It's been so long...

Hey guys,

It has been so long since I've dieted, at least a month or so. I'm 210 atm, I  was 222 when I started so I'm still down from my top weight. However, I got down to 203 which was good, but now I'm up again.

I fell off the waggon a month back and it seems to be getting further and further away from me. I can't seem to start again, it's just not there for me anymore...

I keep reminding myself that at least its only 7 pounds back on, I could have put on a lot more, I could have slipped up a lot worse but it still seems impossible to me that I will ever lose any of this weight.

There are people all around me saying "Yeah, I know what you mean" but they are like only 1 stone above their target weight or even less in most cases so they don't know what its like at all! they are healthy and thin... I see everyone complaining and it makes me sad because I know if I was there I wouldn't be complaining about it.

I know its different for everyone, and everyone has their own image of what is right for them, but even if I was bigger than them I'd be happy, I just want to be healthy!!!

I've been so ill lately and I know, in part, that is due to a crappy diet and poor nutrition. so I'm trying to make myself get motivated to lose the weight, even to just start trying a little bit again. but I can't seem to.

With the holidays coming up this just seems all the more difficult...

Guess I am just reaching out for some words of comfort/wisdom/inspiration from all you wonderful people out there!!

Keep at it! Ypu've still made significant progress from your starting weight and you should be proud of that. The great thing about falling off the wagon is that you can get back on!

Message me if you want to keep in touch. :)

Thanks Bree thats really nice of you!!!

I've been trying to get back on the wagon recently, and I am really trying to be good. lol.

I have drank beer though, which isn't good... so I daren't weigh myself just yet. lol.

Thanks for your kind words!!

xxx