was I never meant to be thin?

I have been trying to lose weight since I am 13-14 (now 23) I did get to the figure I wanted but I lost it by overeating.I lost substantial amounts of weight many times..but somehow I always got out of focus and went back to being heavy.Im 220lbs at the moment and I have been 121(goal weight/dream weight)once....ever since just trying.Its like im punishing myself...sigh.

I might never get to be thin.Maybe its just not for me...I do have an eating disorder and I am extremely compulsive...but still...so I know that eating is an emotional thing.

sorry for the rant..

 Don't doubt yourself! Everyone has a chance to lose weight and be healthy. It's not about being thin and fitting into a size 2. It's about being healthy and living life to the fullest.

Also, don't think about it as if you are punishing yourself because you became overweight. The greatest thing you can do for your weight loss is to love yourself, normal weight or not. Healthy eating is a life change. It takes time and effort.

On a personal note, I also felt that I was destined to be overweight for the rest of my life. 90% of my family were overweight(or obese) and I thought I was going with the crowd. However, after my sister Amy managed to lose 40lbs and maintain her goal weight for a year, I knew that I could.

Good luck and just take it one day at a time.

I know how you feel.  I have been very overweight most of my adult life.  Went on diets...lost weight, gained more back....same old story.  About 10 months ago I decided to change my life forever and get healthier.  So far I have lost 53 punds, but still have at least 85 to go.  It is a long haul.

You can do it, but it has to be a permanent lifestyle change, not a diet....not a temporary thing until you lose the weight.  It's harder for some of us than for others, but it is absolutely possible!  And you deserve it!

Don't wait as long as I did (51 ys old) to make the change and investment in yourself!

Best Wishes!

You know, 100 pounds is a to high set goal. Of course we have dreams, but aiming at something easier to reach would make things a lot easier. Instead of thinking about losing 100 pounds and not having a time frame, take small steps. Think 10 pounds until Halloween. And then you can decide for a new goal. When (not if!) you reach your -10 goal at Halloween, you treat yourself to something that you just can't get until then, but no foods, perhaps a piece of clothing or something you want to do.

I have just gotten very close to what I want to weigh, and frankly, I was happiest inbetween, after I lost 15 pounds and had 10 left. This is strange, but I guess it has to do with still having something to work on but also being able to reach my goals.

You will beat the compulsiveness too, but staring at 100 pounds would make anyone give up. So don't! 10 pounds is fantastic to lose too!

I know it seems hard, but have you checked with your Dr. about your weight? I felt like I was in the same boat, never losing weight when I went to the Dr. and had a bunch of everything (blood pressue, choles., etc) checked. Turns out I'm insulin resistent and thus my body, despite exercise, isn't able to process food properly. Now I take medicine that aids in my digestion and the insulin productions so I'm able to lose weight at a healthy rate.