Maybe one of my problems is I need friends?

I've had a hard time losing weight these past few months. I've made a few posts here and spent a lot of time on the boards, but the thing is, I don't really have anyone to talk to about my weight loss. A difference of when I started losing weight and did really well and have been struggling now is I used to have my mom to talk to (for undisclosed reasons, she doesn't live with us anymore) and most of my friends have eating disorders and are therefore not good to talk to. For example, right now, I'm feeling really bad because I gained five pounds due to being sick and not counting and drinking loads of gatorade, yet don't have anyone to talk to. I've posted on the boards a few times as I said, but I never really used calorie count to talk to anyone.

So, does anyone want to be friends on here? Through pms or maybe a messenger (I use msn)?

I'm 16, currently weigh 150, am five foot three inches. My short term goal is 140, long term 130, I guess.

Manicmuse, I have been using calorie count for some time, but just starting this year I really became more serious.  I don't use pms or messinger, but we can post each other here on cc if you like.  I am quite a bit older than you.  You can read my profile.  No pressure if you are looking for somebody your age. 

It would be interesting to talk though because we have simaler goals.  I am also 5'3" and am aiming for 125 to 135 range (125 is the official goal).   My weight has been all over the place.  When I was in the military out of high school I was being weighed all the time and eventually I developed anorexia.  It was never treated officially or diagnosed officially.  I was running 5 to 10 miles a day and was down to 96lbs with stacks of clothing on.  At that time I worked to get "thin" and then crazily enough I didn't want anyone to notice how thin I was!

All the weight stuff is made more difficult by mood issues.  That's a private story that I prefer not to post to everyone really.

Since then I have gotten over 200lbs (I stopped weighing in at 200) and back down again.  Most of the time I have hung around the 150-170 range.  Its terrible at this weight for my height.  Shopping sucks and sometimes I feel like crying (okay maybe I have once in a while).  Right now I am trying not to shop for cloths because I am making such a concentrated effort to lose weight the right way.  That is eating the right amount of calories and exercising some, but not too much.

Anyway, I am on cc almost every day and I do post replies.  I would be happy to be a buddy to you if you dont mind over 40 and not still in high school.  I am sure you could get some buddys your age if that is something you would prefer.

I know what you mean about not being able to talk to friends, though my friends fit into 3 catagories:

1. Much larger than me, so I don't want to talk about my journey because it would just make them feel bad.

2. Trying to lose weight and failing.  These I've tried to help but I can't be their mom and say put down the cookies and come to the gym with me!  It's just awkward after a while when  I keep dropping and they don't.

3. Don't care / don't think I or anyone needs to lose weight.   I'd just be inviting a lecture if I talked to them...

That's why these forums are so nice!  And if you're looking for a more personal feel with more girls in the teen to twenties age group, I'd suggest LiveJournal.

I really, really appreciate both the replies. I've felt like there was great support to be found here, but I wasn't yet fitting it on whatever.

My friends fit into those categories, too, except also a has an eating disorder and I don't want to trigger it or anything one, too.

I didn't mean to sound so sad, I was just feeling pretty lonely, I suppose.

lewiskimlc, I don't mind people not in high school. That sounds like a crazy though history and I know because I used to be over 200 and go shopping and end up crying and would wish to even be just 170.

Thanks for your replies!

: )

hi! we have really similar stats. i'm 16, 5'5, and 150.
i know what you mean about feeling lonely in your weight loss efforts. a lot of my friends are hard on their bodies (and other peoples) so it's hard for me to talk to them about it. i'd definitely be willing to be your weight loss buddy, if you want =] i have msn messenger as well; the addy is in my profile.

hmmm, bah, friends who needs them.....most people in this capitalist society are too individualist, egocentric and evil,  so i don't really think it's good to have friends in this society, people are too self-absorved into their dumb lives.  What i do is that i rely on the internet for friends.  People around where i live are too angry, apathetic and unfriendly.

Read this poem by Rush about life in this lonely society:

Subdivisions lyrics

Sprawling on the fringes of the city
In geometric order
An insulated border
In between the bright lights
And the far unlit unknown

Growing up it all seems so one-sided
Opinions all provided
The future pre-decided
Detached and subdivided
In the mass production zone
Nowhere is the dreamer or the misfit so alone

[Chorus:]
(Subdivisions)
In the high school halls
In the shopping malls
Conform or be cast out
(Subdivisions)
In the basement bars
In the backs of cars
Be cool or be cast out
Any escape might help to smooth the unattractive truth
But the suburbs have no charms to soothe the restless dreams of youth

Drawn like moths we drift into the city
The timeless old attraction
Cruising for the action
Lit up like a firefly
Just to feel the living night

Some will sell their dreams for small desires
Or lose the race to rats
Get caught in ticking traps
And start to dream of somewhere
To relax their restless flight
Somewhere out of a memory of lighted streets on quiet nights...

manicmuse: I know what u mean really !! I can identify with you totally 100% !! I mean you know how hard it is to walk in the 40 degree cold of the winter days out there, while everybody in this damned society is not into fitness, but into watching TV and driving their big hulking trucks and cars.  I know what you mean.  It seems like the only way to feel good about losing weight is if we were living in Hollywood, or Miami, Florida where there are a lot of celebrities into physical fitness

Well keep the motivation and don't worry about your neighbors and friends, let them keep eating cakes, pizzas and burgers, while they get fat and bloated, but be yourself, and stay away from them, let them succumb to obesity and dumbness