I never thought..

I would fit into a junior size 9 again and it be a little baggy. In misses, I am a 10 or 12. Almost two years ago, after having my youngest daughter I was over 200 pounds and a size 20. Sometimes, I look at myself and say I've worked hard and  am a little proud of myself for my weight loss. Other times, I hear my inner voice saying "You are still fat and disgusting. "It's taken me nearly two years to lose  70 lbs and I feel like I should have lost more. I have been stuck at 158-160 for a couple of months now and I still have at least 20 pounds to go before I reach my goal. Even though, I have had people say I look skinny and "great" for having two kids, I still feel FAT and gross. I still wear baggy clothes, (one reason for that is I can't afford new clothes right now, another reason is i still am unhappy with how I look.) Anyone else out there that has lost a good bit of weight, still stuck in the fat mind frame? And how can I bust through this plateau?

First of all congratulations how how far you've made it!!!!!!! I don't even know you and i'm proud of you. That is a huge and wonderful accomplishment. Now i've looked at your picture and you are in no way disgusting. You're freaking gorgeous! I can totally identify with you on the "still feel FAT and gross". I recently fit into a size 6, which i couldn't even do as a KID, but i'm still looking in the mirror and squishing the fat between my thighs wishing it didn't rub. I'm also on a plateau. I've got another 10 pounds to go and the scale is just not budging. Personally i'm actually trying to increase my calorie intake and adjust exercise accordingly. I don't know if that suggestion would help you.

Good luck!!

I have had a similar journey. After my 2nd baby i was 215. i never thought i would get back to where i was. i got down to 144 and then just went off track for about a year tho. i snapped out of it finally (not too long ago) and was at 156-8 pounds. i got myself together and made a commitment to just do it and lose the last bit of weight. im down to 138 now. and i still have fat days.

all this time no matter how big or how small i have been, i have always felt the same. at my biggest i was in denial that i was that big, stuffing myself into the largest size i would buy, a 16. i wore alot of elastic lol. now that i am smaller i still dont feel as skinny as ppl tell me i am. i think it is human nature.

so i guess i dont have much advice...that commitment has to come from a place in you. i have just gotten fed up everytime i have lost weight.

i have been here for 3 yrs, its an ongoing thing. if you lost all that before, then it is in there to finish the job. dont beat yourself up, keep focusing on what you have accomplished, and just know that it will come. :-)