I really need HELP, plz I need your advice

I have never had an ED.

I have been using CC for around 4 months, for weight loss. I just created this account as I don't want to post, using my account, in-case my boyfriend sees this post.

I'm 28, I'm 1.67 cm and female.

Over the course of the last 6 months I have lost around 20 kg (45 pounds more or less). I did it healthily eating right, counting calories and working my ass of in the gym. This morning I reached my original goal weight.

I just binged and purged for the first time.

I made peanut butter fudge, brownies with chocolate ganache frosting and s-mores. I ate and then I thought, I'll never be able to work all this off, and I purged.

I am now kind of freaking out. I would really appreciate advice, and some understanding.

I'm finally happy with my body, I have a little bit more to lose (only 2-3 kgs). I don't understand why I would do such an extreme thing. I was planing cooking the sweets for a long time. As a You-Go-Girl for reaching 62 kgs.

I'm worried that to much focus on calorie counting and weight loss brought this on. Please let me repeat I have never done this before, in all truth I don't think I even did it well enough.

It's important to realize it takes 3,500 calories over what you need in a day to gain a pound. you would have to pig out on brownies for two or three days to gain anything from it. maybe its time to stop focusing on the scale for awhile. try just eating your maintenance calories for awhile and not weighing yourself everyday. please remember a one time binge is not the end of the world, and most likely you wont even gain anything from it.

Hi there,

It happened. You did it. It doesn't mean you have nor are going to necessarily develop an ED. Your freaking out about it is a good thing - you know it was not the best thing to do and you regret it - probably equally as much as eating the brownies. We've got similar stats, I'm 29, been on CC for 4 months, lost 13kg and now hovering in the 62s. I think after four months of being so strict and after planning and thinking about cooking up the 'reward' - the brownies became associated with a guilty pleasure and so you felt guilty when you had more than you felt you wanted to and all that pressure made you panic. It probably all got too much for your self control that's been working so hard for you and needed a release. Similar thing's happened to me. I'm not worried about it any more. Think it's probably a sign though that sometimes we may be wound up too tightly and need to start relaxing a little where we can. You've lost 20kg! That's so amazing. Don't worry about tonight. Have a cup of tea and be a little easier on yourself. It's made you feel so miserable it's hardly ever likely to happen again and anyway, you know that's not the answer - you've already discovered that over the past four months. And congratulations to you on achieving your original goal weight!!! This is a special day - and so loaded - no wonder you freaked out. I wish I was at my goal... can't wait to be able to say that I am too! Well done again and please don't worry, you'll be - and you are - Fine.

After some very OCD cleaning of the bathroom (let's not even go into the psychology of that) I have thought it over.

sheriff I think you hit the nail on the head. The brownies, fudge, bla bla bla are considered "guilty pleasures". This was a long awaited day and "rewarding" my self with yummy foods was a really, really B.A.D. idea.

Moral of the story: getting down to "your magic number" is a big deal, it's not a day to be taken lightly, and definitely not a day to celebrate with food.

Also I think the real bad moment was when I started counting the calories of the food I had eaten and got to 2800. If you do eat "naughty foods" just write the day off as a high calorie day. Don't get too caught up in the details.

So...clothes shopping? ahh maybe not, if I don't fit into a size 10 (uk) I'll shoot myself...

Ahhh I have it...shoe shopping MUHAHAHHA, here I come

I am sorry you experienced that. As a 'survivor' of anorexia and bulimia, I can relate. Advice:

Firstly, remember that what you eat in one day really matters nothing in the context of your lifetime. Just move on and make better choices next time. Don't dwell. Forgive yourself.

Second, you need to keep on including treats in your diet so they don't become such a big deal and you don't need to binge on them when you finally allow yourself to eat what you really want.

Finally, you need to worry less about the numbers. No numbers are 'magic numbers' - don't give them power over you that they don't deserve. Similarly, clothing sizes vary so much that fitting into a certain number doesn't mean anything. Remember that weight loss should be about health and creating a fit, healthy, body. Weight loss that is all about numbers is just destructive to your health and self esteem.

Hi Sweetie,

I don’t think this is going to be a problem for you. The fact that you freaked out about it is a good thing, you know it was wrong and will probably not let it happen again.

Like you say in your second post; write it off as a high calorie day, CC does encourage a cheat day a week and this can be yours.

Rewarding with food is never a good idea. You can indulge on occasion, but I think giving yourself a prize for doing good work is much better done in the shoe shop.

Congratulation on the weight loss, I know how hard it is, so well done to you and happy shoe shopping.