it to something i'm not doing right or on a consistent basis.

i rarely post on the board, i basically do a search on the site and check out what's been going on, finding answers to my questions, but i feel inclined to reply to you.

 i'm 37, mother of 3 and i live in CA too---san berdo county. incidentally, i blame my weight gain on my husband too

but about the frustation thing---you are by no means alone. it happens. the best advice i can give you is to take one step at a time. if you fall off, get back on and don't be hard on yourself and try to gather all the knowledge you can regarding eating healthy, exercising in your target heart rate(to get the full benefit of working out.etc..---there's so much, but the beautiful thing is, it can be done.

i began embarking on my weight lost journey in 2005. i started off walking 30 min/day/3x week and slowly changing my eating habits, like cut back my sugar intake, very RARELY do i drink sodas anymore, included whole wheat and fiber into my diet, limit junk food---just making those few changes you will find a difference in inches and a few pounds! since then, i've only lost about 11lbs--about 20 more to go--but it makes a difference.

i'm here to encourage you and answer if i can--take care