9lbs away from 100 xx and ashamed?

Since I started dieting on new years (yes I actually stuck to my resolution lol!) I've lost 91lbs (149 now), so that puts me only 9lbs away from losing 100 pounds WOW  :)

I know I'm really happy but for some reason I'm kind of....in a way, embarrassed about my weight loss. I know there are some people that want everyone to know about their success, but for some reason I don't want anybody to know. like, if someone in my family brings it up, I kind of take it in as an insult. I know in my mind that they're proud of me, but it makes me upset that I was fat in the first place... :(    I really dont know why I feel this way. please tell me im not the only one like this?

i haven't experiences this with regards to weight but it seems kinda like the most improved award...no one wants it because it's saying that they were somehow bad before...even though they are no longer that person/athlete/weight there is still some sort of embarrassment about it. just try to see past that and accept the new you, the only you. you arent your weight and you aren't who you were so be proud and happy of your success.

You're probably ashamed from the depression that a starvation diet has caused you. Undereating can severely alter your moods. I was a total depressed bitch when I was undereating, and since I've upped my diet to 1800 cals I am a totally different person. You should really try to go into recovery.

I can understand that.  You want to only think of yourself as (and be seen by others as) the person you are today, and not in comparison to how you used to be.  Nothing wrong with that.  I think a big part of weight loss or any lifestyle change is letting go of the person you were before, the habits you had before, etc.  It's kind of a packaged deal.   So by extension, I think it's only natural to want to concentrate on the present, not dwell on the past.

There's also nothing unnatural about being embarrassed at the person you used to be.  As chrissy said, you just have to accept that and move past it.  Once others have seen you at this weight long enough, they'll let go of it too, and I'll bet they stop comparing.

You used to be fat.    That's a fact and you can either square up to it, deal with it and accept it as part of your history, or you can pretend you weren't fat and hope everyone else forgets about it as well (unlikely).  If people are saying how good you look now take it on face-value as a compliment ... say 'thank you' and change the subject.

As time wears on, as people get used to the new you and as you meet people who never knew you when you were fat then you'll find it all fades away.  And don't be surprised if you miss the attention!

Original Post by dereno:

Since I started dieting on new years (yes I actually stuck to my resolution lol!) I've lost 91lbs (149 now), so that puts me only 9lbs away from losing 100 pounds WOW  :)

I know I'm really happy but for some reason I'm kind of....in a way, embarrassed about my weight loss. I know there are some people that want everyone to know about their success, but for some reason I don't want anybody to know. like, if someone in my family brings it up, I kind of take it in as an insult. I know in my mind that they're proud of me, but it makes me upset that I was fat in the first place... :(    I really dont know why I feel this way. please tell me im not the only one like this?

I totally know how you feel.

People have been telling me I look great and that I am doing a good job on my weight loss. (-29lbs in 3 months, I still have about 60lbs to go)
And rather than feeling better about myself, I get embarrassed and sheepishly say Thanks and hope they drop the subject.

I mean, even the barista at the local Starbucks complimented me on my weight loss.

LOL thanks for the replies guys! yeah I guess I'm just going to have to accept that it was apart of my history., but I am very glad I'm not the only one who feels this way and I'm not such a weirdo after all lmao :D