How do I make myself want to do this???

AAAARGH!! I am really struggling at the moment to motivate myself to do this (i.e.weight gain!). I know I need to, at 5ft 6 and 86 pounds with no periods for almost 2 years I am certainly not healthy, it just doesn't seem to cut any ice. I'm not hungry enough to eat more, and I am drinking 2 ensure plus a day ( heaven knows how I am doing that even!). I find myself constantly cutting down elsewhere. ( Managing about 1400 cals, not gaining though as of yet, but so scared of tomorrow for when I weigh myself)

I guess I know I have to do this or I wouldn't be writing this, although it might just be to get my Mum off my back as she won't leave me alone until I put on some weight!! Aargh, this shouldn't be so difficult but I just really dont want to do it............

Any help?

i thought this was a joke a not funny one how can you be healthy at that weight ?

Okokok, so I KNOW I should say that your motivation should come thinking about your health, and your family, etc. The "true" recovery reasons.

But truthfully... when I started feeling super fat at like 110 pounds and knew I had to gain more... thinking about my hair was really helpful in motivating me to eat even when I wasn't hungry. It sounds stupid, and reaaally vain, but wouldn't it be nice to have long shiny healthy thick hair again?

Somehow, a tablespoon of olive oil isn't quite as scary as the prospect of going bald... you know? ;)

Good point evolution, when I struggle as well I think of similar things having nice hair and skin again and also I feel vain for saying to but being able to wear nice clothes again, these all really help to motivate me.

You've reached 96lbs and your 5"6, Im about 5"2.5 and my goal weight is higher than that, really I know you feel you might be healthy but that does still seem pretty low.

yep, "vanity" reasons work for me, too. no reason to feel bad about that! i like my hair now, thanks to a much better diet, but i'm still not at my weight goal. now when i'm struggling with feeling "fat," i look at my shoulders, not my stomach. my shoulders have a much harder time disguising their bone-iness than my stomach does. lol. 

Sorry if I offended anyone...I wasn't suggesting I am fully recovered or completely healthy but just that my quality of life is way better, I have my emotions under control and am much more relaxed around eating, social occasions etc. At the moment I am not ready to gain anymore but maybe in the future I will want to. My highest weight was only ever 100lbish so I've always been slim anyway.

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Sorry if I offended anyone...I wasn't suggesting I am fully recovered or completely healthy but just that my quality of life is way better, I have my emotions under control and am much more relaxed around eating, social occasions etc. At the moment I am not ready to gain anymore but maybe in the future I will want to. My highest weight was only ever 100lbish so I've always been slim anyway.

What you weighed prior to anorexia is not always a good indication of a healthy weight for your body post-anorexia. Our bodies and bones do not fully stop growing until we are in our twenties, even if we've stopped getting taller. Developing stronger bones and muscles and filling out a little can be frightening, but it's part of the process of becoming a woman.

While 100lbs might have been healthy for you a few years ago, it's likely you need to weigh a lot more than that now to truly be at a healthy weight.

I'm sure you already know this, but remember that the longer you remain underweight the higher your chances are of developing osteoporosis, arthritis, infertility and other chronic conditions. My advice to you would be to get the weight gain out of the way now rather than let it drag on - you're risking too much right now.

meryl is life im living proof of that . remember it is the ed telling you you should be at a low weight . do you really want the bones of a 90 year old ? worring about moving incase you break something just think about it , it will happen i kept saying my weight was ok blar de blar and ive lost 14 years and that hurts h x