new bikini pictures and body dismorphia

so i posted new pictures of me in a swim suit and i am now convinced i have body dismorphia. I am 5'3 110 lbs, up from 98 in January. When I look in the mirror and i see a doughy chubby girl, and in pictures i criticize every bump on my tummy especially my pooch. I need to get over this before i throw myself back into anorexia. I feel like im going crazy, I weigh myself several times a day and count every calorie.

Has anybody experienced this, and how did you avoid relapsing when you have body dismorphia?

I'm sorry; I don't have much advice other than.. sometimes you just have to stand in front of the mirror.. see your "imperfection", give it a big smile, shrug, and walk away.

I would like to say though.. You look very nice in your bathing suit. It looks more like abs than fat, really. I mean, you can still see your ribs... =P You look gorgeous in the picture where you are 112 lbs. You're a very pretty girl and I can see no reason for you to feel bad about yourself.  You have a better than average looking body compared to the REAL population. =)

Hun, 5'3 at 110 pounds could never be big or chubby. Your pictures are beautiful! Your body is very slim and you do not have any pouch.  When we start to recover from an ed, it takes such a long time to finally realize that we are not big, or to focus on every little imperfection.

Here is a quote that my ed counselor gave to me when I rambled on about my fat thighs or flabby stomach.....  "my illness does not allow me to have an accurate view of my body at this time."      &nb sp;          

College is sooooo hard when trying to not obsess or get all worried over our bodies, but you have to be rational - I am positive that everybody thinks you look awesome, at 110 and 5'3 you are tiny tiny, and you were not healthy at 98.   Hun, fight any thoughts that tell you that you are anywhere near chubby. Don't let  eating disorder thoughts control you- you can do it!

You're gorgeous. I wish I looked like you in a bikini and I weigh less than you ;)

Please don't feel like youre anything other than beautiful and HOT cause you are girl!

Wow.

If YOU think YOU have a pouch, I must look like fourty-five kangaroos had some sort of twisted love-baby with a bag of pita bread...and then had a bastard-child with Jabba the hut's cousin who looks oddly akin to an elephant seal. But seriously. You are MUCH thinner and look INFINATELY better in a bikini than I do. Hell, if you think you're fat, what excuse do I have to feel any better about myself?

...that aside, you look gorgeous. I know you don't see it, but there's nothing I can say that these kind people haven't already said.

Don't be so hard on yourself, you don't deserve to treat yourself so badly. You've obviously been through enough. Hang in there, girl! :)

i am an inch shorter then you and 98lbs last time i checked (up from 80). i took my own bikini shots today and i can honestly say you look a LOT thinner then me...so i understand where youre coming from. to me, my photos showed a girl with a lot of fat to lose. but i am usually a better, more realistic judge when i see others and you look amazing girl :)

 

how do we get past this..? thats a tough one. it does take looking in the mirror and accepting your flaws. if you can, do it everyday. look at the good and the bad and just do your best to accept and love it all. youre so pretty and look amazing in all the shots. im still working on it...and i am sure itll take more time. but you look amazing and its time we all try and accept who we are, what we look like and that weight doesnt dictate beauty, energy, personality or how you live your life. hang in there

My "before" pics are posted as private.  Not to down myself, but if you could see them, you would hardly call yourself fat, or anything close to that.  I am 210 lbs and if you cut me in half, I still would be heavier than you. 

There will come a time when you will start to understand that your weight is not what defines you.  Your heart, mind, and soul are the things that make you, YOU.  Please try and focus on the wonderful person you are on the inside, and when it comes to your physical being, maintain good health.  You look better than average by a far stretch. 

you have a similair body type to my own and i know how you feel about looking at your stomach.  i think it's because we have small hips and wider ribcages that our waist lines are more straight and appear less narrowed that someone with a more hourglass figure.

when i'm feeling paranoid about the stomach issue, i usually just dress in a babydoll/empire style cut or layer with multiple shirts/sweater to hide it.  or if i'm really obsessed, i force myself to look in a full length mirror (not one of those ones that only show  down to the stomach!) i think about how well i try to treat my body, and how generally healthy i feel.  i force myself to think and see how overall my proportions, even though are not prefect, are really not that bad.