never...

mind.

Maybe you are stressed about something...

When did you gain the 20 pounds from?

I'm stressed about not being able to control my eating! that is the only stressor! I just started eating fast food and not caring and stuffing my face all day and not caring and look where I am! I feel horrible. I look horrible. I am terrified of what I am becoming.

I am with ya schnooder. I am going to wire my jaw shut. But I am such a clever over-eater I might just fatten up more from a liquid diet. I guess we need to excersize to keep up then eh?

I literally want to stick my hands in the garbage disposal so I can't lift another thing to my mouth. I wish I could show you how much I hate myself. I am a totally differant person.

Okay schnooder, repeat this mantra with me "Food is not love, food is not love...."

Quit hatin' yourself. And stop the horrific "Saw" movie visuals.....(garbage disposal?!?!)   

Well, if its nothing else thats bugging you thats driving you to eat more... then all you can do is accept things are how they are and start fixing it.

Pull in the reigns and avoid fast-food like the plague...start the good ol' counting calories thing...start working back in an exercising plan (hour every other day or something).

Think of it like a zit... nothing you can really do once you have it...but you can keep your eyes on the future and knowing that it will go away with a little time if you do the correct things (like not pick at it).

There are always ups and downs (after the holidays is normally a trouble area for a lot of people). Its easy to lighten up the fitness thing and get into a rut where weight starts to come back on... just a matter of identifying it is happening and biting the bullet to stop it / reverse it.

Original Post by monarch777:

Okay schnooder, repeat this mantra with me "Food is not love, food is not love...."

Quit hatin' yourself. And stop the horrific "Saw" movie visuals.....(garbage disposal?!?!)   

I try to repeat and repeat the stuff its not working I need to live in a bubble before I eat myself to ugly death

sorry you're feeling so crappy, schnood.

honestly, i think you need something to look forward to.  you've been pondering all these decisions about school, work, etc.  i don't know if you've figured anything out.  but it seems to me you need to make a big change, and you know it, and you're scared to take that step.

having something to look forward to is pretty crucial to our mental and emotional well-being.  if we don't have that, it's almost impossible to keep things in perspective and make good decisions.

i think...well, i'm not going to tell you what i think, because it's irrelevant.  i think you know what you need to do.

I know what I need to do but for some reason I cannot get myself to do it.

you will. 

Whoa, whoa, whoa. Slow down there, missy. Since when did being a certain weight define you as a human being? Or being thin equal being happy? It's obvious you're eating for reasons other than hunger, so my question is, if your life is so "great," then why are you using food as a way to cope with it?

Yes, food tastes good and is nourishing to our bodies, but in the end, it's just food. It can't give you love, stir your imagination, fulfill your desires, make you feel joyful or weak in the knees. At the same time, being thin doesn't solve any of life's problems. Food exists to fill our physical hunger, not any other kind.

Also, I strongly advise against going on a rigid diet and being so unforgiving to yourself. Criticism does not lead to long-lasting change. If it did, the first diet you went on would have worked. Who wants to listen to a voice that's mean and hateful, anyway?

One last thing: if your friends are true friends, they will love you no matter what size you are. I think now more than ever you should be around the people that love you and care about you, and if you can, ask for their support.

Eat as much as you can and force yourself to eat, that will take care of it.

If I try to abstain from food, I overeat, but if I want to increase my calories, I undereat.

Either that or stick a rubber band around your wrist and slap yourself each time you think about food. haha..

I wish I had some great words of wisdom to offer you, but I don't, I am not going to pretend that I know how you are feeling.

I do hope that perhaps someone here who has had a similar experience can say something that will click open the door and reveal the answer.

All best wishes to you.

I went through a similar period this fall and gained some unwanted weight. Every day i'd tell myself that i'd start tomorrow...but before I knew it, the week had come and gone without any change.

What has helped me:

keep a journal to track how you feel and what you eat each day. it really helps keep in perspective how i feel after eating a huge meal vs how i feel after eating healthily. it helps keep me accountable for myself and my attitude towards food.

i have a calendar hanging on the wall above my computer monitor. i circle the days that i have at least a 300 cal deficit and X the days i do not eat within my goals. this way, i can track how i do in a given week/month/etc. it is visible so i see it each morning and throughout the day. with the calendar (or anything) you can make goals....say....have 3 "good days" the first week, 4 the next week, etc.

best of luck. just keep trying.

Original Post by petitoiseau:

Whoa, whoa, whoa. Slow down there, missy. Since when did being a certain weight define you as a human being? Or being thin equal being happy? It's obvious you're eating for reasons other than hunger, so my question is, if your life is so "great," then why are you using food as a way to cope with it?

Yes, food tastes good and is nourishing to our bodies, but in the end, it's just food. It can't give you love, stir your imagination, fulfill your desires, make you feel joyful or weak in the knees. At the same time, being thin doesn't solve any of life's problems. Food exists to fill our physical hunger, not any other kind.

Also, I strongly advise against going on a rigid diet and being so unforgiving to yourself. Criticism does not lead to long-lasting change. If it did, the first diet you went on would have worked. Who wants to listen to a voice that's mean and hateful, anyway?

One last thing: if your friends are true friends, they will love you no matter what size you are. I think now more than ever you should be around the people that love you and care about you, and if you can, ask for their support.

I do not use food to cope with anything but food. I am very self concious about weight.

Deja Vu, I swear I just read this exact same thread only it was a different thread.

I am a college student, and last spring I moved off campus into an apartment with a kitchn and roommates who LOVE to eat. I knew I needed to control myself but I couldn't. Toward the end of the semester I found myself ordering entire calzones when no one else was home, then filling up a bowl of cereal five or six times. I would call my mom in tears nearly daily. When I came home, I was ashamed of how I looked. To help me feel better my mom took me to the store and I picked out some healthy food, then I had to forbid myself from eating junk. I had to literally tell myself it was not allowed, not even an option, or else I would eat all of it. That was in June, and I'm npw 5lbs away from my original weight. I go to the gym every day now and I tell myself daily that I do not want to go back to where I was. I was miserable. I was antisocial all summer long and all of last semester because I felt like a cow. Even at the end of last semester I wore the baggiest clothes I had, and I was miserable. You can do it. For me, not giving myself an option worked. It gets better, I promise. Just nip it in the bud now before it gets worse!

Original Post by loriklorik:

There are always ups and downs (after the holidays is normally a trouble area for a lot of people). Its easy to lighten up the fitness thing and get into a rut where weight starts to come back on... just a matter of identifying it is happening and biting the bullet to stop it / reverse it.

Exactly, Loriklorik.

A lot of people are in the same place after the holidays. We have to remind ourselves that the holidays are over. >_< Lol. Take into account the consquences of the extra dounut.. or slice of pizza... extra five cookies ...ect.  Try just eating things in healthy proportion all week. At the end of the week reward yourself with something yummy. Workout all week too even if it's only a half hour a day at home,ect. That's a good way to get back on track after the season of holiday slurges. The temptations around the holidays are delicious/expensive.

Don't be so hard on yourself,Schnoodle. Everyday is a new opportunity for change.