I've never posted in this forum before. I'm Bulimic

... but I don't think any of the other threads are appropriate for what I want to say and this one said "whatever's on your mind" so I guess this is it.

I'm Bulimic.

There I said it. I tried recovery twice before, and failed. For some reason at about 3:30pm today I decided to try again. I just... my whole life is spinning out of control because of this eating disorder when I "adopted" it to deal with chaos in the first place (supposedly its my coping mechanism) but now that things are supposed to go smoothly, they keep scrwing up because of my Bulimia.

Namely it's my school work, I'm in my final year of highschool and my school work is suffering because of my problem. I'm scared of failing and never going to University and never becoming a journalist and never ever realising my dreams because I can't stop obsessing over the number on the scale and how much food goes in and out of my mouth. (sorry for the visual)

I just wanted to share that with whoever might be reading (anyone?) and even though you might not care, I just needed to express my desire to become somewhat normal.

People here will care but we aren't professionals. you might want to seek professional help. It is nothing to be ashamed of but it would be better to deal with it now then waiting and loosing alot of good years. You are young and you can beat it.

as said above I think its best to find out from a doctor how to go about controlling this behaviour, none of us are qualified in giving advice in this area we can be their for you if you need to talk but in reality you need doc care. Im sure their are other bulimics on here that discuss this openly on the forum you should really search around and find other ppl with this same problem who better to give advice but from someone who has been there, good luck.

Hello and welcome

People do care, and you have taken the first step and admitted you have a problem, want to fix it and need help. For that alone welldone.

You will get some great advice from people on this site but as said above we are not professionals, consult your doctor, I imagine he will help you with a diet programme of some kind. Let us know how you get on. There are people on here that are also recovering from different eating habits ( lets say ) and you will find support. But please consult your doctor.

Best of luck x

There are several threads on the Health and Support forum that might help you.  Look for the ED recovery threads, which are very active, and also look back through the other posts.

I hope you'll find the information you need to help you recover from this illness.

Honestly, trying to recover on my own is the hardest thing ever for me. I really reccommend seeking out help from a doctor to make sure you are all right physically and working with a therapist to sort out the issues behind the binging and purging. You really have to want recovery though or it will be hard to be successful.

Hey there,

I am glad you posted something- you know what I think is awesome is that you recognize that it is a problem and you want it to stop.  It is so much better to be in your position now than to have someone force you to get help.  Do you have someone you can ask for help so that you can get to a doctor.  Do your parents know that you are going through this?  So sorry that you are dealing with this- hope you find help soon.  Try asking your parents, a teacher you trust, friends or a friends parent if you dont feel like you can talk to your own.  Let us know how you are doing...

Hi,

God, that could have been me writing that. I'm a bit, maybe half way recovered. Today I had a totall relapse though:(. I also have that great fear of failing and not going to University. And my school work IS really not going well because of my problems. I'm seriously in risk of not passing school...

Don't know how your school works, but I talked to the therapist in my school last year, and she explained my situation to some teachers (not that I'm bumic! but that I was having serious problems at home witch made it hard for me to focus on school) so that they would not like, get mad at me if I had forgot a book or did a bad test. Well, dont know if this works in schools in USA.

I'm really tired now, feels like I'm rambling:p Oh well, feel free to write to me.

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I care

thank you all for your replies, its a little overdue but I'm glad I have some support

I'm doing better-ish. Though restricing a lot more than I should, it stop me from freaking out.

:)

We now have access to an Eating Disorder Specialist from About.com

http://caloriecount.about.com/cc/article/eati ngdisorders_guide.html

Have a look through his articles.  It may provided you with some information.

Good Luck.

me too - to everything you said.   bulimic. tried to recover and failed (but i only tried once), senior year of high school, scared to death that i am going to ruin my future opportunities, im actually scared to go to college just cause of the fact that i dont trust myself and i dont know if i can handle myself on my own.  i just want to be normal again too... but the scariest thing is that i am getting to use to bulimia that it feels like not a big deal, like just a part of life.  do you ever get that feeling?

Hi there,
Well this is my first day on this sight and I saw your posting...I have been bulimic for 20 years......I have tried everything...hospital stay, talking therapy, anti-depressants...I believe at this point that I will always be bulimic.  I have it under "control" compared to the past but it is a daily struggle.  I am MUCH better with antidepressants but sadly I can't seem to totally stop.  I have heard others have been able to but for me I throw up at least once a day.

I am thinking that if I had some one over the internet to talk with when I'm feeling like I should throw up it might help me even more.....

I remain frustrated that I can't completely stop.