I have lost it again....

the determination to keep going, this happens all the time with my diet plans. I go strong for a bit start doing well then bam! I get  tired of keeping track, planning, exercising. Life is hard and with everything else I have to do, I do not want to make eating a hard time. my nutrisystem food used to taste good, now it tastes nasty. I try for a day to get going again but it does not last.

I vowed to myself not to put gains on here so I left the site alone for the last few weeks. If I don't post I don't have to think about another failure. I can handle so many issues but when it comes to my weight loss I fall hard each and everytime. Why?

I know eating healthy and getting fit is good for me, will maybe stop the little pains I have.. so why do I always stop. I am beginning to think I may not want to be thin, but I like going shopping for smaller clothes, the abundance to choose from. now ther is little to choose for nice clothes. But here I am again loosing my motivation and will to keep eating healthy.

I guess coming here to vent will help, seeing the line on my graph, looking at my goals again. I can raise 4 kids alone, one just went to college, nurse a child back from being hit by a car, 2 smaller ones that are so full of energy and need guidance and focus and I am there to give it to them. So why can't I get myself to do the right thing?

Sorry for the long post, guess there is a little part still holding onto getting this right.

Thanks for reading.

Debbie

Don't worry hang in there.  I used to be a all or nothing dieter.  It never worked and I would yoyo something fierce.  I just learned to takes things as they come and don't freak out about slip-ups.  It took several years of yoyo BS to figure out how to treat my body proper.  Gains are going to happen.  They happen to everyone for any number of reasons.  Set it aside and keep going.  You can do this. 

Your kids need you so, in part, do it for them.  They are going to want their mom around for a good long time. 

I felt that way sometimes in the beginning of my weight loss. I am a college freshman and I would see all my peers eating huge, cheesy pizzas and binge drinking every weekend, and I would get mad. I would think ' why am I doing this? all these other kids get to eat whatever they want, do whatever they want, and they seem to be care free.' Then I looked at their bodies and a lot of them weren't in shape, they weren't want I wanted to be or look like.

I started  losing weight because I was sick of avoiding mirrors, hating my body, or using clothes as a means to cover up my unsightly muffin top. EW. Of course there is the usual do it for your kids, health etc. Do you know why you would want to be thinner? That is the key, a reason for it, otherwise there is no point...

Finally, I think a bit of me wanted to come back from my first year at college and be the girl that lost 20-25 pounds instead of gaining like many of my friends. I wanted to be that cute tiny skinny girl...which I am now 5'0, 100 pounds. And I got to tell you. I really do feel better and don't avoid mirrors and I am proud to show off my toned legs!!

Seriously, post your gains.  I know it sucks, but it makes it harder to ignore your less healthy days.

Thanks for the feed back everyone. It is difficult to keep going but I don't want to stop. I guess just tired of everything, I put on a shirt this morning and I can see the small differance, the shirt is a bit looser, pants too. I don't want to put them on again in another week and they are tight again. This will be my most difficult task, and reading the posts on this website and what you guys have said, it makes me realize we are all  fighting the same battle. Our reasons for loosing my be different but our feelings, frustrations and loosing motivation are quite similar.

Thanks for being there and good luck to you all. :)

I will have to update my journal, I did not post for the last couple weeks. 

{{{putting on my work boots to start this trek again}}}}}

Have a nice weekend,

Deb

That's because you are thinking fat thoughts. You need to program your mind diferently. Repeat to yourself that you are thin and that you can eat anythng and stay thin. After a while you will see yourself differently and I garantee you that you will reach your ideal wieght. Also look for a foto of the body you want' keep it next to your mirror and imagine thats how you look and start feeling that your body looks like, in a couple of months it will.

Getting back on track is tough for me too. After Easter it took me almost a week to get back to my healthy eating habits. Each day I would do well until the afternoon/evening. The only way I can keep myself motivated is to keep feeling good about starting each day right and knowing that one of these days if I keep doing what I'm doing the cookies just won't be as tempting and I'll be off to the races again. I find that as long as I give myself permission to start over everyday without guilt I am faster to get back on track. In my strong moments I plan ahead and make healthy meals for my lunches and dinner and have them there waiting so it's automatic.  You will get back on track, it's only been a couple weeks and your gains aren't really that much in the grand scheme of things.