13 years old and loosening my grip

I'm 13 and have lost about 20-25 pounds. Now i am just trying to be healthy and eat in moderation and PORTION CONTROL more than counting calories, though i usually i don't think i eat more than 15-1600.

I used to  gain 20-30 pounds a year. My parents loved buying me slurpees and bagels w/ cream cheese and pasta. i was  like 145 which is overweight for a person of my height at the time. i am now about 120-i don't check everyday. Once i look in the mirror and am completely happy with myself, then i will check my weight and that will be my ideal weight. but i'm not there yet, if i do check my weight even if before i felt pretty good, i will beat myself up. I think it is okay not to check my weight and be really stric ton counting calories anymore. I do Jillian michael's 30-day shred everyday.

Should i count my calories? Should I  check my weight weekly?

If you think that by losing weight you will become completely satisfied with your reflection in the mirror, you are wrong. Self-esteem is achieved by loving your body, not reducing the size of your body. I don't know how tall you are, but I'll bet you're normal weight or even underweight. Because you haven't posted your height, that makes me a bit suspicious that you might be a completely awesome weight at which you don't need to lose.

You will be happier when you are just trying to love yourself.

I am just trying 10 be 110, i am not overweight but i am happier when i'm active and eating less and getting slimmer.