i've had a rough day..

hugs please?

i know typing '*hugs*' won't make things better but it'll make me feel like some people do care.

(((HUGGS))) put today behind you.  It is over now.

oh, me!! ::waves hand wildly:: i care :)

 

hang in there girl, recovery is tough but were all doing it together. i had a very good day food-wise so i want everyone to feel good. and even virtual hugs help

::hugsss::

my eating today was pretty bad.

but that's not even what made my day rough...

thanks guys.

*BIG HUGE BEAR HUG!!!!*

what made it so bad? if you dont mind my asking

-HUGS-

I hope you feel better, we all have those off days and those dismal days.  But just know that people care, and tommorrow is a new day.  You can get through it.

i have depression, but the meds don't sem to be working so i woke up this morning already feeling depressed and a tad suicidal.

and then my bestfriend was ignoring me at school which put me in a worse mood.

and then i came home and ate icecream. a LOT of icecream, and then a bunch of other stuff. and then i felt sick, and i didn't purge like i used to so i felt bad about all the calories.

and then (and please don't freak, it's MY choice and i'm most likely never gonna do it again) i took an ecstasy tablet to try to 'happy up' and my bestfriend and i started a heavy fight when it kicked in so i've been on a BAD trip. and when you're on a bad trip on ecstasy you get depressed and suicidal, which added to my previous depression and suicidal thoughts.

and then i was just feeling overwhelmed and broke up with my boyfriend without even thinking, and he was so hurt he doesn't even wanna be my friend.

and then this guy i thought actually liked me turned out to just be after sex. and then he was like "last time i saw you, you had the nicest ass" and that as back in like september when i was at my lowest weight (107) so i began to remember my afternoon binge and feel even fatter and feel so bad that i let myself gain 20ish pounds.

and now i'm just sitting here feeling sad. but it's all my fault really; and don't worry, i'm not going to commit suicide. i've already tried once,a nd it caused me nothing but trouble. plus, i never want to hurt my mom like that again.

im a just a lil confused though. if you have a bf why would it matter what that guy thought?

Do not let anyone else's comment get to you like that.  You are strong and you can get through this.  Your main goal is to be as healthy as you can get, so no more purging, o'kay?

Tomorrow you start over.  Tonight you make a plan for tomorrow to be better than today was.  You can do this.

the guy that was only looking for sex wasn't my boyfriend, he was just some other guy that was always saying how much he liked me. and then when he found out i was single; he showed his true colors.

it doesn't matter what he, or anybody thinks, really. i feel bad that i gained weight.

spoiled_candy: i'll never purge again. there have been so many times where i've had the cash and have been in a drugstore, but i pass by the exlax everytime. i never want to abuse myself like that again. and i hate throwing up.

youll lose the weight. this time healthily &you wont gain it back! just keep telling yourself that.

everything will be okay

*BIG HUGE BEAR HUG AGAIN!!!*

i'm sure everything'll get better eventually; i just can't but feel sad, upset with myself and hopeless.

and the fact that i have depression anyways, am overly tired, am/was on a bad ecstasy trip, and take prozac that decided not to work today; probably makes the aituation seem even drearier.

i have been battling depression for years too. it isnt easy and couple that with the ED...ugh!

 

hang in there. youve had a very tough day. take a nice long bath maybe and just try and wipe it all away...feel better

 

hugs again :)

Aww, honey! *hugs* You weren't kidding when you said you had a rough day. You're so brave. It's really geat that you've managed to stop purging. I'm trying to break that habit now and it is so so hard. 

Careful with the drugs. I've never done anything other than alcohol, but I've heard they can really mess with you. Especially if you're feeling depressed, it's not a good idea to do something that potentially could make it worse. 

I hope tomorrow is better for you. Message me any time you need some words of encouragement; it seems like we have quite a bit in common. And I owe you a favor for being so nice to me and answering my questions yesterday. ^_^

I know exactly what you're saying here erica! Depression sucks, but when you add ED and just a general bad social day into the mix, whoa. Watch out. And I've never had a bad ecstasy trip, since I've only ever taken it when partying, but I've smoked the ganja when already depressed and that's the worst decision ever. Want a way to instantly compound everything that's going wrong and make yourself feel about 10000000 times worse? Smoke up when you're depressed. One-way ticket to hell. Anyway, I hope today is better for you! I'm not going to tell you not to take drugs, but remember: there are many kinds of self-destruction. ED is one. Drugs are another. Suicide is (to the extreme) another. Watch out for all of those, because in the end, even those each of them may make you feel okay for the moment, or may even seem like a temporary solution to your problems, they're only going to make it worse in the long run. Hang in there! 

 

oh yeah, I was s'posed to give you this *hugz* 

I hope today is going better for you.

**Hugs**

*hugs* Feel better, chica.

And, no judgment here, I've done it, too - but careful with the E -- turns out if you take meds that eff with your serotonin, (I do as well, Cymbalta in my case) you can OD/screw yourself up bad -- so just, use sparingly.

Hope all the love here has cheered you up a bit!

thanks guys.

today was no better. i lost my boyfriend, and my bestfriend.

but i guess i have some good news; i'm not doing e ever again.

find the strength inside you and draw on it in times like these. you are a beautiful strong person and you can do it. you've been through a lot you can handle this.