for the love of god, someone help me

I...can't...DO this!!! I do so well, for like 2 weeks. I lose weight, feel healthy...and then, something happens. I eat something horrible one night because someone makes dinner. Instead of getting back on the horse the next day, it turns into a slippery slope, my friends! One that I never return to! The next day I figure as long as I screwed up, miiiight as well eat a bunch of horrible crap to "get it out of my system" the only problem is this happens one day, then the next, then the next, etc.! I'm "getting it out of my system" for weeks at a time! I have a serious issue! I gained all my weight back and can't regain control. Seriously, I am out of control.

For the past week or so, I've wanted to get back on track so bad but can't. A few days ago I "accidentally" dropped a towel on my scale and let me tell ya, I haven't moved it- its like blindfolding the thing so it can't judge me! I avoid caloriecount.com on m y favorites list like its the plague and why? Because I am so out of control that seeing it depresses me and reminds me of how bad I've been. I'm trying to lose "the healthy way" but for some reason I always pop back to my binging ways. Its like I can't teach myself to just be healthy. I don't know what to do anymore except try like hell to get back on track in the morning. Can anyone give me a verbal slap in the face? Why am I so addicted to food?!

I think once you get through tat initial 3rd week things get easier. I'm the same way, start eating and don't stop eating the bad stuff. But if I really am firm with myself, and just say "no way" I'm not eating that I can stick with it.

There's something about eating crappy that makes you want to eat more crap. I think of myself as a foodaholic, I really can't just have a small bit and control myself :/

sorry, kelz, you won't get any slaps from me.  i will give you a tough question, though: do you really think you're addicted to food, or is there some reason you're afraid to lose the weight?  because obviously you know what you need to do.

I could have written this post myself.  I have done the same thing over and over and felt the same way over and over.  I think our problem is not accepting that we messed up and just get back on track, not the next day but the next meal.  The next bite.  I sometimes think I punish myself if I slip up by abusing myself with food.  I have abused myself to the highest weight I have ever been and if I keep this up I will end up killing myself with food.  It is an addiction and addictions are hard to stop but we can do it.  One day at a time.  One meal at a time.  One bite at a time.

Good luck.

I'm really tryin. Today's a new day. The first day is SO hard though..there's nothing more I want than to walk into that kitchen and go to town. 

 Well don't! You started this and I know you can finish it.  Yesterday I wanted nothing more than something big and greasy so I posted it and the wonderful people here gave me words of encouragement and it made me feel a little bit better.  I have the stress of a move and a grumpy husband and lazy kids lol  but I'm not going to let that be an excuse.  I started this and if I'm ever going to feel better I've got to do something.  I'm tired of breathing heavy when I walk to the car or through the store.  I'm tired of not finding cute clothes that don't cost an arm and a leg (lane bryant etc).  It has to start somewhere and here is just as good a place as any.  And best part about it, there are other people here in the same boat, leaning on one another, giving advice and encouragement. I think it's fantastic.  So best of luck to you, and get back on that wagon.  *hugs*

Hang in there kelz80. You can do this. I think so many of us go through the same thing you are going through and we know how tough it is. When I get like that, craving something I know I shouldn't have, it is almost unbearable. And if what I crave is actually in my own kitchen, I become fixated on it.  I end up playing a mind game with myself. 

 Six years ago I quit smoking cold turkey. The only way I could do it, was to ride out the cravings. I would tell myself that if I could just go one more hour without one, then if I still wanted one, I could have one. Well, I would immediately set a timer. By the time one hour had passed, I would be focused on something else and the craving would be gone. I figured I would try to do this with my food cravings and amazingly it works for me. When I hear the alarm go off, I reevaluate how I am feeling and it surprises me everytime to know I'm okay and don't feel that intense desire for that food.

Now mind you, when I first started this two weeks ago, it didn't seem like it would work. I mean the cravings felt like they were taking over my mind and it was like I want it, I want it now and to %$#@ with all the rest.

So just hang in there, don't give up and know that CC and all of your friends are here for you doing the good and bad times!

Daisy

the first day is hard, absolutely.  but it's only one day.  you can get through it!  do you have a project?  come up with something productive to do today that will take up you time and attention.  plan your meals so you don't get too hungry and have something to look forward to.  you're gonna be fine....

Hi!

Take babysteps.If you cant do everything .Try making just one change a wk or month.Drink 8 to 10 glasses of water.Eat 4-5 fruits and veg servings.etc.

There are many challenges going on which teach the same thing change 1 thing at a time.Its tough sometimes with all the things going on.And remember do the 90/10 plan.If u are good 90% of time then allow yourself 1 cheat.So, if you had a bad tuesday then that is your cheat day and wed start again.I know its tough but I try to motivate myself by reading  the posts or some fitness articles.

And its okay if you dont want to look at the scale say for a month just try a pant which you cant fit in or measure yourself.And again with your goals.Dont aim so high that its not acheivable.Try to loose just 10% at first or exercise 3 days/wk.

Hope that helps.

You poor thing ... I know what you are saying I was doing the same thing and it is realy hard to break that cycle... But here is what I did .... If I over indulged I would write down what I eat and then I would forgive my self and get right back on the wagon and even if it is in the same day... Dont kick your self in the butt.... Just get back on track...And dont let guilt run your life... Good luck