Obsessions

I'm obssesed with the right body.Hence, flat stomach.

The right food.

The right size.

The right exercise.

I'm obssesed, even if I'm sick and I need carbs, I prefer not to eat them. I drank a Mocha, no vanilla or any other additive, and I already see myself fatter. I think I'm super fat. I need help.

Like her:

http://just-leighton.com/gallery/displayimage .php?pid=7048&fullsize=1

http://just-leighton.com/gallery/displayimage .php?pid=6821&fullsize=1

Then get help... now.  What you're describing isn't healthy in the slightest.  CC is willing to give support to people that are trying to overcome destructive behaviours such as you describe but it is not meant to be a substitute for professional medical help.  I can tell you that your body needs 'carbs' to be healthy ... but you're not going to listen to me.  I can tell you that a mocha won't make you fat... but you won't believe me.  And I can tell you that there is no such thing as the 'right' size, food or exercise.... but I don't think it'll have any impact because your ability for rational thought is being seriously compromised by your eating disorder.

Unless you take practical steps, you're not going to improve.  You're only 13 and your life is being ruined by this obsession.  Left untreated, it could even end your life.   Talk to your parents, talk to your doctor.  Urgently.

CC does not support or encourage unhealthy lifestyles or behaviours.

The problem is that I do eat. A lot. And I feel bad afterwards. There's a part of me that knows those things won't make me fat, but there's a nother part that says I can't eat those things. But I do eat them anyway. This is so frustrating! I see my belly and it makes me so disgusted! Even though I have like 5 pounds of fat left, barely visible, I obssess over it >_<

The same advice applies.  Talk to those close to you about how you feel and get yourself checked out with a doctor.  What you think is eating 'a lot' might be woefully inadequate.... that's pretty common if someone has an eating disorder.  You don't eat carbohydrates.... that's a bad decision.    If you only have 5lbs of body-fat you're in pretty poor shape.  And mentally, you're obviously struggling badly.   CC can't help you.... and coming back to this website only feeds the obsession..

You're only 13, which means you are about to or are already going through puberty.  You are going to gain weight because you're body is going through changes.  110 pounds is NOTHING to be ashamed of.  You need to be happy the way you are and just make sure you eat when you're hungry and eat the right things.

If you don't already have an ED, then you're on the verge.  I completley agree with Gi-Jane.  Get professional help.