little things

so guys we are here to gain weight for whatever the reasons , what keeps you motivated in doing this ?

for me

I want a life !

I want to enjoy things without worrying about food

I want to go on hoilday in good health

I want to visit the us and have tea with bethany , and de tour on the way back and drop in on meryl

I want children

I want to repair my bones

I want a bust :)

I want to feel incontrol of food which although i think i am im not when so underweight    just thinking of these things keeps me going

I have a few pairs of pants I miss

I wanted my triglycerides to be normal

I wanted a healthy diet so that I would nto have heartburn anymore

I want less stress on my knees

I want to wear a bikini in public again

I want to live long

I want to feel like the hottest chick in the room

..and I am only 10-15 lbs away now :) :) :)

I want a bust :)

 hehe me to! And hey what about me, come have some tea with me to!

Id love to be able to go into a shop and wear the nice clothes I see because they actually fit

Be able to go out for a meal without feeling scared or the need to cut back

To be able to relax and sit down and watch a movie

Have a social life and start going out again

Be able to go places without the worries of food/health

To finally meet someone and one day get married

Overall to just be free to live my life as me and not how my ed says I should

to right lol id take you with me h xx

I love everyones replies. i am struggling to recover and gain but I have joined eda and aba phone support. I am 5'4" and 84 pounds. At 39 I look awful and miss my figure. I want to just live again. Tessa I watch your posts all the time and you inspire me. I have done this for 26 years and my body is retailiating now.I have quit taking diet pills and cut back my diuretics. I am trying to add different foods slowly and sometimes it is overwhelming.

I want more of a bust

I want to go back to dancing

I want to wear dresses and show off my legs

I want to be warm

As far as-going on holidays, going out, being sociable etc...

Once i gain, those things are possible, but I think an important lesson for us all is-WE have to go and get these things, we are only in a physical place to do them, but we have to GO AND DO THEM!. Its the same with beating an ed, once you are in a better place with food, it doesnt mean all of a sudden your life will be dramatically different, we have to go out and MAKE them different (thats part of overall recovery!)xx

To be back at that point where food is not the most important part of life. It shouldn't be so powerful over my emotions! Who said food could dictate how I feel huh? How rude.

Re-build my social life. As of now - there is none. Literally, I have ZERO friends who make plans with me. I have friends at uni, and that I txt every now and then, but none of them actually want to hang around me. I don't blame them, I doubt anyone would want to be around me when I'm being a negative nancy so often!

To be able to wear a bikini at the beach in January (Summer time here). Honestly, if I wore one now, I hate to imagine the looks people would give me. I know if I saw someone looking like me I would be thinking they needed some serious help if they really thought they looked good. (I don't think I look good, but other people may think I feel that way, which is embarrassing).

To be able to go out to the movies with my mumma and have popcorn, or to pick up takeout every so often like its no big deal. Normal, every day stuff that should not be scary in any way. Because it IS no big deal.

Oh yeah and to be able to buy food that I FEEL like, just food that I WANT. No racing thoughts of "calories, nutritional value, fat, sugars, sodium, blah blah BLAH'. If I want a freakin chocolate chip muffin, I want to be able to eat the freakin chocolate chip muffin. If I want two servings of pasta, why can't I just have two servings of pasta? Answer: I can.

Lastly, I want to move away from knowing 'serving sizes' and calorie contents. Nobody else my age knows (or cares) about this kind of thing. It's very constricting and suffocating having that knowledge in the back of my mind when I eat. I wish there was a button I could push to just get rid of that info. But hopefully over time I will just forget.

P.s. Whoa drivenlass - we posted at EXACTLY the same time!!

Not to steal anybody's thunder here, but I'm serious, I WAS GOING TO START A THREAD LIKE THIS!!! I dont know about you, but I needto SEE my goals, and see that they are acheivable. Hearing all of you say that helps so much too. I just get depressed and discouraged about my life...feeling like I never will have anything/anyone, or be anyone of worth, etc. I CAN and WILL do these things!! I KNOW IT!!! THANKS:D:D:D:D

NUMBER ONE!! RIDE HORSES AGAIN!! I miss horses so much it breaks my heart........i cant really ride much right now.....too strenuous.

Be able to go to school ON CAMPUS (taking online courses now)

like many of you........get a social life!! i have but ONE friend that has remained with me throughout this life, she's da bomb though:) 

Have somebody think I am pretty

not get so cold

be able to eat WHAT I WANT, not eat because i HAVE to eat this, or CANT eat that!

GO BACK TO WORK!!!! WOW......who knew i would miss my beloved job so much?

go to Cali on a road trip!!!!!

eat without being TORTURED by ED

 oh yes!!! and one of my biggest!!! to summit Mt. Baker!!!! I have a summit trip scheduled for next July, and I need to be able to train for that baby!!

Awesome thread!

For me...

I want to wear clothes that actually fit properly, and NOT hang loose.

I want to have more energy to do things I love such as hiking, rock climbing, running track.

I want to gain confidence in the way that I look.

I want to not always feels so cold.

Everyone has pretty much covered my reasons.

Others for me:

I want to fit my bridesmaid dress and be able to eat the dinner when my cousin marries.

I want to walk past a bakery and buy something not just drool.

I want to eat a meal and then not think about food until the next meal.

I want to fall in love.

I want to eat christmas dinner and join in with everyone :)

Original Post by emmabrody:

I want to walk past a bakery and buy something not just drool.

 Priceless Emma!  Me too!  I couldn't have said it better myself:P

I second all the 'being warm's!

I want to get married and be there for my husband.  I want to complete him, be everything he needs, which I could never do if I'm consumed with what I'm eating/ not eating, what my body looks like, etc.  And I have a feeling I'll be more beautiful to him when I don't care about those things.

I long to have children, to hear little ones call me 'mommy'.  How can I nurture and care for them with all my heart if I can't even do that for myself?  I've told myself so many countless times, "My future children deserve a 'whole' mommy."

I want to be a testimony of what the amazing grace of our Saviour can do!  I want others to see my life and be filled with hope, and realize that freedom is their's for the accepting, too.

Well what prevents me from relapsing...kind of off topic but i hope it can inspire all of you...

1. when i hear you guys say things like "i inspire you" and you look to me and view me as a positive example of someone who has recovered nicely...in the aesthetic department

2. getting oogled from passersby :)

3. not getting questioned by my friends and family about eating

4. being able to eat ice cream without worrying

5. having the energy to spin and run!!

6. having breasts and a butt...feeling like a woman again

7. feeling hot when others are hot...the feeling of being alive and not like death has overcome me

8. being able to order a salad if i want without other people thinking that it's systain an emaciated body

9. being able to wear shorts again because my legs aren't like twigs

10. having nails that grow again!!

11. being able to share my story with other people and help them to recover!!

Anyhow...thanks for this thread...I need to check in with myself every now and again to make sure I'm still on the right path!!

everyones posts are so inspiring xx

Newbie here. Not sure if this is the right place to post but here goes:

First of all, it's so great to see things like weight gain forums and info around when you go looking because there's just SO much about people having to lose weight these days, makes you feel a bit weird about gaining...

I'm about 5'2'' and a half, 105lb (160cm, 47-8kg) which I know isn't quite 'underweight' according to most sites i look at, so again it makes me feel like i don't really need to gain but i still feel like it would help me a bit - I think i lost about 4kg last year during a bout of depression; very inactive, eating 1 meal a day plus a few snacks, getting dizzy, collapsing occasionally. not anymore but for me it's mainly about eating more and feeling better in general so i won't be so tired, get cold easily, dizzy sometimes, things like that. plus I like to donate blood which i was suspended from last year, i'm allowed to again but i can't do any plasma or platelet donations which are in demand because i'm under 50kg and i'd like to be able to do that. My idea is to get up to about 52kg and see how it goes but of course there are all these concerns.... I've always liked being naturally thin and often get comments about it, plus i'm also naturally not a big eater, i can survive on very little but of course it's not that healthy. So eating more and gaining kind of goes against all my habits and things. 4 days into my 'diet' basically trying to eat much more and I really do find it hard to pack more into my day, makes me feel full just thinking about how much more i should be eating. With all the fuss about people being overweight I'd hate to gain too much or not be able to fit into my clothes instead of nicely filling them out a bit more, things like that. :)

little things..

i think my husband made a wish at his birthday party that i'd get bigger boobs.  i checked that week and i went up a cup size. hey hey!