I know it's stupid, but I just want to be coddled

I'm just having one of those days where I think, "Why the hell didn't I start this sooner? What the hell is wrong with me?"

I mean, even if I had started this in Janurary, last year, year before, hell, the begining of high school, this would of been so less painful, but I've wasted 18 years of my life this way and I'm like, "Pfft, whats another 28 years? My "best years" are gone. Never coming back. Vanished. Were wasted away while my head was shoved in a McDonald's bag. And what do I have to show for it? Huge gut, thighs, and a miserable life. x_x

I just want to see that finish line so bad that it seems absolutly impossible. I just want to finish this and say "I did it, I can live my life." I just can't waste any more time...

You know, I think that all the time. I always wonder why I just emptily complained about being "fat" my whole high school life (I'm almost a senior now) instead of doing something about it and eating better and exercising more. And I did think that I would be overweight the rest of my life and I used that as my excuse the whole time, but I realized that I was knocking at Obesity's door when I decided to start losing weight.

But hey, I'm actually glad I decided to do something about it at all, and even better that I decided to do something while I was young. And I can't wait til I see that finish line either. I think losing the weight I collected over the past 17 years of my existence will be the biggest accomplishment of my entire life.

Don't worry, you'll see that finish line. :D

*coddles*

Sorry you are having such a hard time!

Don't beat yourself up, though!  Consider how many people spend many more years putting off making a change than you have.  Besides, your "best years" are definitely not past you - if you ask me, people just say those kinds of things to young people to make sure they develop some ambition.  I definitely wouldn't say that my teens (or high school generally) were my best years, although I certainly learned a lot from them.  At 26, I've already had better years than HS, and the best may still be yet to come!

Anyway, I know first-hand how much it sucks to be overweight in high school, but I can assure you that your best years haven't escaped you and things don't just get worse from here.  You are still young, and will be for quite some time (I don't really look or feel much older now than when I was 18... I just get to rent cars and drink legally now!), so just take advantage. 

No matter how old or young you are, though, you are right that it is silly to waste any more time.  So, take your frustration and turn it into motivation -- you CAN do it!!

ahhhh, the angst of youth.    Like to say I miss it....

well, okay, I miss some parts of it, but really, not most.

Look, high school sucks for everyone (particularly when looked back on -- it's a very confusing time filled with peer pressure and people who you'll probably never want to see again despite the fact that you wanted their approval at the time), rather skinny, fat, short, tall.... it just doesn't matter.  Even if it looked like they had it all together.

And your best years are most definitely ahead of you.  The 20s are a blast, and so far the 30s are super in that I feel more in control of me, more centered and at peace with the universe.  In my 40s my kids will be entering new stages of their lives, which will throw my hubby and I into a new stage too -- which I'm kind of looking forward to the one-on-one there again too.  And by the time I reach 80, I plan to be a wild old gramma that says what's on her mind and does what she wants when she wants (not that I don't now, people just accept it better from older peeps ;-) 

I think one of my favorite quotes in the world is:

"Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, cigarette in one hand, martini in the other, body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and screaming "GD what a ride!!" 

(CC doesn't like the GD word so you get to decipher)

And I have no idea who the originator of that is or I would give credit where it is due.  Just don't forget to have your fresh veges with your cigarette and martini  (and I'm not advocating drinking or smoking in anyway, just the general philosophy)

So weight is just weight, but it does not define who or what you are.  You're going to have many ups and downs as you go through this life, but you have all the good times in the world looking you right in the face, just daring you to grab them.

You can't change the past but you can define the future, both on your scale and in your life.  But have fun with the JOURNEY, not just the destination.  It's the journeys that make us who we are.  (and if you're like some of us... oh, let's say like me or something... the weight loss journey may take a couple times for it to stick LOLOL)

I'm not so good with coddles I think.  So I'll just tell you to get out there and live your life the way you are NOW as you work on making you the person you will be.  And send you a hug

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I wasted 23 years. It doesn't matter what's in the past, it matters what you do going forward. Think about college, your 20s - there are a million reasons to keep going. I know it doesn't seem like it now - but high school is just a small chapter.

Oh my, I hear you on this one.  Its a tough place to be for those of us who are prone to the pessamistic thinking.  I completely understand where you are coming from.  My advice is to have your moment (but don't get too worked up about it, thats never good), then remind yourself that 18 is definitly not all that late to start being healthier and losing weight.  I still have days like this, and I'm 22 and maintaining a 90lbs weight loss for about 6 months now.  There are times when I look at old photos and have the creeping thoughts of "Why didnt I realize I was so big?" or "why did I wait so long to do something about it?" but the thing is, we *are* still young, we haven't waited that long!  There's so much ahead of us, hopefully much more than is already behind us, and now that we can look forward to enjoying it even more with a higher standard of living because we took the initiative to get healthy! 

Not being negative about any of the older CC members, but take a look at some of the threads from older folks here, and see how much more difficult it is for them due to their age; slowing metabolisms and life long habits and such.  Or, take a look at the calorie calculator with your stats, but older, and you can see it how it drops as you age.  These are a great reminder to how lucky we are to start this now and build healthy habits while still in our teens/early 20s.

If the best years of life happen before 18, then the rest of us are screwed!

Wow, so the best years of my life are more than 30 years behind me?  Guess I should just pack it in now lol!  Seriously, I think that high school sucks for most people, unless you happen to be one of the "beautiful people," and even then it probably has it's times when it sucks as well.  I don't know who in their right mind ever decided that high school's the best years of your life.  I personally try to enjoy every period of my life and now that the kids are grown, hubby and I are really enjoying life.  I know that it's easier to make lifestyle changes while you're young, but they are possible for those of us who are older as well.  Just keep plugging away and you'll get there.

Thank you all very much. I needed to hear(read) that. <3

it's not wasted but i sometimes feel exactly like you do. i remember when my dad used to tell me that "these (my teenage) years were the best of  my life". i remember thinking.."really, i should just end it now then, lol". pfft!

 the older you get the more you get to know yourself and what it is that makes you happy (or doesn't). just concentrate on the now. im trying to take my own advice too. its a journey about self discovery (& the world around you). you should be glad that you have realised that your head in a mc'd's

LOL... the "best years of your life"

I really think parents have the verbage messed up when they say that.  Being, ahem, older, now I actually understand what is meant by that phrase when said.  So shall I enlighten you?

Of course I shall. 

It's not that the teen years are as good as it gets in life!  It's that the teen years are when you finally have some of the freedoms of adulthood with few responsibilities.  Your parents still pay for your room and board, your food, wash your laundry (or at least buy the laundry soap), you always have that safety net at home to fall back on while going out and stretching your wings to find out who you're going to be (at least you should and for some of you out there, I truly hope you do).  If you do get/have a job, you get to spend that money on YOU.  Trust me, you get older, there's always someone standing there with a paw out wanting their fair share (the electric co., gas co., water co., mortgage, KIDS, etc.)

And if the teen years weren't so full of emotional/hormonal turmoil as you're going through them, that phrase could easily be changed to "this is the easiest time of your life!"  Lord knows I wish my mom would come in and cook my dinners, pay my bills, and wash my laundry now   She always refuses when I ask though...

So enjoy your teens, appreciate what they have to give.  They're not going to be easy, and they're definitely not going to be the best.  But they are what will help to form who you will eventually become.  You have the rest of your life to be an adult.... and this phase just never stops.