Mirror Avoidance Anyone?

First time poster and new to CC. I am enjoying everyone's support and comments so far--they help everyone who reads them. Over the past 3 years I have lost 65 lbs and then put 35 back on. I am now setting a 48lb goal over the next 8 months (by my 30th birthday in fact).  Even when I was at my thinnest (185-5'6) and was working out 7 days a week w/ great muscle tone etc, I still had a massive problem with mirrors.

It's to the point now where my trainer yells at me daily because I refuse to look in the mirror. At the gym, at the mall, window reflections in my office door etc.

I dont' think I am repulsive in any way--even overweight. I would describe myself as plesantly plump work-out chick actually. BUT I cannot seem to kick the mirror avoidance thing.

Anyone else have similar issues or am I completely losing it? I really think that at 155lbs, I would still think I looked fat and not look...

I can completely relate to your mirror avoidance. I find it very awkward to watch myself do something;I feel like I'm being vain or something

I only really look in the mirror when I need to [something in my teeth, do my clothes match].

I can relate to the mirror thing, too.  I used to hate looking at myself in the mirror (especially when I got out of the shower), but now that I've lost a little weight I always catch myself looking.  It's nice to see the changes.  Don't get me wrong, I still notice the cellulite and the stomach fat, etc. but it's not as bad as it was before.  
Also, about a year ago I went to a fitness bootcamp thing.  I thought I was going to be working out like a maniac (and I did) but I also learned a lot about myself.  One thing I learned was that you have to accept yourself as you are before you will be able to make changes.  That doesn't mean that you have to say, "I'm fat and I'm happy to stay that way."  It means that you have to realize where you are right now and accept the fact that your thighs are a little big (or whatever the issue is).  That also means that you might have to suck it up and stand in front of the mirror.  
Anyway, just a thought.  It may be deeper than just not liking to look in the mirror is all I'm saying.  I knew I needed to lose a few pounds but there was something holding me back.  I wasn't accepting myself for who I was at the time.  Once I did that everything fell into place and the weight came right off.  
I also have to agree with your personal trainer that looking in the mirror while you work out helps your form.  I think he/she is doing the right thing by trying to get you to look in the mirror.

Psychosis? She didn't say the people that no one else can see in the mirror are calling her fat...

Make yourself look.  You'll get used to it, and it's a good reality check (I'm not a big fan myself, but no active avoidance anymore).

Gotta run, the gnomes are telling me I need makeup

I'm not suggesting that anyone on the forum has a problem with mirrors to the point that it is a disruptive phobia, but there is such a thing. Eisoptrophobia is defined as "a persistent, abnormal, and unwarranted fear of mirrors or of seeing oneself in a mirror".

If I'm feeling fat, (like the last few days) I won't  look in the mirror when I'm changing.  I just don't like the way my body looks right now. With clothes on it's fine, there are actually things I like about it with clothes on, but naked it's awful.

 I understand the thinking you look fat thing. I don't think it's really about weight. After I lost 95 pounds and was down to 125, I thought I  looked fat. I look at the pictures now, and I see I wasn't, but nobody could tell me diffent then.

 

Hi. I cannot look in a mirror, i can look at my face when i'm putting makeup on in a small mirror, after that especially when im out of the house, there is no way u can catch me looking at myself, i avoid it at all costs, even when out shopping i will never try any clothes on in the fitting rooms, just simply because i'll hav to look in the mirror. I do not have an eating disorder of any sort, actually im built small, i am tall but naturally skinny and i KNOW im not fat. My mum recently had our room decorated and put quite a big mirror on the wall, i actually cried about it for a week, just because i knew i'm gonna catch a glimpse of myself, my mum only shouts and tells me to get a grip but its really hard. Ive learnt a way how to avoid looking into the new mirror so its ok. I cant look through shop windows either, as u can see urself in them, obviously not as clear as a normal mirror though. I actually dont tell friends, and i dont know if theyve noticed, my mum says she thinks its a problem and i am prone to Anxiety, i am just really scared to go to the doctors... i just dont know i cant stand myself in other words....