What is your motivation?

Hello everyone!  I am new here and reading your weight gain plans is the incredibly inspiring.  I have been trying to push myself to recovery for some time now, but have been suffering from an ED for about 8 months.  After reading about the risk of osteoporosis and other problems from not having my period (I haven't had it since about December), I am trying to motivate myself to get onto a plan similar to all of yours.  However, I am wondering what has motivated you guys to be able to achieve these food plans?  You all know how it is--you tell yourself you'll eat more and then you just panic and don't do it.  How did you all get past this?  I want to get better so badly but I'm my own worst enemy.

Thank you so much for your help, and reading your weight gain plans has already helped me immensely.

aww, im so glad youve decided to join us. the support fro my mother has helped extemely, you need some one really close you trust and think is half decent. my cardiologist (because of slowed heart due to anorexia) gave me a speech on 'not fueling my car' and that because i was so deprived of EVERYTHING i neededa variety of things to get my body up and running he said, and i quote "all fat is good fat for you" (hence why mum and i call him mr.all-fat-good-fat :P) i was motivated easily. i started by adding an apple for a snack which has minimal calories and is good for you right? convinced? i turned that into a banana. its important to have full-fat dairy, im serious tastes SOO much better, really helps you enjoy eating if you can savour every taste. and fat natural in foods are good for you (nuts and avacados are tasty, good source of fat and calorie dense, eggs were also recommended to me). reconnect to your food,eat mals you enjoy, askmum to prepare you your fave (or your old fave) slowly increase your portion size. after eating more i have a HUGE apetite, i eat more than my obese (literally) brother. if your anything like i was you control your life with a routine your scared to break, break it! do different fun stress free activities, sit in a different seat, socialise more, but an effort, this actually helped me feel bettr about eating. im 14 and tell myself im sedentary(which mum says im not) so my bmr (minimal food intake) is like 1800 cals, to gained you need another say 500 (different for everyone). during my ED i was obsessed with nurition so this reassured me. just ask yourself don't you ever nt to eat normaly again, enjoy life again, reconnect with food? my GP gave me a sheet, the 'effects of starvation';

food preoccupation, collection of recipes/cookbooks and menus, unusual eating habits, increase consumption of coffee, tea and spices, gum chewing, binge eating, depression, anxiety, anger, lability (instability of mood), psychotic episods, personality changs of psychological tests, social withdrawal decreased concentration, poor judgement, apathy, sleep disurbance, weakness, gastointestinal disturbances, hypersensitivity to noise and light, water retention, hypotermia and feeling cold, pricking/itchy skin, decrease metabolic ate, decresed interest in sex, dry skin, hair loss, lanugo (fine soft hair on face and over body) - i have nearly all of these...

if you havnt got these you may develop them, restricting yourself CONTROLS YOUR LIFE and feeling deprived

i cant remember exacty what triggered me feeling happier in every aspect of life, relaxed, encoraged it quite a bit i'd say. it needs to come from within... how much weight do you need to gain? i need like 20lb, remember you seriously wont gain everything you have lost back, just by eating an extra snack or two, chocolate or not(remember you gain fast initially cause of water weight, not fat, it subsides), you have nothing to loose :P

thank you holbee for what you have just writen, im trying to recover from anorexia, and im finding it so so hard, the thought of eating any more then 800 calories aday scares me stupid, i just keep thinking if i have more then that the weight is just going to pile on so so fast and i will get so fat, you have helped me so much by what you have writen, you have given me new hope, i know i can do this, and a little extra weight is going to be good for me not bad, i will feel so much better, thank you so much you are amazing, well done on ur recovery you sound like you are doing really great.

lucyxxx

aww thanks, your more than welcome, lalabanana saved me, shes great.

it helps to come back and read over that sort of info every now and then to keep you sane and on track, i still even do sometimes.

if your anything like me dont get scared into a relapse when you rapidly gain weight to start with, it's water weight and will subside. before i knew it was only water weight my reasoning was, so what if its fast-its happening, but it scared me heaps. mum hid the scales, its fustrating thats why i think to recover you need to have the physcological stuff sorted out first.

but i eat like 4000cals a day, so im grabbing to alot of water, my body simply isnt used to all this food, lol my eyes/apetite ae bigger than my stomach :P

You may boat and experience stomach pains, so thats why most people gradually eat more, to make it easier on their stomachs. i fight past it and learn my limits, to where it might become bad.

read some of my other posts, you might find more motivation and info.

glad to help GOOD LUCK!

xxx Holly