i need to stop purging

Well i had restricted alot(probably too much) and lost weight, then i began binging which led to purging. At first it wasn't too often, but lately I've been purging at least once a day. I've been trying to stop, but I'm not really sure how. I've never admitted to anyone that I have this problem, but i'm really scared that i'll screw up my body.

Today I purged 3 times. After I purge, I end up spitting up some blood(and lots of mucus). I'm not sure if that is normal or not. I've only been seriously purging for about a month and 1/2.

Any tips on how to stop bing/purging? I do fine during the day, but when I get home from school, all I want to do is eat alot of crappy food(even if I'm not hungry). I usually either feel guilty or sick, so I end up puking it up.

I haven't even lost weight in a long while(I haven't gained either). I'm less worried about losing weight though now than learning to eat like a normal person.

 

I do the same thing, but I don't purge. If it's impossible to resist coz I know it sometimes is, I would go to sleep til dinner. I know it's not really a solution, but it works for me because sometimes it is hard. Maybe you could try allowing for some of the 'bad' food you binge on into your calories, then you won't binge on them coz your not cutting them out?

Hope this works and you get better (: 

maybe try being meticulous about the snack you have after school. Cut it into small pieces, chew it slowly, dont watch tv while your eating, and refuse to go baack to the fridge. if you feel like you need another piece, wait a full 2 minutes before you go back, let your stomach register the piece of food it has reiceved. Maybe have a clear broth (like miso soup, or mushroom soup) soup.... very low in calories, the miso has some protein, fulling, and best part is its cheap in supermarkets (you can buy dry packets to add boiling water)

The best way to stop purging (or for me) was to just stop cold turkey. No lie. Once you've gone a month without vomitting... it becomes so much easier. I've gone 5 weeks without purging now I really do feel proud of myself for doing so. I still have those thoughts... but no real desire. The first week is always the hardest though...

It also helped me to write down everything I eat... I know thats still really eating disordered... but it helped me from a more self destructive path. Hopefully I can stop having to write that down as well one day.

Good luck! I know its hard... trust me I've been there. But just coming to the point where you can say I need to stop this is a HUGE step. Try feeding yourself balanced meals so you wont feel the need to binge and purge. Binging is your bodies natural reaction to starving yourself.

Again good luck, its a hard path. I still struggle everyday day with the thoughts of purging. But I know I cannot go the rest of my life doing so. I just need to stop.

wow. thank you guys so much. Today went alot better than it has in weeks. I ate normal-portion meals & a few snacks. I was visiting my brother at the restaurant he works at and I really wanted to get a smoothie(theirs are so good), but I left as soon as I could because I knew I would want to purge it.

Right now I really want to binge, but I'm not going to. So far I've had 1700calories, but i've burned 2100. Since I'm hungry I'll eat a snack, but I just need to plan it out and not be in the kitchen too long or else i might binge on ice cream.

sketchbookbirds - I agree with the cold turkey thing. I tried to stop a few weeks ago, but then I was like "oh i haven't purged in a couple days, I'll let myself do it tonight since i've been so good"....................I started purging even more than before I tried to stop.

Yes. whatever you do, please do not throw up your food to try and lose weight. Trust me, that is not healthy at all, and it could lead to all kind of things. First off I had a problem with that for years. Later I found out that by purging, you are not even throwing up all of your calories, and most importantly, it could be deadly. What happen when you throw up, the acid from your stomach is tearing the lining of your esophagus so that is where the blood is from. If you continue, it could get a whole lot worse. PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEE (speaking from experience) do not punish your body that way. It could become very deadly. Please find another way...

Original Post by riecee:

Yes. whatever you do, please do not throw up your food to try and lose weight. Trust me, that is not healthy at all, and it could lead to all kind of things. First off I had a problem with that for years. Later I found out that by purging, you are not even throwing up all of your calories, and most importantly, it could be deadly. What happen when you throw up, the acid from your stomach is tearing the lining of your esophagus so that is where the blood is from. If you continue, it could get a whole lot worse. PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEE (speaking from experience) do not punish your body that way. It could become very deadly. Please find another way...

 thx. I haven't purged for 3days. I miss it so much. and right now I feel a little sick(like I ate too much - not a binge though) and I want to purge so bad, but I know I can't. I really miss that empty feeling in my stomach after purging, yet at the same time I'm glad to not puke anymore. uhhhhhhh. I can tell I've gained some weight since I've stopped puking, but I'm too scared to weigh myself. thx, your comment helped me dissuade me from throwing up.