need some advice/motivation

Anyone else have a problem weight gaining just because u feel gross eating so much more than everyone else.  For some reason it bothers me a lot.  I can't stand hanging out with someone when I know I have eaten like twice as much as them.  Any advice?  Also all the weight seems to go to my stomach.  My arms are still skinny and same as everywhere else.  My testosterone got really low during the ED so when does that get boosted?  When does it distribute.  Oh and I am also not done growing.  I'm 5'11" but I should be much taller.  Will the weight redistribute or something?

i can completely relate to the gross feeling around friends. i feel so abnormal eating constantly when with them all day. i know i need to but..the thing is, teens do actually eat tons - im assured by my friends that they pig out on crisps/pb on toast etc at home. doesnt stop us being self concious though does it!

Sadly, that's your ED talking. I try to make sure that my meals are fairly dense so I don't appear to be eating a lot more when I really am. Are you struggling with knowing the calorie content is higher or just that it looks like you have more on your plate?

When you suffer from an ED and are severly underweight, the weight initially distributes in the abdominal area. Thighs, stomach, hips. It does redistribute. I've actually got some back in my upper arms, which I am very pleased about as I was a lot more twiggish and vile before, so don't fret - it does happen. :x

Growth-wise, I'm not so sure. I'm fully grown (6'1), so I don't have that as an issue for myself, but there might be a few other guys here that haven't finished growing that would know. Testosterone, equally, I'm unsure - I'm a girl, heh. >__< Sorry I can't be more helpful.