Did my metabolism drop again? D:

My last weigh-in was 8/3. Between 8/3 and 8/13(10 days between weigh ins) I ate 26,588 calories. Going off of my body needing ~1900 cals per day, I figured this would lead to about a 2.2lb weight gain(which is what I've been seeing pretty consistently). Anyway, I gained 4lbs! Which means 14,000 extra cals, and 26,588-14,000=12,588(how many calories weren't excess). 12588/10(number of days)=1,258 per day! I used this method the past few times, and it always came out to 1900-2100 needed/day. 

I don't know if it's water weight or not; the scale has said the same number two days in a row. I've also been sick since Wednesday, but I've been getting enough calories(not enough to gain but at least 2000/day. I know 2500 is needed to gain, but being sick, it was a chore to get this many down). I know the scale is just a number, but I'm finally starting to feel good about this and if my metabolism decided to drop again I'll be really frustrated! =/

Also, maybe my little math isn't a reliable method..but still. Gaining twice what I normally do, eating the same(actually it averaged out to about 300 less than most weeks(unintentially) just doesn't make sense to me. 

I don't mean to speak for everybody, but I do think that part of the reason so many of us have ended up with eating disorders is our tendency to think in black or white: success or failure. Many of us are also perfectionists, and the standards we set for ourselves are always just a little more than we are capable of. Then whenever we think we have 'failed' at something we beat ourselves up because we don't recognise all the hard work that we have done and the progress we have made.

So while I think that it is possible to quit addictions cold turkey, we also need to stop beating ourselves up over not being perfect. None of us can or have recovered overnight. There will always be small slip-ups, destructive thoughts and moments of crisis along the way. The point is it is not really about whether you can quit an addiction overnight so much as whether you have committed yourself to strong, real and lasting recovery and are working towards it.

Now making a strong personal commitment to becoming truly well - and taking actions towards that - is something you can do today.

well said meryl. im a very guilty party on the black and white front. so the point you're making is a very valid one.

Hell yes. Me and my bloody perfectionistic black or whites. ARGH!!!! Meryl. Keep kicking my ass into gear. I feel like fidget is my twin soul in this drama.