Looking for other ideals

Hello I am trying to find a way out of my cycle. I  do really good for a while, mediate, go to counciling  start exersizing, eating ok. Then life hits. I end p doing all the work in the household, or alot of it any ways. I end up being the only one that seems to be capable of picking anything up. My roommates all pull out their ( and my favorite foods) Chocolate, chips pop. i have asked that meals ( we all eat together to show the kids better habits or that was the ideal and to save money) anyways I asked that the be at least healthier. Include a vegetable . ( yes  i had to fight for there to be a vegetable  with the meals) that we use sansel instead of salt or atleast let me take my portion before the extra are added. Like butter and cream cheese. they do ok for a  day or two ( sometimes less) ten I have to fight with them again about it.  I try to explain that i am depressed and that I need support to get better. What do I get, usually ignored. called lazy ( ya cause i am the one on the computes for more hen 8 hours a day) Or told to just don't be, what in your life do you have to be depressed about? I am caught into my fiance and his mothers battles. She is trans gender mom doesn't like it actually she out right hates it. I am pagan and so is my fiance and that is just wrong as well. then i eat my feelings.  I need other outlets. any suggestions

You need to be around people who support you.  If you can't get that from the people you care about most, then there is something wrong with your home dynammic.  You may not be able to change that, but you should at least be able to find friends that will support you.

Anyone who tells you not to be depressed (as if it were that simple), and asks what you have to be depressed about has no idea what true depression really is.  Depression is not grounded in real life.  It is often chemical, and you don't need a reason to be depressed.  I'm sure you know, it can also be quite debillitating.  The fact that they don't understand where you are coming from means they are not going to be able to help you.  Seek assistance from someone who does understand - preferrably a professional.

You friends can ignore your requests about what you want to eat (it doesn't make them very good friends, but they can do it), but they shouldn't ignore what you want to feed your kids.  You should put your foot down there.  If you don't want your kids (or yourself) eating garbage, you might have break off on your own and cook your own meals.  It's not an ideal situation, but whenever my friends head to Taco Bell, what do you think I do?  I make my own food.

It sounds to me like you have a toxic home environment that is enabling you in some very negative ways.  It is virtually impossible to overcome depression or obesity when you are surrounded by so many negative influences.  I understand that you may not be able to change your sitation, but you can take a good hard look at it.  There may be small things that you can change for the better, or you may just realize that your "friends" are holding you back, and you don't need them around...  It's a hard decision, but sometimes it's the best.

--J